|--broken memories--|

2007-09-14T02:13:00.001+08:00

i've found my new love. so i'm abandoning the old one =xxx sorry my darling LOL !! but you are too sickening haha.

http://sweeter-cherries.blogspot.com =)))

2007-09-06T23:29:00.000+08:00

NNB !!! haha copy from wilson again =xxx damn funny la !!! haha. he find de video always so funny de, cannot blame haha.

got a recent craze with youtube. always watch those old shows and stuff like that la. spent most of my time on it somemore =xxx now i know why kai yuan love youtube so much haha.

kinda miss all my friends. er jie !!! meet up soon !! for swimming haha. and not forgetting my 20 bucks LOL !!! i'm so broke boohoo.

and so who's gonna solve that damned template problem ??? i wanna post the pictures in the new blog so that it's a better start than my rantings isn't it. so someone pls save me =(((

2007-09-04T15:32:00.000+08:00

how to become a better couple

1 --> be realistic about each other
Don't try to turn ur partner into something he or she is not. Let's face it, guys-there's only 1 Pamela Anderson in the world, and even she has had her implants removed! Give ur gal a break and understand that her physical appearance is NOT going to change overnite with the help of a few facials ! or treat ments. And ladies, Brad Pitt has already been taken, so u're gonna have to do with what ur guy is like! Chill out, love each other for what u are. There is more to ur partner than what meets the eye.

2 --> talk things out
Now guys, I know this is not ur fave pastime or mode of resolving issues, but u know what? This works with the gals. Don't make assumptions about each other's feelings. Learn to xpress urself better so that ur partner undrstands what u're angry about, or hurt about, or even happy about! When u stop talking to each other from the heart, it's the beginning of the end.

3 --> do stuff together
Make an effort to do things together. Do some sports or involve urselves in some shared activities; something both of u enjoy or are interested in. It could be as simple as watching movies together, or jus strolling hand-in-hand down Orchard Road . Watch soccor with him once in a while though the green patch on TV puts u to sleep in 3 seconds. And guys, do give in if ur gal asks for another day at window-shopping, rather than suggest that she go out with her girlfriends for "that sort of activities" instead. If u're spending more time with ur friends rather than with ur partner, it's a warning sign that u're drifting apart!!!

4 --> meet each other halfway
If he agrees to throw out that rotten T-shirt with the "The_Rock" print, u shouldn't kick up much of a fuss if he asks u to keep ur room tidy. There's gotta be a little giving and taking in a relationship, so learn to meet each other halfway.

5 --> show your love
Buy her flowers or candy or perfume everynow and then, even if u have been together for 5years. It's wonderful to continue showing someone that u care for him or her. Cook him a special meal, paint him a Valentine's Day card. Knit him mini-socks he can't wear ( like for decoration purposes => ), buy him a packet of milk for breakfast, or pack his wardrobe for him...so he knows u can still be romantic and loving despite having been together for quite a while.

6 --> respect each other
Stop making jokes about her hair or skin, or whatever it is u love to laugh at. Ask urself if she thinks if its funny. And if he has an inferiority complex about his height, stop ogling at tall guys and make him feel worse! Love is about respecting each other's feelings and being sensitive to each other at all times.

7 --> bury the past
Stop bringing up the past. Gals..don't bring up the happy things about u and ur ex to ur guy, it would jus make him jealous or unhappy. And guys, don't talk about the happy times that u had with ur ex or mention about her in ur every other sentence as it would make ur gal feel un-happy and she might think that u saying all this b'cos u are gonna get back with ur ex or not interested in her anymore.

8 --> sit on your jealousy
All of us go thru' spells of insecurity at the beginning of the relationship, but don't translate that insecurity into jealousy. If u're gonna go through ur partner's mail and cupboard, and eavesdropping on conversations, u know something is wrong - with u!!! Jealousy is like a poison that slowly spreads thru' the relationship before finally killing it. Trust ur partner; love has to have trust in it.

9 --> keep your commitments to each other
If ur partner is standing u up all the time and cancelling dates and breaking promises, u need to talk! If u're in a relationship, make ur partner ur priority and don't disappoint them if u can help it. It's really terrible when someone promises to take u to dinner, and then calls to cancel it. Don't make promises u can't keep. If ur partner starts to feel that he/she is not important enough to u, u may jus lose him/her.

10 --> be honest
Honesty is not scowling at how awful she looks first thing in the morning, or telling him that he has the biceps of a fly~! When we say "be honest", we mean expressing ur feelings clearly, not being bitingly cruel. When u're hurt, say so, and when u're angry, tell him/her, w/o getting hysterical. If u can't be honest with ur partner, who can u be honest with? æ Love is also about honesty, and a relationship where no honesty exists probabl! y isn't worth it!

sth interesting i got from KG's blog. if i had been able to do 5 out of 10 of it, my previous rltsps could have survived longer instead of the 1-3 months thing. sucha failure la .....

i seriously hope for blogger to revert to the previous template settings where they allow us to publish our templates first, so from there we can see what's wrong then go edit it. instead of not publishing it then tell me some alien terms which i try so hard but can't figure them out. KNNB !!!

2007-09-04T03:27:00.001+08:00

NNB !!! wanted to blog and post more pictures de lor. i created a new blog cause am sick of this one already i don't know why. then kuku de, suddenly the template so hard to do. say what the entity must be "&" next to the entity reference then dunno what must end with ";" delimeter. catch no balls la, so won't be doing further updates until i get that damned thing done.

will inform you guys of the new webby once it's done up. since i see the recent coldness in the taggy, i suppose everyone see the vid but lazy to upload right !!! ADMIT !!! haha.

well .... i hope everyone is ok, and i bloody hope blogger don't gimme its PMS anymore !!! $%#$#%^^%&^*

2007-08-29T03:49:00.000+08:00

MUAHAHA, stumbled across this on wilson's blog. kinda true and funny so i thought i'll share it with you guys =))) enjoy !!!

funny right !!! haha, at first i couldn't copy and paste the whole. spent like half an hour before it could work. but then when it can work the fonts can't change and stuff. so the font size is abit errr ... i dunno ... haha. bear with it ya. dunno if is it blogger change settings or what. hopefully next time will be ok ba if not i stop blogging =xxxx just kidding la haha.

hope you guys enjoyed the video !!! =ppp

2007-08-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

i'm very very busy recently ...... with sleep. i just can't get enough of it. without sleep, i get all grumpy and irritated.

i slept for 14 hours yesterday, and i still feel tired now. went for a stupid briefing that lasted for less than an hour which half of it was nothing but crap. wasted trip all the way to SP.

took train with kenny, but i alighted at raffles place to meet up with keng guan. go watch SECRET !!! muahaha don't box me. but seriously la, we dunno what was so touching about that story. half the time the audience were laughing. we didn't see anyone crying. when we thought of the story after the show, the first thing that came to my mind was ...........................

"when jay chou was writing this story, was he dreaming or what ??"

don't say touching la, i didn't even feel like crying can. i so emo de, still can laugh at the stupid story. maybe because the girls were jealous that one of the actresses get to kiss jay, or maybe because they were afraid that the huge heavy metal ball would kill their idol haha.

mediocre acting, but fantastic piano skills and beautiful settings haha. lucky i watch on monday plus the discount that NEBO card bring for us, i only paid $6. now i rmb, KG owes me a dollar muahaha !!!

went back suki to buy food then just nice ONN ONN came out. he just finish work la, then talk talk abit then his friend jiu call le =(( damn his friend haha.

am sooooooooooooooooooooo tired. i'm still wondering, the person who kanna accident is from my block but is he my friend ?? i don't dare to go see, but when i found the courage to, he chu bin already. i kept dreaming of the same two people, but i hope it's not them. =((( i don't wanna curse them choi choi choi !!!

benchers !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! who's going back to bowen, tag me !!!

2007-08-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

well ... ok !!! have not been blogging for the past few days. that time spam posts so make up for these days haha. i really feel like telling the whole world that my exams are over, but i still want my life. people during exams can be really outta their mind LMAO !!!

tuesday suddenly had the feeling no choir very weird haha, but think of so many days of the holiday are taken up by choir, i jiu sian full full liao. shit man, i hate that lo. well, no choice. but the timings really suck lor, can start practice at 6pm, then before that dunno what to do, go out halfway even more sian. KNS !!! waste my time haha.

wednesday was a hell lotsa fun. went to eat with the suki people ma. then i think about three tables there are all suki people, like big family gathering. took some photos but lazy to upload, also good for the readers' eyes haha.

my mum keep asking the same stupid question can !!!

"u all go and eat then suki close one day no need to work ar ???"

KAOS !!! of course got people work la haha, suki only got 15 staff meh. i think what we ate most are raw prawns, scallops and cream puffs haha. the regional manager went into the kitchen and took a whole bag of cream puffs for us LMAO !!! we almost died laughing la. the whole time i was sending songs here and there, until suki close also haven't send finish la haha. now at leas my phone not empty empty one =)))

it was really like a big big family la, i think the other customers were thinking why this bunch of people so crazy. cause that regional manager went in to take cream puffs ma, then shun bian take out orders and served the customers. of course they dunno he is our manager la, then they give that stupid face haha. stupid customers, where got customers serve customers. we already say so loud like they cannot hear we are all suki staff like that LOL !!! stupid !!! now i not working can scold them like f*** haha.

bought ciggies then took bus home, too full to walk haha.

was supposed to go back bowen with weenee today but that stupid tailor shop called to say that they won't be open tml nor the weekends, so i have to collect my gown today. TMD !!! have to pangseh weenee, so sorry !!!! after that meet nono, elmo, eugene and jeff plus a few other people i don't really know. play initial D ver4, quite expensive lo. but i think i'm improving haha. they waited ages for me to finish my food until all pek cek >.<

when playing pool at meridien (yes, the place where i performed with bowen chorale before), they suan me but i couldn't hear cause i was listening to songs haha. good not to know what u not supposed to know haha.

then nono's boss msged to say that he gave him the wrong info, sat he can take leave !!! WOOHOO !!! means can play mahjong !!! =pppp at first his boss say cannot then was kinda disappointed, now i very happy haha.

watching the movie "hairspray" tml. i so wanna watch "secret" but everybody seems to have watched it =((( boohoo !!!

"secret" anyone ???

2007-08-19T00:29:00.000+08:00

have made my decision. at last my mind's at ease. if don't have the heart it's better not to start. so jolynn is now back to square one, singlelicious =p

i woke up at 4-ish in the evening today o.0 then went to plaza there de zhi char makan with my mum. crabs, sweet sour pork and brocoli with prawns and tofu.

at first brocoli with prawns only. then the person ask, wanna add tofu ??? same price. i asked if like that the prawns will be lesser ?? she said no, so i went ahead with that order. end up the vege very lil =.= ta ma de haha.

went up to my uncle's house later on. on the way in the cab, there was traffic jam, then mummy got stomachache LMAO !!! then turned to bishan there to alight instead. and the uncle took his time to drive IDIOT !!! hougang to bishan need 10bucks meh. actually he nv let us alight so near de lor, is see there got people flag cab then stop there, if not god knows where he wanna turn. ji bai >.<

then after that took 52 to jurong. i love taking buses =p now then i know 52 to go quite near my uncle house lo LMAO !!! save my mum's bus fare sia.

my uncle taught me lots of things, love him loads but scared my aunty jealous LMAO !!! good chat with him too. we can really click man haha.

of course it's home sweet home afterwards. already 12am le lor haha. i hate today's taxi drivers. either they are not honest with their meters or they can't drive properly. this taxi i took home jerk the car continuously, i should have thrown up in his car, make him wipe his whole damned taxi lor. PHARKER !!! haha.

i think i have offended people when i was making things clear but should be ok already. though he's saying wierd things to me LMAO !!!

i'm blogging often right, so good girl =))) will blog soon. see ya !!!

2007-08-18T00:44:00.000+08:00

yeah guys i'm fine. why should one be so unhappy about not having a BF ???

i think the difference is made very clear and obvious today. if he really wanted to do something for this relationship or make any effort to save it, it would have been done so.

i don't wish to give in anymore, i know this is not what i want. i waited for some response, since there is none. i shall take my first step to walk away now. it's all too late i guess ....

if you love someone, don't hesitate to prove it, through actions, not words.

jolynn is single yet again =(((

2007-08-17T06:39:00.000+08:00

i wanna be ......... single. like i used to be. yes there is a difference with having a BF. it just means u have someone to hug when u go out.

actually it doesn't really make u feel fortunate when apparently u know that he doesn't really care for you. in fact, it hurts more than being single. why can't i be happy like every other girl who has a BF ??? maybe because their BF has their heart but ...... nvm ...

i'm just a normal girl who wants her boy to show care on her. give her lil surprises like coming to fetch her even though u didn't inform her, lil sweet notes or a takeaway meal. whatever thing la, is the effort that matters. something sweet that BFs will do for a girl.

but seems like it's one-sided now. even if i have the thick skin to ask people to fetch me, it will still be something like "lazy la" or "tired la". am i that not worth the effort ??? i dunno. whatever it is, i don't feel loved, or cared for.

even in chats, when he wants to go to slp, he say goodnight, and he can't wait for my reply before he signs out. but he can spend an hour reading a forum of i dunno what. i not worth his attentiveness, i'm really not. does he treat his ex or other girls like that ??? i doubt so.

maybe because i just accept everything so people take it as i don't need the love. but i fucking need it la, i'm human ok. if u don't have the heart to handle my heart carefully, don't take it in the first place.

you are putting feelings ??? you are ??? i think it's more like having fun with a girl beside you that you can look at as and when you want. i dunno what i'm blabbering about, but is this just love ???

everything's so not right. if it's like that where he cannot put in effort to make me feel blessed to have him, then i rather not have a BF. cause now, i feel more like a guy than girl.

it all boils down to one point, he doesn't have the heart for me.

i'm sad, i'm disappointed cause every time, i don't feel treasured at all. in my life, only one guy made me feel treasured but good things come to an end isn't it ???

bo xim then don't make any promises lo. commitment requires so much more than that. if u still have not settled down, or still wanna play and have no mood to take care another person, then perhaps i'm not the one you are looking for. u need a playmate, not a GF that u don't have to take responsibility of.

you broke my heart you disappointed me even before we even started. how am i gonna trust that your actions will mean something in future ???

i trust no one anymore. i'm a failure in love, AND IT SUCK !!!!!!!!

2007-08-17T05:38:00.000+08:00

i dunno if i'm single or attached now, but unavailable haha. i just wanna be happy that's all. i hope i can fufil this simple wish =)))

good luck to all for exams =)))

2007-08-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

am feeling so blue ........ i never felt this before. my intuition tells me that everything is temporary and will be gone anytime soon. it tells me that what i see is just a moment of infatuation, nothing close to reality. but sometimes what i feel is different but i received no assurance. i dare not take any step, for the fear that i may fall again. i need to know how you feel boy, if not i'll just let my feelings fade. how can i let myself sink deeper knowing that there are not only one possibility. should i hold on or should i let go, and continue with what i was a year plus ago ??

i feel sooooo ... well ... this part is abit not very nice. i know that he's finding his way around my blog, and he will one day. so i rather not say anything. i don't wanna suffocate myself with all this, but i don't wish to make him feel pressured. maybe we are just ................. erm .... nvm ....

jolynn is rather speechless today.

2007-08-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

weee~~~ someone's bringing me to kbox tomorrow =p i'm happy keke. movies after kbox too WAHAHAHA !!! =)))))))))

kbox launch its opening so many years already and i only went once before, damn sua ku right HAHA !!! the glass of kbox is going to break tomorrow muahahha. am smiling from ear to ear now =)))))

hope you feel better already. take very good care ok ??

i won 10+ plus at mj today =)))) could have won alot more, but got win can le haha. one shouldn't be that greedy huh. not a sentence suitable for me to say haha. i'm a greedy woman.

after next week, exams are over !!! YAYness !!! i'll take on any mj sessions if i have no CCA on, call me !!! =ppp

2007-08-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

i don't wanna admit it ..... but i feel really hurt ... toy-ed ....

i don't wanna admit this too .... i badly need love ='(

depressed*

2007-08-12T00:11:00.000+08:00

am blogging in this color obviously because of my mood. i'm not exactly in a very bad mood, but just feeling rather down.

i bluffed justien that i was gonna blog about him but actually not that much about him la. ok yes, in the end we didn't catch the movie and spent the whole day looking at them sleep, but that's not the point la.

i don't know am i thinking too much or what. am i leading him on ?? i can sense that no matter what happened just now, it's just for the sake of having fun, yeah we sure had some fun. why are there so many "flings" that make me feel so insecure. i need someone stable, not just anyone to relieve ourselves from pain occasionally. i know it's all just a day of fun, so why my stupid farktard brain take it so hard ??? i really hate this feeling, like i've nowhere to go and will disappear anytime.

maybe i'm being too emotional. but i really don't know what we are feeling. it seemed so serious yet so fake. i don't know, i shouldn't have delved too much into this platonic relationship bringing myself more misery. i really should not have .....

somehow i know what he seek in me is not commitment but fun. at least it's a yes for his side. besides, we are also at the scrutiny of my past, our peers. take it as i thick-skinned la, even if anyone initiates a commitment, am i up to it ??? when i can't even let go of simple things called "memories".

it feels like i'm turning in circles and loops. i always thought that that's the end of me and him, but my next encounter, will always bring the gap of the pain back together. why is it so easy to torture me ??? i just wanna be happy and loved like any other girl. just a simple guy who really cares and loves me. i don't want the world, i just want my heart back.

i guess .... it's just my life, my fate that leaves me with no one who really loves me. maybe no matter how much i try, it'll just make things worse, because it's just so not mine.

i'm not envious, jealous or whatever. but i just hate the contempt i feel that you have towards me. i did nothing wrong by appearing, seriously nothing fucking wrong. there might be a prejudice against me but is there basic respect not to whisper blatantly in front of people. i feel eff-ing discriminated at first, but i decided that i didn't have much say about it, so the best is to keep quiet.

i feel unwanted, unwelcomed and untreasured. is there a "someone" that will bring me outta this ?? with all his heart .... i need that "someone", i feel like i'm breaking down anytime soon.

lastly, about this topic ..... LIFE SUCKS !!!

BENCHERS !!!

can we change the gathering to the week after next ? i forgot that next week is my exam week. sorry guys. i love you all !!! see you guys really soon ok ??

2007-08-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

kua kua kua !!! finally people take my test. cause i put it at a more noticeable place, if not put one week also no one take >.<

very funny lo, the people i expect to get high high marks all just passed nia. then don't know why that eugene can get 70marks LOL !!! cause i give him hint for hte first question ma.

as for the allen c, i don't exactly know who he is. not bad ma, don't know me still can get 40 marks haha. those sacred dates and stuff also can get correct, means must be an avid reader LMAO !!! so buay bar hor me.

i took joey kor kor's test also. failed pathetically =((( shows that i must put in more effort to understand him keke. irritating kids !!! i so agree =p

JARREL CHOO AND LYNNETTE CHUA !!! you two can get 50 marks HOR !!! HMPF !!! keke. lucky you two never get my birthday wrongly, if not i sure humptum the both of you >.<.

as for me myself, i lost count of the jackets i have muahahaha !!!! shall create a more logical test la. this test really retarded cause i didn't know what to ask. stay tuned =)))

talked on the phone with justien last night. so i didn't sleep again la obviously haha. now i know .... he is a .... *ahems* no comments keke. laughed until i almost drop off my bed. but i think later i got him too bored =x sorry.

but hiyah, talk to him sure think of jason de. suan le la, forget him !!! if i can la ...

then early in the morning need to go school. didn't even feel like going lor, but i promise my friend to help them in their project jiu must go lor. then reached home around 4pm and KO. until that damned justien have to call and disturb me LMAO !!

now i realise this common trait in most of my friends that they always like to call and wake me up when i need sleep the most.

EXAMPLES:

excluding justien's one la ...

1) when i was very sick and on medication, amanda called and ask me go school. for project la, don't blame her. so i thought can sleep half an hr more before i go out. then one by one, my mum, mei chi and many people called. =.=''

2) esmond had the habit of calling me when he knew that i slept at 3-4am last night. and he calls at 5 =.='' even on the days i don't need to go to school ok !!!!

still got many more la, but lazy to type here.

am meeting up with justien to catch a movie tomorrow. like finally, i step into the cinemas. have been wanting to watch movie but is either i no time or friends no time.

actually intended go boon lay find him early in the morning, but i scared he can't wake up, later wake me up sleep back again. his idea la, i got no choice LMAO !!! then this fella, last time put me big big aeroplane, i think i got blog about this before la. this time he tell me "eh don't put me aeroplane ar." WTF !!! haha. scared i cannot wake up ar ?? not a prob man =p i laughed at the phone so hard that my mum took out thermometer to measure my temperature. just exaggerating though.

then i found out that he also like taiwan idol dramas leh. quite uncommon for a guy huh. cause normally guys will think that it's bo liao or sissy to watch all this. maybe they are jealous of the male leads in the story. but he different, hmmm ... i gua mu xiang kan leh haha. but also means one more person to "rent" VCD from me LOL !!!

maybe next time really can open one shop and rent all my VCDs. sheryl and mei chan sure very happy one LOL !!!

aiya i really dunno what i talking about. nothing to blog still can nag so much. hao la, i spare your eyes. =p off to o2jam !!! bye =ppp

2007-08-09T01:13:00.001+08:00

PHEW !!!!!!!!! uploading the photos itself took me an hour, what do you think ?? =p only 80% uploaded somemore. i still don't understand why this text is underlined, can't be removed. =(((

ok, let's start off .... on the friday 27th of July, was the inter-class captain ball for HMS. my class, 1A01, won the second prize, with all our might we fight. although it isn't the champion, but in our hearts, we are. (people should know why) our class bond was closer by alot definitely, we had sooooo much fun together as a team. i love our cheer.

lemonade, crunchy ice,
beat them once, beat them twice,
beat them bottom, beat them top,
beat them middle, watch them drop.
first to ten, yell it go,

fight and win, HMS WHOOSH !!!

1A01, this is for us !!! =p

then the day after, i went back to school in the morning for S&W CCA attachment. i stepped onto this bus and the very first thought that came to my mind "where am i?" here i am on a very classy bus with white and red decor, leather couches and plastics seats. very comfy environment, when i'm supposed to board the bus i take every normal day. 2nd thought "need money anot ?? bus concession included ??" YES it's included !!! ok swa ku i know haha.

my friend later told me that this type of bus is newly advertised. singapore only got 4 of them, and i'm so lucky to have board one =)))

nice view huh ....

the card scanners to prove that this is SBS TRANSIT bus LOL !!!

the place i sat, COMFY right !!!

the lucky people LMAO !!!

that's all for that bus haha. i went to malaysia on the 4th of august ... in case any of you start thinking that i'm some rich ass and start asking for presents, let me tell u, i was there only for half a day at a company's offer price of 55 bucks haha.

we went to "desaru" farm. i think i didn't spell it wrongly, even if i did, also nvm la hor LOL !!!

we arrived around 12pm for our durian buffet. actually not totally durian la. haha, no wonder i get fat i know =(

when we first arrived .....

everyone was thinking, so little durians only ??

no la .... here still got 2 baskets LMAO !!! but for 8 tables u know. others nv take out la haha.

so we ate something like that ....

don't look that yummy but it is =p

wa, ugly side kena caught ...

i didn't manage to finish all that =((( greedy mummy..

at the green house, some interesting articles about bees. makes me think of someone =.=

my and my love =)))

<3 life ="">

the phat phat little girl

happy people

our very funny guide =)

wild honey, i bought a bottle of that for my uncle, freaking 50 sg bucks leh !!!

looks like giving out urine LMAO !!

no la, it's wild honey. this is my share =)))

i wasn't pretending to sleep, i just closed my eyes a little longer =p

smiling until teeth can drop out.

later we proceeded to the farm .... very knowledgeable, but how much of them can i retain ?? let me show off to you =p

the tree that cannot produce anymore fruits if u only cut off the fruit but not the whole stem. it has a life span of 100 years !!! WOW !!

the fruit hanging there, asking me to eat it =p

he's telling us, the one with the redder skin inside the flesh is white, the one more pale and pink, the flesh very red.

looks like a .... *ahems*

i can't really see what's that.

this seeds are ripe when they turn red or dark pink. inside it are 2 coffee beans that are brown in colour. this is a coffee plant, don't look like right.

two beautiful cucumbers romancing on their tree. lalala~~~ then baby cucumber comes out =p

this is called the marrow gourd or something, can't remember the name. but just look at the length !!!

a lonely cucumber hanging by itself cause her friends went dating on another tree =)

typical potted plants la ...

a cottage by the farm ...

the emergents

like some olden china days de photo.

one side of the pond with very few fishes ...

looks kinda majestic right ?

the crowded part of the pond.

like SAMSUI woman HAHAHAHA !!!!

apparently i had bad hair day ....

told u right, very bad hair day =(((

teapots in the olden days.

little bicycles ...

antique weighing scale and my phat reflection ..

wine jars .....

real porcelain cutleries

my mum dunno tell me what is this for, but it just looks like a bicycle of a night soiler to me. who wanna ride on it and collect shit ??? =p

ostrich's eggs. i suspect they are fake though >.<

old antiques.

moulding beancurd ??

i still have this in my home u know LOL !!!

pounders, F&N still got use =p

ewwww ... spices .... yuck ...

the old old charcoal stoves.

mushroom <3s>

garbage holding area ?

delicious and juicy jambus =) *slurps

show u my backside

that's my friend's backside, mine sexier =p

ok la, i show u my head now, pretty ?

you can't see me ~~~

poor monkey, forced to have his photographs taken.

i think they deprive him of food, so that he has no choice but to perform =(

he drink halfway not enough, jiu take away from him. of course bo bian must pose but not happy.

see ... he running for food lor.

poor thing right. he's the type pluck coconut not climb trees one. will die if living under pressure. very poor thing =((((

the rabbits are smelly, REALLY stinky !!!

stupid-looking goat =p

u look at me how i eat !!! STRESS LEH !!!

hi mr horns !!!

don't barge out, i hate you !!! =x

i like your baby better =p

spotted this rooster dancing about again LMAO !!!

u look at me !!! i hide again !!!

who is the gang leader ?? LOL !!!

lazing around huh .... whack u all then u know !!!

my personal favourite

stairway to heaven =)))

why u all keep appearing !!! shoo !!!

no idea what's this photo about.

nice place for old people to sit around.

this plant is special. it's flowers bloom before it's fruits. a snail-looking type of fruit which can be used to cure high fever and stomach bloating.

lovely scenery.

malaysia's most depended on crops. oil palms.

we have ya kun toast they have old town toast selling the same things =.= they charge 60cents for ice water.

at night, we had our seafood dinner at the eastern part of johor bahru at a keylong along the shores.

was pretty dark when i started taking pictures. before that was too hungry to bother LMAO !!

poor living conditions.

the sign board of that restaurant.

spent 3 hours on this entry. hope all of you have enjoyed =p not much photos of me ma haha. take care guys !!!

2007-08-03T11:09:00.000+08:00

i thought this could be a happy post that i wanted to write. but no ... sorry guys ...

i lost my phone, at least that's what i think. i'm praying hard that i left it at home though it's kind of not possible. i called and called my phone but no one answered, maybe the uncle don't know the functioning of a phone. i'm only too glad that it's the shuttle bus, not SBS.

it's not a matter of money, i'm going to change my plan and phone anyway. but it's the memories, all the photos and msg-es of me and him that i kept. recently i keep having encounters where i will almost lose my phone but i retrieved it back so many time. this time it may be real.

are things telling me to let go ?? seeing that i still can't let go after so long, are circumstances forcing me to do so ?? people have girlfriend already, why am i still such a bitch to cling on. he doesn't know that i cry so much for him, miss him so much, thinks of him everyday, so why am i still so foolish, doing things that will bring me nowhere.

i want to forget him, i really want to. i really tried not to think anymore, not to bring this up here anymore. i sweared i really tried to forget.

but i just couldn't contain my feelings for him. i love you jason, even after so long ..... sighs ... you love your girlfriend. thank me for smiling in front of you and her when i actually wanted to cry.

god, thank you for making things so hard for me.

2007-07-27T16:41:00.001+08:00

peter pan pan told me to upload the pictures we took, so here they are haha. most of the time is me yi xiang qing yuan la LOL !!!

looks sweet right haha. but no yolanda !!! we have nothing going on =p

can see how mian qiang is he right LMAO !!!

FUN !!! =)))

WHACK ME !!! YOU IDIOT PAN !!! =P

what !!! trying to snap scandal ar ??!!!

PEOPLE DON'T LAUGH I TELL YOU !!! YOU BETTER DON'T LAUGH I TELLLLL YOU !!!!

2007-07-27T10:52:00.000+08:00

WAHAHAHA !!! boring blog huh. i kind of forgot about it the past few days >.<

i hate the end of a semester, everything so rush. only have one week to complete two freaking tough assignments. barely have enough sleep la !!! after that CD project we were like "WA BIG STUFF ACCOMPLISHED !!!" then everyone took a break and couldn't get back on track alrdy haha, all procastinating.

was feeling very happy on wednesday i don't know why. no matter what bad thing happen, it didn't ruin my mood, even when i have dizzy spells all day. going crazy ??? haha who knows.

my last days at suki already. this wednesday and saturday then no more le. on both days i work at night but ONN ONN work until 5pm only. so it means that i won't see him anymore. no fate lor =))) thinking of preparing a little something for everyone there then give it to them when i return my uniform. all of them were great =))) i love them, can't bear to leave but i just don't feel like staying on already, don't know what's pulling me away also. but i really lack time for myself la. will visit there often for food =)

yesterday i chiong-ed that stupid belinda's assignment until 4am. so i think can sleep until 7am then take shuttle bus to school no need wake up at 6am. but i couldn't sleep at all !!! i literally waited for my alarm clock to ring. perhaps it's because i slept till too late the night before. thus being too lazy to go out with zara, cause the weather also too nice to laze around at home la. sorry =x she was lazy too OK !!! haha.

am waiting for the lecturer to come in. we missed one hour of lesson last week cause we went to watch jamie perform then he told us to come one hour earlier. then NB !!! he at meeting, fly big aeroplane !!! haha.

i just create my friend test, it's somewhere below my taggy or links, easy one. go try =))) good day ahead !!!

2007-07-22T01:45:00.001+08:00

on friday, i heard some people sing. they weren't as good as what some others said they were. but dance was GREAT !!! esp jamie's group !!! they won !!! CONGRATS !!!!

choir after that was seriously boring la. am thinking whether to quit or not, just not my cup of tea. saw lun, wilson and guys downstairs my house again haha. chat chat chat .............................. stories .................

then went back and called eddie. personal stuff here, can't be mentioned la. after that, he still refused to let me sleep, so cruel la. am very tired can !!! previous night only slept for 4 hours. talk to him also bai bai talk, say already also don't listen, THINK THINK THINK THINK THINK !!! think somemore la !!!!!!!!!! LOL !!!

woke up at 3pm. though mummy said that she tried to wake me up but i didn't hear at all LMAO !!! went down to atrium to meet elmo. YAY !!! ID is back to life, but unfortunately, i have no interest in the new version leh. wanted to try playing today, but i haven't collected my nEbO MIP card. SAD !!! =(((

went back to hougang around 5plus. so i literally went to atrium for nothing haha. see all the good old friends =p met up with wilson and gang again. eat at level 4 foodcourt.

there was this very rude aunty, with her two kids, standing behind our table and staring at us. she was looking for seats la, but don't she know that it's rude to stare at people eating ?? she could have at least pretend to look away, but NO !!! she didn't even when i was staring back at her. SO RUDE !!!! her poor kids, got such a bad role model.

then they walk here walk there, and poor me, in that uncomfortable heels following them about. couldn't find anywhere with pool tables available so we went somewhere near kovan for tau huey and oh ah jian. DAMN FULL la !!! they really can eat alot man.

slacked at void deck, happening la haha. chasing here and there. joel hit the side of my eye with the bottle cap that he kicked. his aiming also damn zhun la. KAOS !!! then my ex-husband yvonne came haha. why ex-husband ??? cause she admitted to adultery 2 years ago LMAO !!!

later was emo-time, let's not talk about it. i saw the stone tables and chairs at the void deck next bloack to my house, memories flooded back ........ SIGHS .....

2007-07-21T00:36:00.000+08:00

zzzzzzzzzzzz !!!! is this big enough ??? !!!! sickening haha. then when i angry how ?? type in largest x3 ar !!!

2007-07-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

OK !!! changed blogskin =))) it's actually pretty much the same things you see except for the layout la. joel feedback that the fonts become too tiny to read. so i'm testing it out here =)))

have fun !!!

2007-07-20T00:09:00.000+08:00

WA !!! si bei long never update my blog huh ... nvm one la hor, also nobody read LOL !!! got photos, but lazy to upload la as usual, if not ppl complain heart pain again.

another bad thing happened la ... apparently, lance didn't pray hard enough. LMAO !!!

i woke up feeling throbbing pain in my leg. u know the inner part of your ankle, slightly below it near the base of your foot. such a weird spot, couldn't have sprained it what. and it's so much more painful la. i thought if i rest it on my blanket, it will feel better, but NO !!! once it touches something, i think i will scream. there's nothing i could do to stop that excruciating pain.

and i scared my mother by calling her and not saying anything. so i took about half a minute to finish crying and start telling my mum what happened. so she took off and brought me to my uncle's place. he said that i accidentally stepped onto some offering or what la, which i couldn't recall at all.

then he did something to my leg, but i didn't feel pain at all LOL !!! was still imagining how i will faint if he treats my leg like how he usually does. then i slept at his house for about 4hours, cause i couldn't sleep in the morning, just too painful la. ate dinner, cabbed to hougang mall, buy that bandage and met up with wei lun and guys.

they damn cruel la, put my slipper high high ask me climb up to get it =.= take my things and run off, thinking that i can chase up with them. DAMN PAIN la !!! the swell's getting worse
=((( but better than in the morning, wind blow, i never move, also can pain like mad.

they left after that, only left me and wei lun. played on the swing and got very giddy, i weak i know haha. he didn't wanna go back too early, but i can't acc him till so late. I HATE CURFEWS ROAWRRR !!! i can sense that he rather upset leh, sighs .... hope that all of them including me la, will be fine. this week is a bad week. FULL STOP !!!

2007-07-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

last few days was HORRENDOUS for me !!! totally sucked !!! maybe not totally la huh ..

tuesday's attachment was fine. went to school, didn't even have time to eat lor $#$%^& booked room ma, then chiong my CD stuff. then kenneth brought his "ginnas" to terrorize me =.='' wa so scared, they didn't even dare to come in LOL !!!

the day was ok, until test had to come. it was difficult, though it's MCQ. the choices were kind of stupid yet smart, contradicting la. some of them you find it very true in real life, but think again ... school's test paper will ask this type of things meh ?? but you never know if that's the correct answer. so have to really read between the lines. hopefully the answers i choose in the end will be correct. this 20% or dunno how many percent is IMPT !!! i only got a moderate pass for the last test =(((

choir was ok. then had committee meeting. realised that being in the committee ain't easy at all. in fact, very hard !! i'm not born to be a leader, but i'll try. and i believe kenny, my assistant will work hard together with me =))) GO CHOIR !!! ppl may say we sing for the sake of nth but high and low notes. they might say we are aqua, or lame. but just rmb, they are ppl that don't appreciate the same music as we do. it is a sign of disrespect to pass comments about stuff u don't know but it's also a sign that indicates the way you think before you say. shows that you have no depth in thinking at all, shallow !!

well ... all these harsh stuff was to emphasize on the fact that we humans, have many different views. you should not try so hard to run ppl's passion down when they did not do it to yours. even if they did, you are just childish to play back with them. if some ppl can show basic respect by not commenting, it might make him/her look smarter. besides, i think that him/her comparing whoever with my friend in choir, will sure lose. cause he/she had not heard both sides, and is so eager to announce the results already. well .. it's ok ... talented people don't have to seek attention to be famous. they will one day, be well-known in the way they want it to be. people who can sing very well, need not be a performer or singer right ??

on the way back, had a long chat with jing yi after zeke alighted. i love chats with her =))) keeps me rather engrossed. usually in long chats, i'll be the one to get off track first haha.

this is one of the very bad parts of my days. chiong assignments !!! then didn't sleep, still can go school late =.= was kinda pissed off before CD lesson, well don't wish to elaborate. ppl who should know will know.

went out with jasper after school. before that, went to far east buy cardigan with sheryl and her mum. but sad to say, one button already drop out le. so sad !! cannot find leh. maybe tailor there will have then go buy haha. ate ramen with jasper, the food was like the maggie mee i cook at home, don't know why he like haha. then walked around with nothing to do. wanted to play initial D but didn't bring my cards =.= think i bore him to death la. first time meet, also dunno what he like, scared later he don't like. blah blah, couldn't find movie to watch either. DAMNED !!! lucky when we go PS, i play stock car for initial D alot of ppl challenged me haha.

bade goodbye at around 9plus. thank god for him, he must be feeling great at that time.

had a good sleep after so many nights, till 12pm =))) then jasper didn't exactly talk much to me already. perhaps i'm really that ugly till the extent where he don't wanna contact me after meeting. well, he is my ex's friend, so one fine day also will see me. god bless him.

work sucked today. attitude customers. but after work was kind of good. joked abit, then wei lun send me home and talk about some stuff, not convenient to reveal here. seems like so long nv work with him. but also good la, if not when he work always very crowded, cause his mouth very smelly. no customer then he say very empty, then customer come filling in. it's too true not to believe. all of us in suki don't dare suey chui, only him haha.

but am quitting soon. i don't know why, i just don't feel like working there already haha. but also quite she bu de. how leh .....................

ok here comes the worst part. for the CD project which i just handed in on wednesday, it stated that it was supposed to be week 11. then i have this project due on week 13. thinking i have 2 more weeks left so i didn't panick or what la. but then kenneth told me it's week 13 already. so the assignment descriptor was printed wrongly for CD !!! DAMNED !!! why her assignments all like that de !!! TMD !!! die, now i don't even know which group am i with =.=

so many bad things in a row. people !! pray for me T.T

2007-07-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

to add on to my day which didn't really start well, i was late for S&W class. so have to partner with that stupid teacher. torture me like some mad man. crazy means crazy !!!

then after that partner with that pui eh, very xin nang. empty vessels make the most noise, so true haha. kp so much in the cannot do himself, still can laugh at ppl. kenneth say he insecure, scared ppl dunno he li hai, scared ppl laugh LOL !!! i keep smashing into him he like very happy, i think is zhar bor advantage la. next time must take chance and smash more haha =x

after S&W, i wanted to go change, but i once i stepped into that damned toilet, the lights went off. freaked out la, then dont want change. kenneth still laugh at me =((( then went down to canteen 2 de toilet. i think i change very long, he wait until want sleep haha. well, girl ma ....... LMAO !!!

what really makes my day "bad" was that, i got irritated by "someone" that wu gui, pig or tiko peh, whatever la. well it's ok, i too used to being teased haha. i got my revenge by pinching his muscular arm. not muscular, just hard and stiff like a tree branch. hao kan bu hao chi one. no strength one LOL !!! that ah pui say one =ppp

reached home, bathed, talk to that stupid someone. then went out with KG for dinner at cartel. wanted to have ichiban sushi instead but in the end somehow we settled for cartel. my order took very long to come, so he offered to share his food with me. how nice haha. like real, i snatch one la, but he didn't mind haha. we are good friends anyway =))) then we share our dessert "lovers' fantasy" sia. sia la !!!! LOL !!! i forced him to finish the blueberry, cause i kind of hate berries, maybe with the exception of grapes haha.

bought a bag home on the way. got lelong lelong ma haha. 10 bucks, bu mai bai bu mai =))) no such adverb though, if not i can use it on my mum to stop naggings whenever i bring a shopping bag home LOL !!!

no handsome guys one the way home, no bus encounters like sheryl's, nothing special except for friends =))) my friends made me so happy today =))) not bad day la, tiring but enjoyable =)))

off to catch up sleep after so many days. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz YAWNS !!!!!!!!! POOT* :)))

2007-07-09T12:34:00.000+08:00

hi guys =))))

let me tell you guys something....

i arrived school this morning by a bus driven by a driver who drove like everyone on board had gangbang-ed him. well .... he started off pretty gentle but started to go bonkers when we passed by bishan fire station. maybe there was a fire and he was trying to avoid it =.='' luckily, i alighted the bus alive and in one piece.

-THE END- :)

2007-07-07T00:42:00.000+08:00

i suddenly feel so lost, like i've nowhere to go in life.

2007-07-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

life's going on well ... erm ... not really la .... no not well ...

can i make up my mind ??!!!

IT SUCKS !!! feeling sick and stuff ... having loads of problems that i dunno why i have to go thru ... see all the unfairness, accept all the ugly sides of my life ...

ok la, dont say until i so ke lian ... i'm also a very bad person that i know. i have zero tolerance for everything that doesn't go my way. in other words, stubborn. then i can't stand injustice done to myself and my friends or whoever i'm helping, but to others, i can't really be bothered. BIAS !! selfish or whatever u call it.

alot more i'm lazy to type out here, get to know me and you'll know. i'm not trying to be pessimistic here, but hiyah, it's the truth la. i dont wanna deceive myself. that's the reason why i got such a bad life, and i only have myself to blame. if i treat everyone good, everything will be better, i wont be so miserable. but i just dont know why i cant. why do i have to be so temperemental and whatever i dunno.

ok some days back i saw that very blissful couple (names not mentioned here, they will know themselves if they read it), then i saw her again at the other side of school. ok coincidence la, then rmb-ed those stupid conflicts and thought that i was kinda rash, temperemental hormones raging. i was 90% at fault for not speaking nicely, hiya but i also dunno la. i just have the urge to hate myself, i have to. i don't know why i thought of them of such bad ppl at that time when they aren't really are. unfair to them ba, all i can say is sorry ba.

so many things have flew past my eyes and i never learnt to treasure, so i got none. it's time i do something, but i don't have motivation nor strength to do so. it's kinda religious so it's hard to find a partner, cause only deep believers will wanna do that. i shall find that spirit back, on my own.

being single for so long, i shan't deny that i feel lonely and want someone to acc me. but i don't want to take just anyone, cause it hurt others as well as myself. even if someone appears and things are mutual, i also don't dare. afraid that i wont treasure, afraid of getting hurt. maybe i should just be a nun, cause buddha wouldn't abandon me ?? well ... it's almost impossible haha.

after saying so much, i don't know what i'm trying to drive at. this is the main reason why i always fail english wahahaha. ok, enough said, i'm tired of my life. let's go to slp =p

2007-06-29T11:25:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden i don't know where to start haha.

many many things happened these few days, both happy and sad la. most of the time i felt so frustrated la, but i think should be ok liao ba.

cause of all those things, i got mood swings on tues haha. after KAP sat 74 home with zeke, weenee and zhiliang, plus his friend i dunno de haha. play until all of a sudden emo liao. sorry =x

stephanie's last day on wednesday. work quite slack, rather happy. after work play like siao haha, 10pm jiu finish closing le, half an hour wait for time to punch card, $2.50 leh. first time see onn onn laugh until like that =p he tio "rape" by us sia.

then go down eat with onn and zhan yi of course plus stephanie la. then adeline and aileen come down join us. onn onn kanna suan like siao, i think he play until tu lan lor. halfway jiu leave le, SIANED !!!!!!!!!!!!

this week is like soooooooo tiring. tues was like crazy !!!!!!!!!!! attachment, very bad things happened la. then chiong projects. after that is choir then KAP. then go home chiong all the way until next morning thanks to the damn project, edited so much stuff la.

then wednesday got 5hours of lecture =.= ji tao sleep the whole day, if not for attendance, i will just sleep at home haha. work already talk about it liao la, don't lor sor keke.

thursday was fun =p woke up at 12-ish, so long since i did that. went to bugis for my last session of treatment then meet mummy for lunch. gave the restaurant a miss and settled for kopitiam haha cause at night go suki eat ma.

but was so angry. was shopping for shoes la, found one quite cheap one and the other at normal price. cause it's offer, then they can only sell display ones, WTH. then one old one new ma, so colour so different la !!!!!!!!!!!! then both the salesgirls (diff shop) gave me the same reason.

" oh it's comes in different colour one, is like that de, design pattern ma."

SO BELIEVABLE !!!!! i was fucking pissed la. so imagine, when they try so hard to sell the display set and lose so many customers, worth it meh. can't they just put aside one pair just for display KNS !!! spoil my mood. if not i sure buy one lor #@#$%^^&* i still want that heels, but i really dont wish to get 2 different colours each pair lor !!!!!!!!!!!! sian, hope can find an identical one somewhere or next time i pass by there they got new display set, which is very not likely. i can't imagine someone buying that. well .... no business ethics la the boss.

later got choir, maybe have some fun again =p that's all for now, boring life haha. buh bye =)))

2007-06-24T02:38:00.000+08:00

How well have you travelled?

East-West

[X] Changi Airport - to slack and for holidays !!! =p

[X] Expo - forgot what, some seminar perhaps ??

[X] Pasir Ris - white sands with caleb, and also chalets of course.

[X] Tampines - mall and century square, boring place.

[x] Simei - eastpoint or sth ?

[x] Tanah Merah - my teacher's and friend's house.

[X] Bedok - with siang and gang

[ ] Kembangan -

[X] Eunos - east coast park

[X] Paya Lebar - yup, for a few purposes.

[X] Aljunied - find mummy :)

[X] Kallang - ice-skating

X] Lavender - IC and passport

[X] Bugis - every single week, many purposes

[X] City Hall - pearl river palace :) of course other activities la.

[X] Raffles Place - performance, and i forgot what.

[ ] Tanjong Pagar -

[X] Outram Park - visit friends, both good and bad stuff =(

[x] Tiong Bahru - yup, when me and jarrel had nth to do. with relatives too =p

[ ] Redhill -

[x] Queenstown - forgot who's house

[ ] Commonwealth -

[x] Buona Vista - NUH and bus card purposes in pri school.

[X] Dover - SP, meet up with friend

[x] Clementi - my school is there =.=

[x] Jurong East - almost every week, to my uncle's place =)

[x] Chinese Garden - catch fish, illegal though =x

[x] Lakeside - eat stingray ?? didn't eat though

[x] Boon Lay - jurong point and ken's house.

North-South

[x] Bukit Batok - granny's house

[ ] Bukit Gombak -

[X] Choa Chu Kang - Lot 1

[ ] Yew Tee -

[ ] Kranji - War memorial

[X] Marsiling - mahjong =) <3

[X] Woodlands - Causeway Point and to meet jason last time =(

[ ] Admiralty -

[X] Sembawang - Sun plaza

[X] Yishun - use to be there almost everyday.

[X] Khatib - lele's house =p

[X] Yio Chu Kang - swimming with er jie (LOL), and to meet jason last time =(

[X] Ang Mo Kio - eh, alot of stuff la.

[X] Bishan - junction 8 and perhaps cheerleading competition ?? just to support la.

[ ] Braddell -

[X] Toa Payoh - many many times

[x] Novena - QQ rice

[ ] Newton -

[X] Orchard - what do you think ?

[X] Somerset - =.=''

[X] Dhoby Ghaut - atrium, PS, meridien :)

[X] Marina Bay - Steamboat la what else.

North-East

[X] Harbourfront - Sentosa/Vivocity

[X] Chinatown - new year =)

[X] Clarke Quay - with ZK in the past

[X] Little India - buy dunno what

[ ] Farrer Park -

[x] Boon Keng - with pau boon during sec 1 days

[X] Potong Pasir - big aunt's house

[X] Serangoon - devester's house

[X] Kovan - common hang out last time

[X] Hougang - i live 200metres away from it LOL

[X] Buangkok - friend's house

[X] Sengkang - meet jason =( and also hangout with friends

[X] Punggol - uncle's house

2007-06-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

recently .... i said RECENTLY only ok ... my taste buds are acting up. they seem to wanna taste everything their friend (my eyes) see. (even the water in the swimming pool this morning :/)

but the food i wanna taste recently are kind of expensive, poor mum. i kept craving for sushi at my workplace but QB say he will take care of that for us after he gets his pay =) sunday i had sushi, monday i forgot what i ate, tuesday was lunch at pearl river palace (some place at suntec) then wednesday was sakae sushi because QB postponed the suki sushi feast haha. but then, today was normal food =((( partly because of a damn injection that i dont dare to take in junk food(which i still did anyway).

ok, let's not sidetrack and get back to the boring journal of my mundane life.

woke up at 6.30am (this is not normal though haha) and laze in bed for 1/2 hr (pretty normal :) ). called lynnette (almost forgot how to spell her name =x) at 7am to wake her up and prepared for our swim. happily i walked there, braving through the swarmp of mosquitoes flying out of nowhere.

AND THERE !!! i saw lynnette after so long (well .. not very la). and the first thing she had to tell me was .... "eh the swimming pool close leh .." not very convinced, i went to look and it was really closed. it stated there "the competition pool will be open for continuous swimming on monday, wednesday, friday, saturday and sunday at 6.30am only" if only we woke up on time yesterday =.=''

SO .... WE MISREAD THE NOTICE AND WALKED OFF THINKING IT WILL BE CLOSED FOR TODAY. haha =.='' msg to ask other people if other places got swimming complexes. intended to go tampines but jason replied me to say that YCK also have swimming complex. ok so we took a bus there.

upon arrival outside the complex, we were hoping that it is open though it's under the same organisation (we were still thinking that swimming pools are totally closed on tuesdays and thursdays). it looks closed but there was someone at the counter and the gate was not locked =ppp IT WAS OPEN !!! i jumped around like a fool until the staff look at me like some alien.

ok happily swim swim swim. lynnette is lazy la, swim halfway then complain already. so i drag her to swim more until about 10.10am. (haha 1010 again =) ) bathed and heard two ah lians bathe using the same cubicle, making LOADS of noise.

back to hougang after that. took a short nap while waiting for lynnette to put down her things and come find me. if she called 5 minutes later, i would have continued sleeping through the day. went to bank in and update her bank books (she's very RICH and i know her PIN number :) bribe me if you want to =pp ). went for that damned injection, abit painful la.

met GOBI !!! haha, he's a funny guy. had lunch at food court and then it was shopping at POPULAR (me and erjie cannot resist spending money there =.='') and some bag shop. and i went home after that :)))

once i reach home BOOM* slept till evening haha. they two poor JC people had to go out for PW LOL !!! might be swimming again tml :)

just now after dinner, i suddenly felt like seeing YOU* so i pretended to suggest a stroll around hougang with my mum, but she rejected. even i know we might not meet so coincidentally, even though i know we might miss each other by a second, i still wanna try. *pushing myself against all odds.

2007-06-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

woke up at 12pm, wanting to sleep through the day. but had to meet sheryl and zhi liang at 2pm. prepared and went out with some weird outfit today. i didn't exactly wake up at the right side of my bed la.

bought glue at jubilee then headed to subway to meet them. initially, i thought i will be the latest, but later on, i realised that i was wrong. no one in sight !!! so i wondered if sheryl put me up LOL !!! then she called.

RINGRING-

SHERYL: where are you, he reach le ma.
ME: no leh, never see anyone.
SHERYL: call him la.
ME: duwan la, paiseh.
SHERYL: ok nvm, i ask him call you.
ME #@%^^&&**&

it was our first time meeting him la haha. then he really called and that "hello" was unforgetable haha. like erm, cute yet shy LOl !!! then i met him and we browsed around without choo xue le. LMAO.

the first few moments was really awkward cause his english very chim, make me very tensed up and tongue-tied LOL !!! he keep touching my head, i'm short i know !!! haha. then talk talk talk, yak yak yak .... until miss choo arrived.

went to mac and had ice-cream. talked about lame stuff, then me and sheryl folded hearts and zhi liang started dozing off. sorry =(((( made u so bored.

when we chatted about "huggi-ness", zhi liang hugged sheryl 3 times, and her expression was priceless haha. i was still kinda shy, dunno what to say, blabbering nonsense still. walked around the shops and then zhi liang initiated a hug lol !!! i'm more cuddly than that bamboo sheryl right LOL !!!!!!!!!

we hugged each other goodbye but still walked the same way LOL !!! bought yummy chicken wings and headed to the MRT station. zhi liang left 1st as he was rushing for time and we two princesses were walking far too slow. was actually behind him walking to the bus stop, but since he rushing for time then don't stall his journey already. he bumped into his friend said "hi" then got up the bus and sat in the front seat of a double decker. so BYE BYE !!! LOL !!!

so long since i met a gentleman la. open doors, pull chairs at mac donalds for us, not some restaurant then pull haha. well, he's funny, but half the time i replied a "huh" to him cause i couldn't catch what he was saying. my english too lousy la. macho man somemore, tall tall big size LOL !!! he up for grabs you know, who want who want ?? LMAO !!! want also don't intro you =ppp joking la, he not so flirt one.

but the whole day i was thinking of ONN =((( don't know what to do. i'm in love, are you ?? SIGHS-

2007-06-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

WAHAHA !!!! finally uploaded the photos. i'll be very kind to you all, i only upload about 50/300 photos i have on hand. anyway, these photos were taken long long ago haha, when dinosaurs ruled the earth.and LOL !!!!!!!!! there are more, but i forgot which folder it was in. i know i can be more kind by not uploading any, but i cannot break my promises right LMAO !!!

just another typical cam-whoring pose

am very happy, can see from my face la haha.

ok, well, still very happy.

we look like siblings haha. he say that i look pretty cause he is beside me LOL !!! not a compliment at all.

happy darlings :)))

just woke up from a 3hrs damned lecture

WTH !!! BWG !!!

Miss "Forever-Late"

my darling, cute ma ?? hehe.

one of her cam-whoring tactics.

a light-hearted day.

shoes of the ladies

she does not only love my camera, she loves my mirror too haha.

that face to who ??

everytime i spot "cheerleader" my expression is like that. "AI MEI" !!! lols.

spastic ?? no ??

cheerleader again ?? maybe another one HAHA !!!

feeling photogenic ?? BLEAHS !!! PUI !!!

kai yuan walked past me =)))

i look as if i wanna murder or i'm about to cry.

nice one :)

mashed potato look-alike play dough

qing ai de <3

superb photography skills LOL !!! i like this one. esp the position of the tree haha.

well ... she tried hard enough to scare me LMAO !!

bright lightings =)))

what have we been doing just now ?? why is she w/o pants =ppp

FAT ASS !!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugly i know.

act emo only, i was very happy on that day haha. cause my laptop dropped.

i seriously don't know what happened to my mouth.

darling's super sunday girl hairstyle.

mystical effect.

hairstylist: sheryl choo, my hair by the way.

giving my laptop some love, hoping it will spring to life.

who did i see again ??

fake smile. :(

humungous piece of bread. i couldn't finish even half of it.

the toilet bowl looks nicer than me =ppp

4years of friendship =)))

presenting ......... the fattest legs on earth !!!!

creative people =)))

my personal favourite

one on the eyes, another on the brows, the other on the lips, mine on the nose =)))

FFFFOOOOOOOOOOOODDD !!!

i'm trying to get her to breast feed me =xxxx

my profession =)))

good friends for life :))) i love her though she won all my money the other day haha.

when can jolynn ever stop being crazy ?? when she is 80yrs old ??

finally found the mood to upload MOST of my photos kekeke. many of you must at least experience some breathing difficulties already. maybe some already died and left the world LOL !!!!!!!!!!

past few days was hectic for me, almost died. rushing projects, going for work and performances, no time for sleep, no nothing, very LIFELESS !!!!!!!!!! finally finish my IT assignments yesterday and had a good sleep till today afternoon, when "person" called me !!!! but well, it's already 12plus, so i can't really blame him haha.

he said he "love" my voice haha. when i had sore throat and sleepy voice. mock at me huh, wait u till i call u when u are sleeping haha. record it and post on youtube. =ppp

shan't update much on my life since i'm LIFELESS. except for the fact that i like him =)))) ONN, you know i like you, don't keep me in suspense.

with loads of <3s,

jolynn :)))

2007-06-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

ok you guys might either say:

"wa heng jolynn lazy, then never upload photos"

OR

''maybe after 10years also no update liao"

but NO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jolynn had always been a good and hardworking girl *AHEMS* she has tried to upload photos lor, but blogger disappointed her. nvm, tml after i finish my project in school then i upload. i know tml my blog hits won't jump one bit haha.

it's been so many days since my mum came back from taiwan. got me CK perfume =))) and extra pocket money haha. rocks la she !!!! well ... it's term break for me, but it's nothing to be jealous of. i gotta complete 5 assignments in 2 weeks =.=

went to school this afternoon to do project with edmund. and that bloody windows choose to reactivate at that time FUCK IT !!!! he was betting soccer and doing at the same time la, but he lost haha. he bet so big la !!! well, he got money ma. then we chat about some censored content, not RA but personal la. so not very convenient to reveal here.

after that was choir. it was fun but my voice couldn't project at all, DAMNED. got to know a new friend. he's called dylan, what an easily-pronounced-wrongly name wahahaha !!! well, we took photos. quite weird huh, taking photos when we only see each other twice before. he's a nice guy, and a terrible singer LOL !!! just kidding.

i wasn't joining in any fun in KAP cause i was wondering in my own world, oblivious to my surroundings. poor jing yi, hurt her leg, lost her voice. she slept on my shoulder all the way to hougang, no wonder now cramp haha.

tried to activate the windows when i got home. took bloody damn long, but as long as it's fixed and i can use it, i'm happy =))))

i really got nothing more to say w/o the pictures. i need something to remind me of the past events, i have STM !!!!! HELP !!!!

2007-06-08T08:27:00.001+08:00

just changed my blog song, nice right .... who say not nice GET OUT !!! haha. but the lyrics can really be saddening if you experienced what it narrates before.

was rotting at ken's house yesterday, thanks to that 2 buggers, don't wanna come school find me. how can his house be more condusive than the library when he has 2 sets of tv, 3 laptops (mine, elmo and his) plus PS2 in front of you.

had a hard time struggling through the assignments, finished half the IT one, which is like a relieve to me. however, the costing sheet i haven't do cause must use the "IF" function which is something i don't think i can master how to use haha.

went in and out of his house, go pioneer mall go here go there, how to concentrate haha. i changed ken's nickname on msn, so his ex and alot of his friends asked about it. wahahaha, sorry for getting you into trouble LOL !!!

"cam-whoring" only begun when we were about to leave for "budget place", still rather lazy to upload pictures cause i'm blogging in school. but stay tuned, ken and is f7s and kuku poses keke.

had 4-5 bodyguards sending me to the bus interchange cause boon lay alot of bangalas haha, i am racist. took a bus home, watched DVD and KO-ed.

am going off for lessons already, CIAO !!!
*remind me to upload pictures !!!!!!!

2007-06-06T12:08:00.000+08:00

HI EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!

haha i know everyone is betting "jolynn will abandon her blog, odds are 1-50" but no way !!! haha, bu se de la. will at least update once in a long long time.

but i still can put up the pictures :((( cause i'm in school and the connection can lag like shit like that. so many assignments to chiong, where got time to sayang my blog LOL !!!!!!!!

anyway, these 2 weeks have been like a fluctuating wave for me, up and down, up and down. it was really up the past few days, but on monday, it totally sank like nobody's business. almost cried in front of customers, everything didn't go well at all.

after that was actually ok one, but they said something that made me so depressed. the day after i went back with keng guan to eat, i had to act like nothing happened and i'm totally ok. FUCKK CAN !!!

but i did quite alot of shopping recently, retail therapy can really relieve much pain and stress. am actually quite lost now, dunno what to do. to wait or to let go. should i go to kbox with them next tues ?? will i see unwanted scenes ?? or should i just go watch movie with nono ?? or should i just go home. it really sucks !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nvm, i still so young, it's not the end. have really nothing to blog, or rather no mood la. so sorry guys, for not updating for so long. will try to be an avid blogger if time allows. take care alright.

won't you turn back and look at me.
why do you leave without saying goodbye.
i yearn to hold your hand,
gently whisper in your ears,
"i wish you could love me like before."

2007-05-22T14:48:00.000+08:00

have changed my blog song =))) plain laziness has stopped me from uploading all the photos. i think 100 photos shouldn't be a problem now la. that's actually the reason why i'm lazy, having to think of so many captions. will take me at least an hour to finish uploading =.=''

"ONN ONN" will be in msia until tml =((( sianed, no more motivation liao. LOL !!! sound so ai mei la. hope he faster come back.

am dying in piles of assignments slapped right in my face. dread school though i only have school 3 days a week. but luckily there are sheryl, kai yuan, edmund, mei chan, yee mun, zara, jamie, mei chi BLAH BLAH BLAH !!! to acc me. basically everyone i can hang out with haha.

someone had fits on the bus i was on yesterday on my way to work. i know how to handle this type of situation, but then i don't know why i got so frightened by the very sudden relapse until i just stunned and watched. i feel so shameful for myself not being able to help. shu ling was on the bus too, we were like stoned ?? relieved that he's alright already. sorry i wasn't of any help
=(((

EDMUND AND KAI YUAN, i think it's pretty obvious i don't like PAN right !!! haha. see also know not him liao. stop being crazy if not i fry you two in a pan !!! LOL !!!

going off for english test already. 1 and 1/2 hour journey =((( wondering how i will fail.

2007-05-18T11:52:00.000+08:00

HAIS !!! i wanted to do a long update but halfway through uploading, the explorer restart. like WTF !!!! upload very long leh cause KY lappy rather lag.

am having bad luck man. really really bad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my lappy went rolling down the floor. KY is not to be blamed also la, cause i was the one who asked him to carry it. i feel so bad having him to pay for the servicing lor. actual price not quoted yet, when we meet the damned engineer then say ba.

somehow i like someone, but love jason. BUT hor !!! i dont feel like having a person in my heart now leh. i just wanna play play and play, then anyhow pull a guy on the streets and get married haha. LAME !!!

seriously lack sleep. have many many photos to upload, i assure you that the next post can scroll until your finger drop haha.

ok la, KY getting very bored without his lappy. i blog when i have time at home ba. i miss everyone !!!! no time to catch up =((( call me ok !!!

2007-05-14T00:09:00.000+08:00

i like someone now, but i don't even dare to talk to him. i love someone now, but i don't dare to hold on anymore.

i'm in a very very big dilemma, why can't i love or like someone who love/like me too. hmmmmm ... well, maybe i should just stay on my own for some more time haha.

CHEE ONN CHEE ONN :)))

i once loved you like you were my world,
but now, i have to pick up myself and carry on ....

i like you*

2007-05-11T10:50:00.000+08:00

well well well .... i'm seriously lacking time to update.

i think yesterday there were a few incidents which made me feel like bursting.

INCIDENT 1

bangala: hello .... %%$^%&^&*(&*(something in tamil)

about 1quarter of a second later ...

HELLO !!!

AND IT REPEATS AFTER EVERY SENTENCE !!!

this leaves me to wonder whether it is a tradition among our indian friends to reply before their friend finishes their sentence.

dont sound funny but wait till you see it for yourself.

INCIDENT 2

boy: mummy !!! i want to go toilet.
mummy: wait, we will get off the next station and go to the toilet.
boy: but i cannot wait anymore, can i pee in your mouth ??
mummy looking offended ....
mummy: of course not, how can you do such a thing ??
boy: because daddy always does it to you !!! i saw it, so can i do it too ??
mummy blushed-

HAHA !!!!!! oh well ... maybe i'm feeling better already. things aren't smooth this whole week but somehow i got it settled with much effort.

deadlines for assignments are coming near, and i have not started on any assignment yet, same goes to my classmates. we just have not enough time to observe la. hopefully we can pull through the 1st sem, which many of our seniors say is easy =.=

choir totally rock, always looking forward to the practices :) i'm slimming down a lil, just abit only. but i don't know how long can it last. someone ask me go gym or swimming !!! haha.

am in lesson now, gonna catch up with the rest !!! cya guys !!!

2007-05-07T01:13:00.000+08:00

well ... i don't exactly know what to update for my blog. though these few days were passing very happily, but that emo part still lingers around.

really, many happy things happened, cute responses from customers, nice people, classmates and colleagues. but just can't wash away the unhappiness, agony and loneliness. i wished i wasn't working that day. FUCK !!!

but today all of us were damn angry. stephanie put aeroplane, i know her husband is hospitalised. she was given 5days off and was supposed to report work today. not only she didn't turn up, not even a damned call to inform us when she can come back lo. the whole freaking day leh !! call her house, hear her kids playing but no one talk. GRRRRRR !!!

so me and zhan yi worked OT and report early for 2nd shift.

thursday --> 6.30pm-10.30pm
friday --> same as thurs
saturday --> 12-2.30pm, 6-10.30pm
today --> 12-3pm, 4-10.30pm
tml --> 6.30-10.30pm
wed --> 6.30-10.30pm

how to survive, tell me !!! i still have school, so after i rush there lo. got attachment, CCA, appointment blah blah blah !!! SHIT la !!! think thursday might not have time for shopping le =((( hopefully there is ba.

i still miss you like hell, but you belong to someone else now.
i wonder what are you two doing, but i just can't seem to know.

like the star embroidered in my eyes, i'll love you forever.
even if i am to love someone else in the future, there's still a special place in my heart for you*

the roots of my love, so unpluckable ....

2007-05-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

this fucking morning i was still smiling happily walking in the rain to hougang mall for facial. everything seemed so fine. slowly strolling to NTUC and then back home.

was anticipating a good day at work, so i prepared for work without needing much procastination before that. even the demanding customers didn't affect my mood, until he appeared ...............

not alone, not with friends, but his new girl friend. my heart sank at that very moment, i fought to keep back the tears and buried all my heart in working. but i just couldn't keep my fucking eyes off him. that smile, that look of happiness reappeared on his face. i took a glance at her, very pretty.

he appears every now and then before i could forget him, with a new girl. but none of them were his girlfriend. i was hoping for the same, until i saw him putting his arms around her waist while leaving the shop. that instant, was totally heart-shattering. i couldn't control anymore, can't even bear to give them a smile which other customer get, not even keeping eye contact.

shortly after they left, i ran to the kitchen and broke down. my caring colleagues tried to comfort me telling me that it was his loss. but it was me who didn't treasure him. how am i suppose to accept that ??

she is much prettier
she is slimmer
she dresses better
she eats lesser
she is gentle, i'm rough
she makes him happy, i don't
he loves her, not me ...............

she made me feel lousy, very inferior. she totally turned my world upside down. nono, it was already upside down, she shook my world and threw me into the deepest hell.

did he make any loss by leaving me ?? no. perhaps he made the right choice. i should be happy that he found someone he like, if i love him, but i don't feel happy or relieved at all !!! i don't wanna deceive myself. i'm a sore loser in love, i'm a fucker who don't know how to treasure love.

i just met him on the 23rd, i think he didn't have a girlfriend then. maybe they even share the same anniversary like i did with him ?? i don't know. i deleted his msges on accident yesterday, was that a sign that i should forget the memories ?? but i really can't.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ?? I REALLY CAN'T GIVE UP AT ALL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANNA FORGET !!!

*pronounced dead

i love you, i still do, i really do, i always do.

2007-05-02T00:41:00.000+08:00

well .... i'm getting hot-tempered nowdays, PMS !!! HEHE !!!

quarrelled with koh ah beng for nothing, guess we are ok now. cause we sent each other goodnight msg haha, that's what i assume la, i dunno about him.

collect my ez-link card with that fugly photo on it. finally, i can save up abit on travelling fees. i enjoy sports and wellness :) just that i'll get very sweaty YUCKS !!! peter kwang always bullies me during badminton but it's ok, i believe i can surpass him one day, dreams-

was playing mahjong at mel's house today, like FINALLY !!! and through the FM, we heard about this issue whether singaporeans understand the real meaning or significance of Labour Day ??? well .... to be very very honest, the significance to me is just that i have extra day off, and i can work so that i have 1.5 times pay WAHAHAHA !!!

was winning in mahjong at first, then change place during 2nd pok then moodless le. keep putting "norbet", in the end lose $19. my luck in mahjong is still bad afterall LOL !!! but it's ok la, the main thing is that i caught with my friends today. always school and work, no time to meet up with them.

went to bugis after that, to find benny, ah joe, alex and some other people i don't know. my initial d skills never deteoriate that much. had late dinner at about 9plus, then took a bus home.

have been eating alot of sushi recently, like some cheapo. cause got staff discount then always eat haha. no la, sushi is one of my favourites, so when i work, i can only look at people enjoy their food, thus it's inevitable for me to get tempted right ?? saturday was lunch buffet with mummy, sunday was dinner with relatives, what next ??? =pppp

i told myself i won't get affected on monday 30th april, true enough, i wasn't at most times. but dawn on tuesday was an emotional one to me. who ask all the songs that shuffle played were all emo songs, damn it. but i didn't cry, i'm stronger now :) of course there's still some attachment in the heart but i guess it's normal since i was once with him.

*i've never had a tear so hard to wipe away, cause i found a smile so precious, so hard to let go, so diff to forget.

- he was once here, right in my heart, now i should let him go.

2007-04-28T00:44:00.000+08:00

phew, finally found sometime to blog. got so many pictures to upload, took about 10minutes. i can't be bothered if you will vomit or not HAHA !!!

i found this in my phone, i "don't know" how.

my palace =ppp

looks like the palace during qing dynasty haha.

very blur photo.

me with cute cute mei chan

act cool buay cool leh haha.

i still can't stop myself from laughing at this LOL !!!

ORIENTATION

then it's ......................................

me ....

me (trying hard not to laugh) ...

me(cannot tahan, so smile to relieve) ....

me !!!

me =.= ...

me .......

AND ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL !!!

started cam-whoring

sheryl chooooooo

my 1st mistake for putting up this photo.

i still can't figure out what this pic is all abt.

2nd mistake haha.

she angry and dao me liao LOL !!!

then she turns back again with her middle finger.

3rd mistake WAHAHAH !!!

hmmm??

trying multi shots for the next few photos ............

rather retarded huh ...

their pictures, not mine haha.

threesome LOL !!!

ok la, the rest you should know what haha.

life's been rather mundane for me. school and work, nothing else. of course there are upcoming events but not happy ones.

i just found out that me and edmund's 8chars might clash really heavily, we never fail to quarrel every single day we see each other. and worse of all, we are in the same class, same group. he, sheryl and i are always together in school cause we don't really mix around with other cliques. edmund is still trying to get his "xiao bai", while me and sheryl still looking for our prince haha. alot handsome guys, but far too handsome la, don't dare talk to them LOL !!!

assignments are coming up, projects are here alrdy. i dread child devt and functional english. but i don't wanna fail my exams =((( sighs !!!!

went out with jason on monday for a movie. i promised him to upload the song of the movie on my blog but i still have not find the time to search for it. i deleted my link from friendster, so i doubt he will find his way here haha.

after so long, the feeling of being with him is still the same. the look, the mischeivious and cheeky smile haha. i kept stealing glances at him in the cinema haha. this is the 1st time we watch movie together alone, and a touching movie somemore. he just refuses to admit that he cried LOL !!! well .... i don't know what to elaborate about this outing.

that date is coming i know, but can some people stop reminding me of it ?? i don't see the reason why should i be extra emotional on that date. and why can't i treat it like any other day ?? it's the same w/o him, be it 30th april or not.

though i still love him, but i get the fact that we ain't meant to be ok ??

*have never found a smile as precious, as difficult to let go as yours ....

there will come a day when i can stand up on my own. i just need time, so do me a favour by not reminding me of my past, thanks alot.

well ... can't think of anything else to blog. anyone got ideas tag me !!! haha. take care =ppp

2007-04-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

well ... i practically forgot everything that happened the past few days. am really leading a busy life now.

thurs was lame cause i only went to school for an hour. went back to bowen to collect cert with many many of the ex-bowenians :) so sad that soh wei xiang lost his phone to some bangalas.

friday was ok la. spent alot of time slacking in school, sleeping in the library thanks to elmo and kenrick. configuration of laptop was fucked up, and to add-on, edmund irritated the hell outta me.

went to botak jones for dinner at 9pm =.= some of my friends love it, some of my friends think it wasn't a big deal, but same as my other friends, i thought that it sucked !!! no offence to those who love it like hell. but i seriously didn't like it at all. though i had the xiao guo mian for dinner. but i ordered a side dish of spicy fries. i can tell you, i didn't even sallow more than half a fry. my friend had fish and chips, i tasted a lil, and it still sucked. almost vomitted. no that it's that terrible, but i vomit when i taste something i don't like at all, that i can't even accept it. after vomitting, it felt so much better.

saturday was working from 12pm-3pm. after that went shop shop with jing at bugis. content censored =p

sunday is a whole day of work !!! saw so many things i wanted to buy, but i only brought 10bucks with me, cause working place near ma. saw a very normal-looking hairclip selling at 15bucks =.= chamelon somemore, not branded shop that sells budget stuff at a high price. =p

really dunno what to type la. go slp !!! tml wake up at 6am =(((

2007-04-18T02:07:00.000+08:00

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money earning website =))) go join !!!

2007-04-18T00:08:00.000+08:00

blogging now with my good old computer :) abandoned it for so many days until it go beat up my laptop. just kidding la haha.

am duper happy today. finally some good luck :)))) able to sleep until afternoon time as i have no school today, mainly because my practicum location has not been assigned. teehee =))) woke up and went opp for lunch-cum-dinner. all the stalls were closed except for drinks stall and beehoon stall (which was closing soon). if i left my house 10mins later, i would have to starve already. why all rest on the same day !!! dots =.=

went for work, but i reached at 6pm instead of 6.30pm as stated in the schedule. almost banged my head on the wall but mei woo say nvm, extra 1/2 hr got pay =)))) heehee. today got very bad customers la, came in at 9.30pm when 9pm is last order. let them in still give trouble. i tiao them then they say sorry, for WTF. obviously sacarstic la, stupid xiao didi xiao mei mei, go home find mummy la.

then after i finished all the closing work, mei woo shouted "jolynn ar, LAI !!!". i thought she going to scold me liao, but she gave me a promotion !! =pppp wahahaha !!! happy girl, smiling to myself all the way home LOL !!! crazy.

bad thing is, i gotta wake up at 6am everyday, today sleep alot, tml die haha. but i enjoy schooling =))) since got promotion liao, maybe i forgo CCA ba. too bad choir, too bad violin =x but i will pursue my dreams on day, if time allows me to =p sleep time !!! goodnight guys !!! take care !!!

2007-04-17T00:53:00.000+08:00

i feel bad and rotten to have caused such ripples in someone's life and relationship. silly you, silly me. sorry girl ................

SIGHS -

i don't even know what i want know. i hate my fucking life.

will there be a day when you'll come running back to me ?? i miss you, jason .... 3oo4o6, a date to remember, a date to reminisce ...

2007-04-16T22:58:00.000+08:00

worked like some bull on sunday, but was still ok la.

tossed and turn throughout the night, couldn't sleep at all.maybe too excited about going back to school after so long haha. finally it's 6.30am, i "woke up" and dragged myself to the bathroom. bathed,dolled up abit and off i head to interchange.

was thinking of taking shuttle bus and flashing my NP student card for the 1st time, but once i saw the queue, my eyes almost popped out !!! the next bus is at 7.50am, it was only 7.25am can !!! gan jiong people. so i took 165 to change 74.

if i had just took 74, it wouldn't be so hard to find seats, and i'll probably be taking the same bus as sheryl.she still tell me her bus got alot yan dao =.= ma de, make me jealous only. was sitting beside the president of HMS, didn't realise until i turned to my right LOL !!! ok la,quite cute.

had no problems with classroom's location and stuff cause all i went before already. eng teacher rather fierce, but i don't understand why need functional english lor. talk to children and aunties leh, and very diff one leh. those small small mistakes, please la, i teaching in childcare not uni, even lecturers don't speak proper eng lor. KNS !!! she gave us a diagnostic test, say supposed to be easy, but i only got 1 out of 10 correct =.= i mean totally correct la. die la this module. every week need to print notes somemore. MA FAN !!!

sports and wellness de teacher damn guai lan LOL !!! but he teaching my sport leh,sianed. he expect us to reach there on the dot, but his time is faster than normal time by 10mins =.= die !!!! must be in attire somemore, siao ar !!!

the IT application teacher damn lor sor, she will teach you how to shut down computer one LOL !!! was dismissed damn early. then went to canteen 2 to eat. ice kachang there is only 50cents hhaha.

met up with elmo and guess what he said when i called ???? "you at downstairs wait, let me sleep awhile more." KNS !!! box him ar. lucky got sherlene pei wo haha.

later we wait for judas even worse la !!!!! slept and wake up he also haven't reach yet.reach liao go canteen 1 eat yong tau foo jiu zhao =.= then i went back to hougang la, should have reached there long ago de lor haha.go do manicure, 36bucks fly =((( then when blowing dry keep hitting dao things, lucky the polish can push back, if not heart pain. got one i use my glitter to salvage it LOL !!! i am that clumsy la.

reached home with the pineapple eh dunno what. i ate it in taiwan before, so happy to find it in singapore, in school somemore !!! =))) everyday go buy haha. nice lor !!! hmmmm ... after munching so much, i feel drowsy haha, exact behavior of pigs =x

sooooooo .... have too wish you guys goodnight alrdy, have to make up for ytd's loss of sleep hehe. night !!!

2007-04-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

orientation was over on the 13th !!! like finally la !!!

1st day was really lame as expected. the usual ice-breakers and stuff. barry (someone from another group) sabo-ed me during double-whacko, sheryl announced me as her brother's ex-gf =.= blah blah, so we decided to pon the next day. thus, only 2 people in our group turned up on the 12th. got a call from carmen, our other OGL that i don't know, in the morning.

all of us felt really guilty when we came back on the last day LOL !!! but last day was more fun, just that i wasn't really in the mood to join in. so me, sheryl and elix (our new friend) went upstairs to join our seniors. actually me and sheryl quite bad la haha, last day still late cause we go configure our laptops, but ended up getting programs we don't need at all =.=

but this few days went well because of one person, and that is elmo. he was there for me whenever i needed help in school. he even agreed to help sheryl configure her laptop though he didn't even know her. when i lost my way, call elmo, when i don't know what to do, call elmo, when i need company, CALL ELMO !!! LOL !!! thanks dude !!!!

struggled through orientation quite fine just to find out that saturday was more of hell of me. worked from 12pm - 3pm, expecting a full house today cause it's weekend, and what's more, soft shell crab at 10cents for those with coupons !!! but end up not even half house cause it's raining cats and dogs out there.

had my 3 hr break from 3pm-6pm. nono msged me, i went to mac to watch drama that elmo put in for me, walked in SASA, and my shopping begins .... saw a nice bag there, but on second thoughts, since when SASA sell bags ?? but it reads "free bag for spending 20 dollars and above for cyber colour products" and also "blusher at $5.90 instead of $19.90 for expenditure abv $20, only for colours #12 and #13"

i didn't read the #12 and #13 part la, so i choose #9. but there was 30% off so nvm, colour more impt ma. bought mascara, blusher and compact powder. things like concealer, facial cottton and lip pencil all i forgot haha. those that i need more la. after all the discount, the merchandise only sums up to $47.20 :) good good, normally my compact powder itself would have cost that price haha, but i decided to change the brand cause ZA SUCKS !!!! make all your big pores look even more obvious.

went back to work as i had nothing to do. just as i was thinking there'll not be much people, i saw full house !!! DAMNED !!! work like fuck today, never stopped. top chef and supervisor in bad mood, keep scolding me =(((( arrow shoot here shoot there, so i had to siam. i just hissed at "hana!!!! tsk .... and safely escaped more tongue-lashings haha. after the peak period, during closing then they treat me very good liao, cook give me eat haha.

got this table de customer damn what lor, all the customers leave very long liao, left them only, can see we closing tables liao, then waiting to close theirs, still can down there slowly eat =.= until we almost finish closing then they go. TMD !! we already late for everything cause of full house liao, want make us cannot go home ar !!!! KNS !!! but almost all the customers very selfish today la.

everyone order alot, and tell us try to be very fast, so i said ok to entertain them, hoping that that will save us alot trouble. but no !!! they just won't leave us alone, so i tell them everyone also want fast, how we cook so fast ?? not magic ma. everyone same response "cook mine first la" KNS !!! who you think you are, order things one by one, all the order chits very messy lo, who ask you, so ma fan. and all of them are very very dirty eaters, their tables are like horrendous !!!!!

i remember telling kian siong that i hate customers during weekends, he say is prejudice, but now i can prove him wrong already, they really sucks !!! weekdays, the customers are so much nicer.

there is this lady who is a regular, she always wants to choose her seats though there's only 2 people. however, today i managed to lead her to the smaller seater and she actually followed me. i didn't know until my supervisor told me it was a miracle. cause normally she would just walk in on her own and sit wherever she wants LOL !!!! maybe she don't want bully newbie la haha. i'm also a regular anyway, maybe she see me before haha. REGUALR-UNITED!!! LAME !!! HAHA !!

but sadly, today's kar wai's last day. he's such a nice guy lor, no one to teach me patiently anymore =(((( he gave me a chocolate, mmmmm ... so sweet. don't think too much, he's attached haha !!! i was just exaggerating la.

waited damn long for the dishwasher to finish washing and eating his rice. 4 people wait for one, until 11pm lor haha. he come out kanna suan. parted ways and went home. phew !!! so tired after work, and also typing sucha long post. work tomorrow again !!!! weekend's customers !!! FAINTS !!!!

GOING TO PENG SAN LIAO !!! GOODNIGHT !!!!

2007-04-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

now i know why you ain't free most of the time, i also know why you seldom reply me already. i really got to know how little i mean to you,i can't believe your heart and feelings changed so fast. i really did not judge you wrongly, thank god. so to those who think that i'm being unfair, just FUCK OFF !!! who means alot to me is none of your fucking business, dont step in my life and gimme loads of nonsense please.

am meeting sheryl for orientation tomorrow, hopefully they wanna mahjong on thus or fri ba, not confirmed yet. i wanna have a good laugh, playing 1-2cents haha. =))) but i dread orientations and camps, cause i'm eff-ing anti social when i'm with many people i don't know. hopefully tomorrow goes on alright.

2007-04-10T01:55:00.000+08:00

hmmmm what should i say here. having moody days again, every single lil thing affects me. when i can't find anyone to go out with, i know that people don't like me. YEAH that's very true la. when people who used to always be by my side shuns me, i know that i did something wrong, and that is to neglect them for boyfriends.

boyfriends are such a wrong thing to have LOL !!! another issue i thought about was why people go "gaga" over those models in very skimpy clothings on magazines like FHM, MAXIM and so on.

i have this really jovial friend who was reading this MAXIM magazine and told me that he would like to meet some of the models or maybe miss maxim one day. so i wondered why. yes, i cannot deny that they look totally gorgeous (maybe not for some) on the front page or photos, but not to that extent where you need to meet them in real life to live on.

who knows what type of person they are, they can be really nice people or just some eff-ing bitches, maybe some cheapskate whores. ok, too serious haha. they look really good on magazines but maybe not in real life. i personally know quite a few models, and i agree that some of them are really just as pretty w/o makeup or even when they just had a hungover. however, they are also some models whom you cannot recognize w/o their thick and heavy makeup. if they are in slacks and some ragged t-shirt, they will just look like any obasan.

ok of course you can give your eyes some entertainment by flipping through these magazines, but don't get too obsessed over them la. pretty girls are almost everywhere, many different types of pretty, some of the girls in pasar malam also can look prettier than some models without makeup. so what do you think ??

maybe if you really wanna meet them, do it on roadshows or photoshoots, not when they are slopplishly dressed, you might be surprised with what you see. well well well .... models are photogenic, not miss perfect, so no point drooling over them all day. LOL !!! of course it's better than looking at me la. =pppp

the only thing i'm happy about is that i got many many off days this week but on a second thought, i'm not happy at all. cause i can't find any company, so i gotta rot at home. had sushi with kian siong today, very happy =))) long time since i had dinner with him. played pool with him and wei lun, was terribly disappointed with myself la.

when i learnt that someone got stead, somehow i felt kinda jealous. for no reason la haha, emotional upset. it's like you see you good friend who used to spend quite sometime with you, now have no time for you, even when he's with you, he's on the phone with her. yeah that feeling, but it subsided in 2minutes LOL !!!

why am i getting upset so easily nowdays ?? hmmmm. pretty left alone also, cause i've been working and sleeping, nothing else. other times are with my family, kinda neglected my friends =((( but am really too tired. even if one day got 48 hours also no use, don't even have time for myself. my complexion is getting worse, i'm growing more horizontally, things are in a messed, and damned school is starting !!!!!

i'm too used to holidays perhaps. gotta work tomorrow, but i miss you =((( SIGHS- that day is coming ................................ without you by my side.

2007-04-07T03:09:00.000+08:00

explicit content below.if you have medical histories consisting of heart problems, please click the navigation on the top right hand corner of the page named "x". :)

when people feel bored, they look like this.

when they feel happy, they smile like this.

when they are up to no good, they grin like this.

when they feel slightly bonkers, they stick their tongues out like this.

when they are totally certified as a member of the IMH, that's what they become.

ok as you guys can see, that's what working does to me. totally tire me out and give me some occupational hazardous behavior and habits, like "smiling to myself". working in my line, go anywhere in your uniform, SMILE !! =.=

what you all may have noticed is that, my face has grown fatter over the months (DUH!!), my dark eyes rings and poor complexion esp in the last pic. yeah, for those of you who have not seen me for sometime, that's how i look like now, haggard.

am working morning shift later on, but i'm not asleep yet. god bless me please, i'm working with a supervisor who just came back from her honeymoon. she's rumoured to be really mean and fussy plus strict. i've seen her before, when i was a customer, now i'm a staff there, DIE !!! but then .... come to think of it, since she can marry off, shouldn't be so bad la hor =x

my schedule for this weekend is kinda messed up.

tomorrow, work till 3pm. meeting anyone for any purpose ?? mahjong or whatever ? forget liao.

sunday work till 3pm, meeting up with LC and elmo. ok this is confirm correct.

monday neh .... no work, but who i meeting ar ?? someone please remind me if this concerns u.

tuesday work at night, so nothing on.

wednesday, stupid orientation, anything on afterwards ?? dunno ...

thursday, still hesitating whether to go for orientation this day. go 1st and last day or just this day leh ???

friday, dunno want to go orientation anot. hmmmm ...... am i meeting anyone ??

weekend no need say, working 2 whole days. DIE !!!!

i sound rather busy and messy, well, yes i am. i am lifeless now. somehow memory is failing me recently, it's time to get enough sleep. with that iPod issue, i dont get to sleep at night, alot of calling and advertising to do.

so any kind souls can help me spread around ?? or buy from us even if somewhere else sells it cheaper ?? can guarantee u a brand new product and effective warranty plus exchange of any defective goods within 30days upon receiving it. PLEASE !!! =(((

2007-04-04T17:01:00.000+08:00

*RING RING* RINGTONE BLASTING ~~~~

was woken up by the continuous ringings on my handphone. guess who was it??? the delivery man of AsiaPac Distribution !!!! my lappy is arriving !!!! he said he was reaching my place in 10mins !!!! i quickly washed up and tidy my hair, people see me messy messy paiseh ma hhaha.

but i waited, and waited and waited for 2whole hours before he finally called again =((( now he is really reaching, cause just now he forgotten that he called me. how can he forget the goddess !!! LOL just kidding la.

open and fiddle with my lappy the whole day haha. people charge it for 8 hours initially, but in my case i think 24 hours also not enough haha. quickly download this and that le, my handphone and com cannot be empty one, tak boleh tahan LOL !!!!

am going to my uncle's house to celebrate my cousin's birthday later on. so here i wish her happy birthday :)

happy birthday hui wen !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

2007-04-04T03:39:00.000+08:00

i have some offers .....

my friend is selling iPod video 30GB, all new in box. she ordered for a friend's friend so that he could get it at a cheaper price. but that bastard backed out, so now she's making a great loss with 3-4 sets of it at home. so i'm helping her to sell it off now, please inform me if any of your friends show interest in that or other products stated below ok ?? thanks :)

This are what will be included inside the box of iPod video (not sure about nano):
In the Box
. iPod
. Earbud headphones
. USB 2.0 cable
. Dock adapter for use with Universal Dock
. Case
. Quick Start guide
. CD with iTunes for Mac and Windows and
features guide.

prices are as below:

iPod Nano (comes with wrap and strap. earphones are subjected to availability)

2GB --> $240
retail price for 2GB --> $248

4GB --> $300-$320
retail price for 4GB --> $348

8GB --> $340-$360
retail price for 8GB --> $428

iPod Video (comes with 1year international warranty and APPLECREATIVE joint speaker worth $180, speaker has 6month warranty)

30GB --> $385-$395 (terms and conditions apply for this, will tell you when contacted.)retail price for 30GB --> $42880GB --> $560-$580
retail price for 80GB --> $598

all prices are negotiable.

any other gifts available will be informed by my friend, and collected with the iPod itself.

NOTE:

1. products will arrive approximately 7-10 days after ordering. any other longer than that, my friend will inform you.
2. products are collected through MEET UPS, LOCAL POSTAGE OR REGISTERED MAIL.
3. any dead buyers or back outs will be referred to the company for further action.
4. any defects in the product within 30days from date upon receiving can be exchanged. spoilage through mail is not included.

additional charges are as followed:

meet ups: depending on the location(negotiable), no charge for northeast area and town.
local postage: extra $3.50
registered mail: extra $5.70 (if buyer is not at home at point of time of delivery, he/she will have to collect it at the centre itself)

please give the below information needed when you order from us.

your name as in NRIC
your account number and name of bank
your address
meet up location
mode of payment

i'm helping my friend to minimise her loss due to some irresponsible bastard. tell me ... if your friend kindly help you get things cheaper and better gifts, will you do this to her ?? damn la !!! so poor thing ... =(((

if you guys hear of anybody interested in getting any of the products above, please contact me or my friend at:

ME: goodgirlsdontdie@hotmail.com
HER: half.memories@hotmail.com

2007-04-04T02:13:00.000+08:00

finally something to blog about. life's been shit, that's why i'm using this shit colour. but somehow i feel happy. BAH !!

woke up really damn late, around 3plus. received a call from AsiaPac, informing me that my lappy is arriving tomorrow :) ok, at least some good news haha.

slacked around and made jelly. had a hard time finding the sugar and the mould. mummy hid them in some corner of the kitchen =.= went out to the supermarket later, i sound like a housewife or something but i enjoy going to supermarkets :) i love food hehe.

reached NTUC and bought a whole lot of things. i think if i brought 2 $20coupons, it will be much worse. i only brought one, and i spent $39.50. so i pay $19.50, so near $40 already haha. but out of $39.50, $10 is used to buy things for mummy, so not that bad right !!! haha. waited at mac for a loooooonnnnnngggggggggggg time before mummy arrives. went to plaza for "zhi cha" as dinner. crabs and fish only :) yummy yummy.

was blog-hopping just now, and saw something. felt kinda jealous or sad, i don't know. aiya, but i have no right to say anything, so i just exited that page. bleah !! nothing more to write. ciao !!! =)

NAKED IN TIMES SQUARE

2007-04-03T01:42:00.001+08:00

how spetacular !!!

2007-04-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

1st day at suki =))) quite ok la, kind of ABIT miss QQrice. haha, if it's in hougang maybe i will continue. only difficulty in suki is taking orders cause the names are sooooooooooooooooooooooooo BLEAH !!! LOL !!!!

went out with jason =))) was supposed to meet him on tues but i forgot so i msged him after work, which is already 10plus. so i rushed home to take a quick bath then waited damn long for him at the bus stop downstairs my house. finally his cab arrived and picked me up back to plaza again haha. work there play there =.=

and i finally have to admit, my pool skills really suck now !!!! lost to him all 3 rounds though he already anyhow play. today's meeting was quite a rush but nevertheless, it's good to meet friends that you've not seen for a long time =)))

am feeling very happy recently despite the bad luck, am i crazy ?? or am i learning how to take things in my stride and enjoy life ?? or am i trying to smile more before school reopens, then i can hardly smile ?? haha. even jason say i siao ding dong liao.

ok la, siao ding dong want to orh orh already. tml and wednesday off !!! someone call me out please =))) goodnight !!!

2007-04-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

jolynn is back =))))) was thinking of changing a skin for my blog again, but just can't find nice ones. should i use back the very old one which i personally like alot ?? hmmmmm ..... -wonders

friday's my last day at work, night shift =))) i sabo-ed heni, i changed it to night shift, thus causing her to be put to morning shift haha. it's not because of anything, but i just wanna work with ah hong on the last day. if last day still see dennis and timothy both people only, i think i will die WAHAHAHAHA !!!

ah hong is nice la, love him sia !!! LOL !!! bought rocher for everyone there but they left before i gave it out =(((( many things happened on the last day. one auntie quit, auntie seow kanna scolded for leaving early, i fell down, dropped a rice roll, missing chocolates and being stalked !!! what a bad day. oh ya, ah hong lost his 100bucks too. bad bad bad ...

pay supposed to be 5 per hr after 56hours, dennis gave it to me, but timothy took it back. so NIAO !!!! so he wrote me a cheque of 300plus bucks la, and say he gave me my cab fare. sound so nice hor, but it was supposed to be mine in the 1st place lo =.= he say if i come back to work there, my pay will be 5 per hr =.= isn't it supposed to be already. LAME !!! but can't blame la, his family is stingy, he's born like that. he say want gimme bonus i already shocked, but really never give what haha. his wife is a nice person though.

the next day was worse for me. waited for cab to go pray my ah ma, wait 1/2 hr lor !!!!! then just book cab. finish praying, wait cab also very long !!!! and the driver sucks too, keep jerking the car. he purposely take the slowest lane then wait at traffice light for 3 intervals leh !!! each interval jump 40cents somemore, something really wrong with his meter. he only moved when i hissed at him KNS !!!

picked judas up then go melissa's house, and the cab fare was like 17plus bucks !!!! shit !!! slacked around waiting for hui qi's arrival. and lost 34bucks in mahjong. paid 5bucks for food. so much money fly. bad luck i must say.

if you are about to say i'm superstitious, then i tell you i'm not cause i lose mahjong today also haha. always the "da shu jia". darren's mum see my tiles also know i suay, not because not nice but it's just another type of suay la, don't know how to explain. darren's mum believe that me and quan bin are real blood-related siblings lols. good show put up by us. but if he's really my brother i don't mind :) he's one of my favourite brothers haha, cause he's so witty la.

one thing that affected my mood during mahjong was their speed of playing. slow until i no mood haha. timothy and darren make me wanna vomit blood today LOL !!!!! until i sian 99% liao. headed to 7-11 as they wanna buy some drinks. QB wanted something cooling cause they are having prata later on, so i choose the water chestnut with dunno what drink, and he really listen haha.

they cabbed to send me home, then turn back to avenue 8 LOL !!! thank guys :))) i know my house downstairs alot of bangalas, WEEEE ~~~ i love my brother =)

am sooooo tired. meeting sheryl at 11am tomorrow, scared cannot wake up but die die have to, if not she scold me upside down haha. cause last time already postpone le, if still drag deadline over liao. soooooo, what i should do now is .... SLEEP !!!! ciao =)))

2007-03-29T00:09:00.000+08:00

WEE WEE~~~~

morning shift = SIAN !!!!

reached novena rather early so i went to OCK to have my breakfast instead of QQrice. don't know why so many people love it, the food there don't suck but not that nice also ma. well anyway ... halfway through my meal, dennis walked past.

1st thing that came on my mind is "why he today wear so neat ar ?? qi guai."

after that he walked back towards the shop with his shirt tucked in, i went "o.0". he noticed me this time and asked if i could work at night. he wants me to go back sleep first then come, of course i didn't agree la. ask me sleep back already very hard, bath liao, plus i drank coffee la. CRAZY !!!!

when it was time, i reported to work la, and learned that he is the operations manager now =.= he always do operations manager de stuff what, just that we call him the supervisor. like that also must so happy, then treat us like so nice like that. not exactly nice la, ask us do this do that in nicer tone, give a lil more encouragement instead of criticism. literally try to act like a good superior la, but i told him right in his face, tomorrow he will be different again HAHA !!!!

work like what like that, then halfway dennis showed me my unfinished pac of nutritea YUCKS !!! auntie kept it from me, then dennis scold cause i didn't tell him. busy ma, just take and drink, only eat then must ask what =.= then too busy see wrong flavour, took herbal tea one !!! the taste suck like hell, still ask me finish it, YUCK !!! and worse still, i didn't finish, YET i left it there again today, forget throw away sia !!! die la tomorrow.

i whole day never eat then 3plus sit down eat fried rice also kanna scolded =.= pls lor, we not human ar, he himself eating when we working lor, stupid inhumane male chauvinist pig !!!!

luckily i scramed out of that bloody place at 4pm, changed and headed for NP. god knows what happened later, i sat beside and hunk, just kidding la. i was supposed to go to raffles place to change mrt line but i took the other way, so by the time i reach NP, cannot make it in time already so i asked elmo to help, plus heni also. since i will be passing by AMK, elmo and i decided to meet leong chun haha.

wait for them to reach AMK can sleep so i went shopping =))) bought a jacket and a pairs of heels hehe. finally touched the steering wheel of an initial D machine, so rusty liao la !!!! but those noobs were still amazed =.=

elmo arrived so we went to MOS burger to wait for that si leong chun to come, always so late. was craving for MOS burger's milk tea anyway. when LC came, we cabbed down to toa payoh to catch a movie. don't know why cannot watch at AMK sia !!! haha. "MR BEAN!!!!" kinda lame la, but yet funny though. 3/5 popcorns only. maybe 7bucks still considerable, but not any higher la.

ate at kou fu which is located at HDB hub. the chicken rice sucks, cause the vendor refused to get the steamed chicken for me, but other stalls were already closed as it was already 10pm. and i fucking hate roasted chicken !!! not hate la, but kinda dislike it. chat chat chat, crap crap crap. finally it's time to go home, they sent me to my bus stop, still crap crap crap while waiting for the bus.

tomorrow work night shift, damn sian. i don't know how to recall which day i work how many hours for the past two and a half weeks lor !!! if i don't timothy say he pay me lesser =.= HE DARE !!! before that he was saying that there will be bonus lor =.= i knew it will never be true, he already so niao. heni work whole day take one rice roll also cannot =.= no welfare de, he set the rules he cannot follow also. heni also can't recall the working hours for herself, don't care la, just plot our own ones =p

might be going check up with sheryl on friday or monday depending on my schedule, if not then have to see myself =((( i think most prob if friday cannot then i go by myself le ba. hopefully we get into the same class if not sian tio haha.

i just recalled judas and wee nee telling me that their friends are in the same course as me. well ... judas and wee nee don't know each other, yet the friend they are referring to shares the same name, what a small world. high chance it's the same person but can't be sure of it yet LOL !!! 8 classes leh !!! probability of me and sheryl being in same class is 1/8. see ?? mr yeo, i never forget ok =pppp

so bored ..................................... go try out o2maniac ..

the QUEEN was here, ALL HAIL !!! =)))

2007-03-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

goodluck friend, continue gambling and clubbing your life away. you've been my friend for many years, but all my words turn on deaf ears. seems like nothing can stop you from your spendthrift ways, even if you have financial problems, you just borrow. fine, continue mixing with those people, land yourself in hot soup then. i won't mention who you are, that "he/she" should know. good luck to you, take good care of yourself then.

well ... another incident that have quite an impact on me is about a lady i got to know not long ago.

this lady is about 50 yrs of age approximately. she watched a company grow, from no customers, to a never ending queue. she worked wholeheartedly with hardly any complains. when the company required help, she did OT for extra 8 hours, not even one bit of ranting nor unhappiness. she forked out so much for the company, more than any of the employees would.

however, there is this day when she had to work for 13hours. she wasn't exactly in very good health but she still kept up to the required standard of her job tasks. she was feeling hungry as she had not have breakfast and lunch due to busy peak hours in the shop. she took a 15min break back at the kitchen to rest and fill her stomach. that blardie supervisor walked in and scolded her for not telling him. she was SOOO upset that she broke down and cried, yet the supervisor did not feel a drop of remorse, and instead blame her for not respecting him. didn't he realise that he himself ain't showing respect too ??

the rule of the company was already outrageous enough, as the workers are not allowed to take break unless they work more than 6 hours. however, they plan the schedule to be only 6 hours, so every worker can't eat except full-time staffs ?? and that particular supervisor himself, ain't helping out much. he's either on the phone, out of the shop doing "god-knows-what" or just helping abit. he never understands the pains of his workers, and yet is very demanding towards them. if one day, they were to have no more helpers working with them, will the company still stand ??

please la, improve your welfare man. without auntie, there won't be QQ rice also. it's only one outlet, don't act like it's an MNC. with us doing so much extra work and OT, there isn't even a pay rise for those who work more. even when in the contract they promised a pay rise of least to 5 per hr, he still refuse to raise. i don't help much or do OT, but what about the others ?? they nice to bully then u bully la. next day auntie come back u pretend to be nice to her, but not even a word of "sorry", don't act act la uh. even you appear to be guilty, but you still talk behind her back. this type of ppl should burn in hell !!! she's such a nice and helpful worker unlike you, please fuck off man. people will one by one quit because of you. you just be careful la, don't spoil your friend's business fucker.

on a lighter note i shall blog about some happenings as usual haha. was dead beat after work but still had to settle somethings. went down to that VCD shop, that guy asked me out for a drink. i still had 1/2 hr to spare, so i agreed la. he hopes to see me soon haha, but i told him that he'll see me these few days, after that, BYE !!! LOL !!!!

why ?? cause i found another job at hougang plaza =) so near, shorter working hours, lighter job load, better welfare, same pay. so i only have to wake up 1/2 hr before work which is 6pm LOL !!!! though the pay is lesser, i have more time for myself, which is good =p makes work less stressful, and the environment is cleaner, the job scope is smaller. YEAH !! =)

couldn't do my check up for ECH today cause i still don't have the form. if sheryl can't d/l it for me either, then have to go all the way down to NP to print it =((( this will be the 3rd time i go down this month. groans -

waited damn long for mummy, sat at mac and bumped into wee nee and glen =) long time since i saw them. glen and i were talking about digging wee nee out of the kitchen cause she's not working today.

ME: wa weenee so long, it's not her shift leh ... wait she drop into the oil tank haha ..
glen: so bad ..
ME: you go the counter order "one fried weenee meal, got the soft toy??"
glen: -laugh laugh laugh laugh
ME: it will cost me 1000bucks lor, all service charge cause they have to carry her out. then she will jump out from the counter hehe.
glen: more than 1000 leh .....
ME: orh hor, you say weenee very fat la, later i tell her haha.

so lame la. after awhile, weenee "stole" a mc flurry for me =p thanks thanks. they left after a short while then finally, mummy arrived.

went to the salon to do our hair. cut it so much thinner, my hair feels lighter now =) dye it another colour again with red highlights. not bad but i prefer my old colour. couldn't keep it cause the black ones come out already, and it's no point dying the same colour la. plus, my last time that colour actually got highlight 4 colours one, do until day break ar haha.

only had dinner at 10pm, was famished la. was at KFC eating when i saw jason, ghim hian and gang walking past. he waved. surprisingly i didn't feel anything. was just happy to see him, because it's been a long time since i saw his playful face haha. since i can feel nothing. i believe there's a higher hope now for me to forget him =) normal friends we will be !!! =p

so tired, going to hit the hay in 5 mins, morning shift tml. goodnight guys !!!

the QUEEN was here, ALL HAIL !!!! =p

2007-03-26T01:18:00.000+08:00

today's working was like SHIT !!! timothy kept scolding and scolding and scolding and scolding. #$%^&* he himself also never do anything, and he's just as slow as us lor =.= but dennis today very wierd, he was very nice to me. even when i hit tio his bone, very pain, he never scold. hmmmmm so wierd.

timothy's wife is nice la. we chat chat abit. she was also from ECH haha.

actually work until 10pm only, stupid timothy ask me do closing. TMD !!! OT pay !!! haha. his mum damn irritating. she always ask us to do things her way, and her ways are totally diff from our normal routine. she messed the place up, things were obstructing our movement, end up who kanna ?? i kanna la, must be my fault =.= damn smart-alec la she. =(((

working morning shift tml somemore, bu shi ren zuo de gong ar. work until 2 pm then must zhao ar !!! go buy laptop =) i told timothy friday will be my last day, ask him prepare my pay check LOL !!! WHO WANT EAT QQ RICE !!! GO KFC LA !!! LOL !!!

QUIT QUIT QUIT =))))

2007-03-24T00:29:00.000+08:00

JOKE OF THE DAY:

i had 5 of these tiles like this at first "chicken, caterpillar, 1st flower, 2nd flower and 4th flower". so i took 5 tiles again, inside got another flower, somehow mentality made me take 5 tiles again =.= and TADA !!! it's becomes like this. da xiang gong !!! 17tiles somemore !!! if not damn sui la !!!

i wanted to take this pic as it was, but the tiles were too long cannot capture. damn super nice right !!! if never stupid stupid da xiang gong, they all sure die haha. original flowers already bao da, with my bai ban, sure got people bao one LOL !!! melissa and hui qi laugh till stomachache la !!! i record holder can !!! WAHAHAHA !!! but that round nobody win, so with those "ka" de money, i still win LOL !!!

elmo's joining us for 4ka mahjong tml =) hopefully hui qi will play also. tml is 20-40cents hehe. everyday mahjong day =p today won 10bucks, then went to coffeeshop makan. ate alot today la. 2 times mixed veg rice, plus orh tau kueh and alot of soft drinks. sorry mel, i dropped the chicken wing you bought for me =xx hehe.

these 2 days are full of nothing but mahjong. had a very bad nightmare this morning, but forget it la, maybe i think too much. goodnight guys !! wish me luck =)

2007-03-22T01:40:00.000+08:00

watched the 13th episode of "zhen ming tian nu" so touching la. made me realise actually there are alot of people in this world whom i dote on very much. my mum, jason didi, maybe the other jason too, elmo erm ... my er jie, all those very dear to me. my closer friends la, those who've been through thick and thin, or have helped me stand up in one way or the other. =)

lucky this week i won't be on any same shift as dennis anymore. a break for the week =) though working with timothy is tiring and not so interesting but at least he don't make people's blood boil.

after work i went to the NTUC upstairs my workplace. cause in the morning timothy asked me go buy stuff, so i saw that the groceries there fresher than hougang mall's NTUC. bought some poultry and vegetables back to cook, but ended up falling asleep at 6pm LOL !!!

my mum didn't bear to wake me up so she had maggie mee for dinner =x sorry !!! woke up at 12am, chit-chat abit with mummy and she gave me a big hug =) so heart-warming. cause i wake up blur blur then she laugh at me, saying that next time i like that my children die of hunger HAHA !!!

finally finished a bowl of campbell soup with other ingredients. this week i still have no appetite la, only drink soup, ingredients will throw away one. seems like my appetite's coming back, meaning that will grow fatter again =((((

i have yet to sumbit my enrolment form E, most of the things in the enrolment package looks like nuts to me. very confusing la, have not even got my passport size photo taken. am supposed to mail it by 22nd, but 22nd i post it, by the time it reaches there, hohoho !!! don't know when lo. hopefully they don't lapse my enrolment ba, cause namira told me that alot are vying for the place in my course. -shrugs, didn't know about that.

anyway, i'm on morning shift tomorrow, hopefully Kodak opens early cause photo-taking after work sucks, when my hair is all over the place, sweaty and sticky, YUCKS !!! will be meeting elmo at clementi MRT after work =) hopefully i'll be able to find a cheap and nice lappy there, then my mum will buy it for me when we go down the next time =)

that's all for today, i used to same colour for the font, but this won't last for long =p

2007-03-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

today i just felt like bashing dennis up $#$#%^& heni was frightened by my sudden attack of the rice cover LOL !!! but i was seriously pissed off la. then he forced me to wrap 3 rice rolls for him, he'll pay for it but i doubt he need to. i put lots and lots of chili on it, hope he eats it and SCREAM !! haha.

ate KFC after work, went down to that VCD shop but they were having lunch, so the shop wasn't open. played at the time zone there, almost got the major prize can !!! there was a boy beside us spend alot of money on it, i just need a dollar to do that LOL !!! so bad la.

was intending to go NTUC before going home but was simply too lazy. went home, watched the "zhen ming tian nu" then slack slack. met mummy for dinner. went to harvey norman to check out the laptops. will be heading to ngee ann to see if they offer similar models at much lower prices. elmo promised to acc me =) cause he knows more about laptops, will be meeting him at the mrt, cause he scared i get lost. LOL !!!!

maybe first day of school i need to dig my way thru haha. went to NTUC to shop for some groceries then slacked at mac donald with mummy. ice cream with fries =) gave Gelare a miss cause i still think it isn't worth the money haha. rain stopped and walked home =p

halfway thru, my vision suddenly blurred. didn't black out but was like falling asleep anytime soon, everything i see is blur, like in an oblivion where you can't see everything and everybody else around you. but not to the extent where i don't know where i'm going.

still haven't found the last ka for mahjong, don't wanna jio doink play anot leh ... no mahjong, no life =((( mahjong on fri at marsling, any takers ???

2007-03-20T01:56:00.000+08:00

hooohooohoooo ............ mel just hit the spot in my tag haha. whether i feel right or not, i lvoe who or not, why they bother so much ar ?? hmmm hack care la, a bunch of idiots w/o names(at least to me they do not have names).

already decided to put down these 2 people whom have been in my heart. at least i'll try my best to do so. what jarrel what jason, think so much also no use. make me feel worse only, though i'm also at fault but why live in the past ?? though i may not sucessfully forget jason but i wish that i can at least not think of him too much. zai zhe me shuo, we also break up for a good 9months plus le, it's time i start to pull him outta my heart already.

i watched the ou xiang ju "zhen ming tian nu" by S.H.E, a rather old show already. it's quite touching la, somehow those memories flooded back. not like someone died to save me la, but just some small details. then halfway thru, i suddenly ki siao. i was thinking .........

one day jason also have to get married or get a new gf.... if i no forget him then see him with other girl very tong ku right .... then what should i do leh ?? get another guy i love and marry before jason does =) at least got an wei haha.

bullshit la haha. by then i don't think i'll be that si xin ta di over him liao. as for jarrel there ar, wish him good luck lo. already made it very very clear to him already. lalala~~~

so now .... i can just do whatever i want =) don't need to bother so much about guys liao. there's one type of people i admire. they have their guys but they can still do whatever they want with such freedom. like .....

her guy wishing so hard for her to go out to catch a movie or something. normally girls will just be soft-hearted and agree. but then this type of person will like postpone it. not cancel but postpone haha. make the guy sooooo what la !!! but i just wonder ...... they won't feel anything meh ?? LOL !!!

aiya, find a new guy, handsome handsome, rich rich LOL !!! xiang de mei !!! if he turns out to be a joe millionaire i die wahahaha !!! but i'll just find someone that i can love, and he love me too =p wait till the time comes ........ :)

anyway, heni joined me for work today =) at least i have company now. when dennis piss me off i can complain to her LOL !!!! she wrap the rice roll until 300plus grams i down there laugh !!! haha. after work we went to the VCD shop downstairs. nothing to do ma, ended up buying 2 VCDs AGAIN !!! recently i spend alot on VCDs. it's a nice thing to do, slacking at home after work, watching VCDs haha. was thinking of getting the "scary movie" and "just my luck". i watched "just my luck" before but thought it wasn't worth that money. didn't get "scary movie" cause heni say it was really lame. so i ended up with "school of rock" and "the break-up". old movies, "the break-up" is because i haven't watch, got discount so buy lor =p

then the guy asked about our work, had a lil chat. end up i leave my contacts with him, so that if they employing they call me =p imagine, i quit QQrice go downstairs work haha. he ask if i got any requirement, i say higher pay than QQrice =x LOL !!! but more slack la, there no people one, then can sit down. QQrice tired like siao la !!! VCD shop can buy alot VCD also =) and can watch whatever movie during work that you want hehe. if they call then i tiao cao =x

reached home watch abit of VCD jiu peng san already. cause i didn't sleep for 2 days liao. my eyelids were half closed during work, yawn hundreds of time. but the funny thing is, when no customer i only tired. i see customer, look at them, WA buay tahan !!! LOL !!! see liao also sian la !!!

working morning shift again, for the whole week. but heni must report one hour earlier wahahahaha .... i get to sleep longer. talking about sleep .... look at the time now ... though i slept just now, but i still wanna sleep !!! so you guys, don't sleep too late ok ?? goodnight !!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

i also don't know what to say about those people. cause they always say i only look at other people's faults but now they are also looking ONLY at my faults what right. haha, so same thing applies to them.

i'm very glad to know that me and my FRIENDS are alright already. i mean those who really try to understand me instead of blaming me straight away. they took time to bring me out of that shadow and counsel me. that's when i see who's my true friends =) thanks guys. i know i shouldn't "ji jiao" with what other people say about me cause people who are sincere in making friends with me will not always harp not my mistakes. even if i made a mistake, they try to correct me instead of quarrelling. i really need to thank them for always giving me a chance to explain and lending me a listening ear.

of course i'm not saying that those who never say anything is not my friends la, but after this "storm" at least i know who's true to me and who's just putting up a nice show for everyone to see. i don't have to say it out, i know it in my heart. if you are one of them, i believe you will know it too =)

enough of stupid saddening things. today my supervisor pissed me off 2 times. we had a debate regarding sales ethics, haha let him win la. argue so much also no use, he's my boss i have to listen to him. auntie seow cooked veg for me today knowing that i had not much appetite. but i really have to say sorry to her cause i left it untouched. this whole week i don't have appetite to eat. even when i'm hungry at home, i can only finish campbell soup. see solid food feel like vomitting. during work not so bad la, cause i know i'm not eating that haha.

after work had some disputes over the phone. perhaps because my friend misinterpret the conversation then he told me somethings very hurting. so abit of here and there, then ok liao. but i cried all the way from novena to marsling, very paiseh. train alot people lo. but was just feeling kinda hurt, as long as my other friend believe then it's ok if other people misunderstand, because most impt is that he don't misunderstand.

reached melissa's place and mahjong with her crazy friend LOL !!! today play 3 ka only. at first keep fang pao, later on change place even worse. can ting pai nv fang pao happy liao. lose 30plus. but the 3rd pok i sit back my feng shui wei then get back about 10plus bucks, so end up lose 15bucks. not too bad la, considering that i didn't sleep for the past 2 days haha. they say i "hop sai" LOL !!!

trained to YCK with hui qi. she going for another mahjong session !!! crazy la !! haha, she 3ka siao, ask her play 4 ka she don't like. then chat chat chat about crazy stuff. then i told her, next fri and sat, we make mel "tu" back her 25bucks today LOL !!! but she don't "he zuo yu kuai" hehe. so bad of us. but mel also always ask me "tu" back one what wahahaha.

today got the "ren ci" charity don't know what show. that fa shi really have very strong determination. salute him man !!! if i can climb 1/8 of what he climb, miracle lo LOL !! maybe i can't even get the 1st step on. pei fu pei fu !!! bryan wong and quan yi feng gave quite a touching speech too. but i just don't understand why desmond koh keep asking the reverend to talk when he's resting haha. so what la !!! people very tired you know !!! LOL !!!

type type type, until i so tired le. 52hours never slp le. later go slp 6hours must wake up again. SIAN !!! tomorrow heni's joining me for work =))) YAY !!!

2007-03-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

hohoho so much of crap. suddenly my blog is infested with gutless people. why do you have to hide your identity just to bad-mouth and pin-point people ?? obviously you are ashamed of yourself. well IF you do remember, i only said that i welcome logical criticism, not SENSELESS ones.

ok let me first say that, whether you think i'm a girl or a woman, it seriously doesn't make much of a difference to me right ?? so it's like another load of rubbish. so you agree with that nameless don't-know-guy-or-girl-de-aqua.

AND AND AND !!! so are you telling me that you can see my brain ?? HOHOHO what a brainless statement. so it contains ALL my righteousness and everybody's wrongs. OHHH is it ?? at least i have righteousness to own up for whatever i say, unlike some scaredy cat hiding behind the screen. yes it contains people whom i thought have done injustice to me. NOW you tell me. don't you remember them too ?? so you aren't human ?? if you are really so great as to credit people for doing things right, then why are you here barking so loudly ?? when this don't concern you.

perhaps i should tell you, you are not in any way related to us (i hope so). out of 100days, i don't see you for even once. if you don't know what's happening, please stop wasting my time to have to read your tags which totally makes no sense. if you don't have a good understanding of the situation, you aren't fit to comment. with this, i think it's obvious who's brain is peasized.

and i totally know the reason why "godlike" thinks that i'm always argueing to be in the right. he says that i never apologise as if i'm always faultless. but he should really try to point out at which point of time did i say i was perfect ?? did you say this because YOU are NOT the one i apologise to ?? i do say "sorry" to my friends, but not to you. if you still think i'm always in the right, then too bad for you, you can't understand simple english.

and i just don't understand why you two just cannot open your big dog eyes to read. i don't care whether i piss people off anot, cause if they wanna be pissed, i don't even need to do a thing, and they can be pissed already. it's all about their own feelings towards me, and i never forced them to love me ?? if this you still can't understand, then you better stop tagging, waste space.

after so much of explanation, you all still cannot understand, that just goes to show how you two even know me well enough. if you two still don't get it, i see no point continuing to rant cause stupid means stupid, say so much also no use. cause you say one sentence, before they even catch half, they already start to go out of point already.

SO LAME !!! i guess they will never dare put their names one la, this type of people reveal their identity, the sky drop ar !!! worse still, they impersonate to sow discord. i depiese them. SEE PROPERLY, this is me, jolynn chew say one. I DEPIESE PEOPLE WHO HIDE THEIR IDENTITY WHEN BAD-MOUTHING PEOPLE. fair enough ??

as what tong lam has told me, i already cleared some misunderstandings between tong lam, elmo, kai qi, jeffrey and many many more people la. i can't be bothered who's right who's wrong, just say "Sorry" then forget everything la. so now things at that side is ok already.

as for jarrel i can't say nothing except "you just don't know." i'm sure many of you will have heard about this before. "a true heart needs no explanation because explaining means hiding. any insincere gesture can never be clarified no matter what amount of words are used."

so far so true. your mum loves you, you can see it one. she don't have to tell you everyday or show it out, it's the everyday feeling you know. it's the way the love comes out of the heart, not the mouth. so no point telling me, you did you did but infact i don't see anything. even your sister can vouch for that. she also agrees that girlfriend is not your priority now, so why find one ??

why make other people commit to you when you can't do the same ?? i've been repeating myself, and i don't think you know because you still haven't found the one you really love. when you find her, you will know the difference and agree that actually it was just an infatuation from you to me.

stead also stead liao, break also break liao, who wrong who right also not important. just take it as we wasted half a year building nothing ba. and regarding your family side, i don't think you have much to say. i can try my best to do 100things for you, but they just need to do one small lil thing to make you forget all i've done. so till now, i have to admit the fact that i mean very very little compared to everybody else around you except your enemies, but do you know how much you once meant to me ??

did you even realise ............. the times when i had to hide the truth and tell people you care about me the most. did you realise what difficulty i took to tell people that my boyfriend loves me ?? because i didn't feel that love from you.....

you still mean alot to me, but whenever i see you, i see the pain, i feel like running away. i treat you with such contempt now so that i won't be so vunerable in front of you. i don't wanna show you, the way you made me cry, on the journeys alone back home, during the times when you weren't there.............

2007-03-18T09:15:00.000+08:00

this is all extracted from cailing's blog. i had a good time nodding and laughing at the same time. so i thought i'll share it with you guys :) credits to http://www.sweetsedation.blogspot.com

sounds like advertising ?? hhaha, but i didn't really ask before i ripped it =x so i feel kinda guilty haha. why not when xiaxue's content ?? cause she so famous, news spread around like fire, so i can't be bothered LOL !!! =xxxxxx

Okay, MALE EGO. What is up with that? I don't get it, I don't understand. Does it hurt to be the first one to say sorry, or the one who gives in? Man pride, I tell you, can get on my nerves at times. I'm sure I'm not the only girl to think like that! Of course I don't have anything against The Ones With Dicks. It's just their ego I don't comprehend. Especially Jerks and their fucking egos.

Let's see:

Scene 1 - The Classic Example They never ever ever ever ever EVER admit that they're wrong, even when the facts are staring right at them in their faces! Even when they do admit, they'd be, " Sorry lahhhh.." which obviously has a hidden meaning that goes like this - I'm just admitting I'm wrong for the sake of doing so, but actually I know I'm right. Come on, when I say I'm looking for Mr. Right, I don't expect his middle name to be Always.

Scene 2 - I'd rather die than have my manhood cut off.I was talking to a fellow girlfriend when she told me this. Their manhood practically has a mind of its own. No further explanations needed, I presume? However, I do understand that without it, you can't pro-create. So fine, but let's just give the comparing of sizes/lengths/diameter/width/whatever a rest shall we? After all, we're not that interested so you can also leave your friends' information out from the conversation.

Scene 3 - I Tarzan, You Jane.I guess there is something that goes way back into the primitive times about males being the one doing everything like putting the food on the table and also, there are a few certain things that they just can't accept females to do. Or maybe there is something about the Damsel In Distress that appeals to the males, or that helpless frail womanly female that drives them wild. Nowadays, females are being more independent, more self-reliant and in some families, the guys are not the ones who bring in the dough but the females. And in certain companies, the superiors are mostly females. Basically, all MCPs(Male Chauvinistic Pig) should learn to accept that. Some jerks/guys hate to hear our opinions and think that our opinions are insignificant. And if something bad happens, they'll say, Why didn't you tell me earlier?! Then when you remind them that you in fact DID tell them, they'd take it as nagging and shut you out from their ears. It's frustrating!Women are not innately inferior to you!

Scene 4 - I love Virgins!I think I will laugh my ass off typing this one out. Guys want their spouses to be virgins, then if they expect so much, don't you think that it would be also nice for them to be the same? " Oh, guys can screw around because their future wives will never know if they're virgins or not.No hymen to tear."For one thing, the hymen can be torn during sports, dickhead. I'll be laughing when you get STDs or AIDS." I don't know if I will still marry my girlfriend when I find out she's not a virgin."Unless she's a whore, then it's different. But then again, why are you dating a whore? Kinda tells us alot huh.Anyway, the idea of virginity is so overrated, but I am not encouraging pre-marital sex. Read again :I am not encouraging pre-marital sex.

Scene 5 - Uhhhh..Guys cannot, cannot cannot and will never never express their innermost feelings. I think even an ' I love you' will cause them to get tongue-tied. Maybe they think it's gay, I don't know. But being a little sensitive won't hurt. OMG and this has to lead to insensitivity, a huge part of guys. Somehow they don't get why we're angry or sad. Especially when it's your fault!

Eg 1 Finally! You two can spend a Saturday together. Oh glorious glorious! Finally he is free on Saturday night or SO you think.

The Guy: Hey, I am going out with my friends on Saturday night, or do you want to go out? I can always cancel it.
You: Uhh, nah it's okay. Go out and enjoy yourself! I don't mind.
The Guy : Alright, babe. You're the best girlfriend in the whole wide world.

You just smile a big fuckingfake smile, and think about how it's like to strangle a person and if it's worth going to jail for.COME ON, wake up. I think they're only asking out of being polite. I hate last minute changes or whatsoever, though this isn't about last minute changes but I digress.Of course you say you don't mind, you wouldn't want to seem as a controlling girlfriend right. A whole week and the ONE day you thought you guys can spend together is taken up. Friends are important, but really, do you think we will not mind at all?

Another example of this insensitivity is when he flirts with someone else in front of you! and claims it's nothing. You know it hurts? And especially they don't get how we need some TLC during our most vulnerable times, our moodswings. It would be nice if they actually cared a little more, listened a little more and talked a little less. They take it as insecurity and get pissed. Sheesh -rolls eyes.Some don't even know how to be sweet or romantic, which makes the relationship boring. Some whisper sweet nothings and you feel loved, but yet, you feel insecure around them.

It's a funny thing, how The Ones With Dicks work.

Conclusion:Guys think with their dicks, well, most of them anyway.

something a lil more ok one haha.

LAME SHIT." Everyone's in love with Fall Out Boy.""Sis, tell him that you're in love with NCC because they're the Fall In Boys."WHAT GEORGE BUSH MIGHT SAY." To me, having sex is like the Iraq Campaign. I WILL NOT PULL OUT."Omfg, I think I laughed, died and went to heaven.

2007-03-18T03:53:00.000+08:00

hiyah after talking so much. i've sorted things out with tong lam. everything's kinda alright on that side. other things are still in a horrendous state. but i still must thank tong lam for those advices, i think can apply with other issues too =)

but jarrel, i have to be really frank now. i admit that a part of me hates you. you guys might think i'm joking, but this time i'm not. but i just don't know what to say to you to make you understand. after saying the same thing and being misintepreted for half a year, by more and more people, i decided to heed tong lam's advice.

some things you just LL, let them say what they want. they wanna still condemn you, say what also no use. some things you just have sallow even if you don't want to.

yeah, i'm just gonna do that. i'm not gonna clarify anything, anymore. cause if people already fixed their impression on me, no amount of anything can change it. i change myself, for the sake of myself and future friends, not for those sceptical people who still choose to pin-point at my past. so IF any of you want to combined my char last time with my changed self, then it's up to you. i just shut up, ok ?? happy with that ??

as for those who are willing to wait for me to change and perhaps guide me thru, thanks !!! it's nice to have people who are willing to give you some support when everyone snobs at you. but i really need time and alot of effort cause once i kind of cannot tahan and flare up, the effort all in the soup liao. so now i will learn how to control the limit of my temper. temper is sure have, but i'll try my best to minimise it.

so friends(those who are staying on), thank you guys first !! =p kudos to tong lam, cause he enlightened me. and also because i don't expect him to be the one cause i don't see him more than 50times a yr LOL !!!

no more flaming !!! you spam all you want, make yourself look like a fool. and i shall be honest, i'm referring to that smart-alec godlike =)

tong lam gonna scold me. he say he don't like someone he show it straight, wait he say i copy him haha. CRAZY WOMAN !!! mahjong tomorrow !!! next fri and sat too !!! YEAHHHHHHHHH !!!

2007-03-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

first i'll still like to thank my friends for trying to cheer me up. but sorry it's like 4-6 issues all at a time. sometimes i'm venting about this, sometimes about that. so if your eyes hurt, then avoid my blog for sometime haha.

and this long long essay i'll have to type to godlike, you all can skip this part la huh.

eh who you fucking think you are. i've always been like this last time. don't act like you know me very long lor. if you really do, put your big arse name down la !!! always i'm correct, is it ?? then you point out which part is false lor. is not always i correct, because whatever i do you also will say wrong =.= so up to you la huh, i wrong or correct also none of your fucking business.

i na de qi fang bu xia ?? PLEASE LA !!! i just don't wanna leave him in the lurch. if you see your friend left 10 bucks for a week, then he buy mac or play mahjong you will stop him ?? if he eats bread everyday, he can survive the week. i'm just trying to stop him, not i fang bu xia. if i wanna see him like that and don't care, i can one lor =.=

and i already said, you don't know me that well. since when other don't love me ?? others love me anot you know ar ?? unless you once loved me la =.= don't need say i BHB, i was just trying to rebutt your brainless statement.

OHHHH i see ... you don't know what the hell i thinking, of course you dunno la !!!! if you know then you live in my body ??? my thinking pissed alot of people ?? SO WHAT !!! i can think whatever i like, do i have to change it because you buay song ?? NOOO !!! cause i don't fucking give a damn whether you are happy with me anot. there are enough ppl being unhappy with me, plus you makes no diff. and also ........ they don't WALK pass my blog.

it's already quite a cliche, if you don't know it then you are a mountain tortoise for sure.

many of the bloggers would just tell people like you:

"NOT HAPPY, CLICK THE TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER."
"BUAY SONG ?? FUCK OFF !!!"
"DON'T AGREE ?? SHUT UP !!"

if believe you have heard of all these before, i won't shoot them at you. i believe if you have nothing constructive to say, you should know what to do.

why am i being so rude to you ?? because i hate people typing essays in my tag w/o their real identity. and worse of all, you choose a name so unsuitable for yourself. "godlike" PUI ar !!! i always think i'm right. ok fine, now i tell you what i feel that is wrong with you ok ??

you have nothing better to do than to come here and type rubbish which you think i will seek as advice. maybe when i die .... and you are speaking for people. i shall quote what my sister always say "is you not us, speak for yourself" you buay song with me, you tell me, don't add in other people. they buay song, they will tell me, so you STFU. just say you not happy and zip your big ass mouth.

and the worst is, you actually tell me to practise what i preach, not only say to others. HOHOHO !!! so all the while you know what i'm doing ?? then you must be someone like a stalker or what ?? then lemme ask you, how many times do i kick your ass when i doze off ?? =.= please la, speak for yourself. if i always think that i'm right, you also do the same not what ..... LAME !!!

then to the 3rd person.

you feel that you didn't smug, of course la, i'm the one being smugged at =.=

you got a high-paying job, then ok, nothing to blame about that. but the way you talk and smsed to me totally changed can !!! so yeah, your cousin's boyfriend gave you this chance, everything also shun their yi si lor. fine i nothing to say.

buy drinks for them, you may think i gey gao money with you. but you think again, i need to gey gao about 50cents anot ?? if you were buying the drink for me, you would have just anyhow chosen one and told me that "aiya sui bian la". that was what you always did last time, sui bian la.but somehow when you do anything for your other friends or whoever la, you are very meticulous about the task de lor. why last time you never like that ?? now like that la.

aiya i don't know how to explain it to you, but the way you behave that day may not be seen to others at smug because they are the ones being affected. but i am, because i was the one who introduced you to that job. lowly-paid or whatever you may say cause u earning alot now. why did i say u smug ??

because knowing that you don't turn up for work, i kanna. you don't even have the initiative to call up and inform ?? oh why ?? because their pay lower, no need call is it ?? if you really such a responsible person, you should have at least made it clear either on the call when they asked you to work, OR before sat comes. if a humble and responsible person is in you, then you would have call up to save the trouble. like what you said, you will take responsiblity =.=

on the other side, there were some unconfirmed bad news about a friend. cannot say much here, in case i SPREAD =.= so two people asked me help check up on the details to find out the truth. so i asked those who knew abt it, or those who know this friend more than me for details. so it becomes my fault i spread. FINE, sorry. if i knew i had to carry this black pot, then i ask people to check themselves lo.

i can't say much about anything now incase i say the wrong things. there one thing tong lam told me: yishun people also condemn you liao lor, your attitude like that

ok, like i don't know. who condemn me you tell me for what ?? can i do anything about it ?? if they want condemn me, then i can force them not to ?? so i simply told them, not only yishun people. everyone condemn me, you also. i find this sentence so correct.

everyone condemns me, then please flood my tagboard with some sense other than flaming unnecessarily. if you scold me with some logic, i will shut up. but if i can find something to condemn about you, i will. condemn me lor, i'm a strong-headed person who never listens.

if that is what you feel then carry one. but i have to remind you, if as you said, i won't listen, then won't you be the fool trying to scold me ?? i won't listen la !!! lame shit. i am the bull shit =)

2007-03-17T02:36:00.000+08:00

a few weeks, one or two maybe, i knew somebody from some friends. he gave me a special feeling, or perhaps, he kind of captured my attention. he's a lil unique compared to other people i know. so far only 2 people gave me that type of feeling. one is him, the other, obvious enough.

however, my heart told me not to get serious with guys anymore. it's just the beginning of this feeling, easy to remove. so yeah, i'll just let it go. also because i know our char are far too diff from each other to the extent where there will be many parts of our personalities that both of us can't accomodate. plus, i'm definitely not his type. i'm not mature, not understanding, not gentle, just none of the qualities that a guy seek in his girl. this type of guy won't like me de. i haven't started to develop any "feeling" for him, so just forget it =)

after this turmoil i have been since 9th june 2006 till now, i think it's time i went back to myself 2 years ago. in this almost one year period, 3 people came in and outta my life, only one could stay in my heart, the 2nd one in my mind.

the 3rd one, i don't know what to do, no amount of anything i say can wake him up, so i rather just not bother. not that i still like him, but i will never ever leave somebody in danger like that. i forced him to do many things that he don't like, threw tantrums at him, make things difficult. but i have my reasons to it. i'm already trying my best to help, however i can't tell you why, because things are not meant to be said when time isn't ripe. since you just refuse to do anything despite my countless hints and naggings, then forget it. prepare for your own future then. now play is the most important to you, as long as you get what you want, you don't care how others feel, or rather, you forget about people regardless whether they are impt or not. continue to seep into your own unrealistic sanctuary, i wash my hands off you. better than i get disappointed time and again. is it really so hard to do something for a person you claim to be the most important to you. or was it just talk and nothing done ?? i see no effort put in, a total waste of my time on you. i'm disappointed and upset over you, totally.

go ahead, smug at me when you have a better paying than me. go ahead and say "haha, who wants that shit you introduced." you'll see in no many years what i mean. your high-paying job is not forever. don't weigh anything with money, if not, don't regret when you can't get something that money can't buy in future. i'm talking about your future. i hate you for not taking a sense of responsibility for whatever you say or do in a moment of folly.

you are the most shallow person i've ever seen. only considering the benefits displayed in front of you, and not bothering about any consequences you or others have to face after your foolishness. selfish to other, and yourself too. as long as the person gives you what you want, then everything is ok. after that, you just kick them away, no responsibility taken.

there was once, 2years back, one of my ex-boyfriends told me to be serious in relationships, as in, really dead serious. he told me not to toy around anymore, to treat the feelings of others with more caution. i tried, ever since then, i was serious in every relationship after that. but i regret doing so.

ever since i changed, none of them seem to take me seriously. i often have emotional upsets and nobody cares cause they think i'm just like that, it'll be over soon. but no, i will always remember. nobody takes me seriously too, so why should i ?? i hate him for changing me, to put me into all this shit. i could have lived w/o this agony if not for him. afterall, all the people i loved had never loved me back. so ?? what's the big deal ?? i don't need love, i can just flirt with anyone i want.

i rejected a guy today. i almost agreed to be his girl. but i don't like ah bengs, and my boyfriend to go clubbing or stay out late every single day with god-knows-who. maybe twice a week, but not every alternate day. when he proposed, i was happy for a second because someone "love" me. not that love i want but at least something half of it. but i just don't wish to get hrut or be involved in any sticky situations, so i kind of isolate myself today.

the one i love most don't really care about me already. i was depressed yesterday but i didn't wanna find him with that crying face, so i told him i'll go when day breaks. but he rejected cause he wanted to sleep. well well well, i can't expected too much right. but it's damn different now, not even when we were just friends, not even like before 30th of april. not like when he was my god daddy. i always wished for him to say, "i lend you my shoulder." or " you still have me to care(as a good friend). but even that can't be done now. that's what serious relationships do to you. when you are serious, people don't want to, thus avoiding you after a breakup and nothing becomes normal at all. maybe i confide in him too much that he's sick of me. i wanna disappear from him for a long period of time then find him so that he feels better seeing me. but once or twice in a few months, i just feel like having a long chat with him.

i know that he's not willing to listen to my nonsense, but he's just patronising me because right after we broke up, he told me that he'll still care for me. this is not what i want, or rather what i don't wish to have at all. i just hope for a lil care from a friend which is true from the heart, not some shallow words that come out from the mouth.is it so diff to care for someone you don't like or is sick of, or your ex ?? but the main reason should be: you shifted attention to other people already. or maybe, you didn't shift, you choose to care for everyone, except me. anyway, thanks.

SHIT !!! i just said that i won't be serious =.= i sound liek everyone's letting me down huh ?? of course i too, let down many people before. perhaps this is retribution to heed that fella's words and be serious. so from now on, i'll just be what's me in year 2004, toy around. when i like it, i be good, when i don't like then i don't meet you. bad luck for any guy not reading this and meeting me in future. i can jinx you if you come close to me now, so just stay far far. i try not to play around la. but if someone "song shang men lai" then too bad for him. now it's only friends that i treasure, not guys anymore.

jolynn can be the worst poison you ever find. she can make you hate her like what so just stay away from her. try hurting her now, and see what you get. maybe she'll just kill herself and haunt you like a malicious ghost.

I WANNA FLIRT.

2007-03-16T02:59:00.000+08:00

whenever i confided in you, i always quietly wished that you will take me back by your side. like what you did on the 30th of april 2006. you, to agree to be the 1st one to really love me and give me warmth. though i said that no one loved me before, but i know you did. i wish for the day you will come running back and hug me tight. i even dream about it everyday in my sleep, but i still have to wake up. it's so sweet yet exaggerating, but all too true.

when i say nvm, it always minds the most.

i seriously can't get over you, but what to do ??

.................. who ?? up to you to guess.

people always slash their wrists, but don't they think that it feels better on fat thighs ?? wrist-cutting is outdated la.

i had a long conversation with jason, i did 95% of the talking. it was supposed to be because someone else deeply hurt me but it becomes "him". not he hurt me, but i just can't forget one bit. i always say "yes i forgot you" but in my heart ?? well the answer is abvious. i still keep all our photos, the memories. i thought of erasing all of them, but i can't bring myself to do it. i just love you toooooo much. i don't know why.

somehow my gut feeling tells me that you have taken interest or maybe fall in love with someone new. i know i very kan bu kai, but i just can't accept that fact. i want you to love me, i really do, but i never dared to tell you, because i don't want to ask stupid questions. i already know the answer, so why ask ?? maybe you really think i forgot you already, cause you don't even view my profile not to say read this blog.

well, i shall stop searching for your heart, lest our situation becomes worse. it really hurts enough now, to know that the one you love had never loved you back. i know i've said this many many times, but nothing can really express it.

BUT I REALLY LOVE YOU !!! say you love me too .... please .... miracles don't happen. FUCK

2007-03-16T00:04:00.000+08:00

sighs .... i'm using the colour i hate most cause lao niang feeling very down the whole day. and sometimes feeling kam pua du lan. content not suitable to show here. try hacking my ranting area ba, i think only my er jie can do that ba. she knows all the shortcuts in a computer =.=

ok la, very obvious, 5% is because i lost alot in mahjong. i can't blame anyone for that la suay means suay. sit in the same seat throughout(i believe in feng shui), then played 2 poks, win 2 times only. win is 1 tai nia =.= even jarrel sit that sit also win 2 times only. well well well, previous one i won 40bucks minus 18, now lose 31bucks minus 2.5. no win no lose la. but i regret renting the VCD today, not worth it, wasted 8 bucks on it =(

i just got overwhelmed by certain small little expressions i saw la. so overwhelming that i stared in a daze for so long though there's something nice on tv. so much that i need to hide in the toilet to cry. crazy lao niang, PMS ar !!!

2nd reason, cause i fucking search the whole day but can't find the song i want.

3rd reason, i can't fucking enrol before given date and i can't log in to check my timetable.

everything pisses me off la !!! KNN !!!! tak boleh tahan already, i go rant !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PUI ar !!!

2007-03-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

Very meaningful, PLEASE READ!!!

A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted !!!!

So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand. The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person...."

"What is marriage then?" the student asked.

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick. "

The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."

Cheers !!!

2007-03-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

back from work =)

yesterday was my first day at work with dennis(supervisor), michelle and aunty linda. nice people =) quite a tiring job for me on the 1st day because i wore the wrong shoes which have no proper support on its soles. but overall, the tasks are considered quite manageable. the rice rolls i wrapped are kinda big LOL !!! the customers gain.

finished work at 2pm, received soooo many msges. sueann asked me for mahjong, and i pangsehed my mum for it =x wahahaha. won around 40plus, but i didn't collect jarrel's share cause he don't have enough money. he say will return me when he gets a job, but i don't intend to collect his share, cause i think he needs it more than me la. could have won more but i purposely lose cause we were running outta time LOL !!! cabbed home and sleep !!!

2nd day at QQ rice !!! with hong(supervisor), trixie and aunty seow. hong is a very very nice guy, cause he more slack LOL !!! trixie was kinda having some contempts towards me at first but ok later. though she can be rather sacarstic all the time but still a nice person, taught me alot of things =p

aunty seow made french toast for us =))) yummy yummy. hong taught me alot about closing and rice-wrapping, THANKS !!! he taught alot alot alot, until my brain cannot squeeze haha, exaggerated la. i kept wanting to do closing early early, cause i scared miss last train. i started closing at 10pm instead of 10.30pm haha. scarly they lose alot of business haha. but close until about 11pm also, imagine if i started at 10.30pm *bish*

today i brought heni and joanna for interview at QQ rice =) heni's most probably working, but joanna that cow can't confirm HAHA, fussy lil pout. jarrel told me that QQ rice hiring him too lols.

then dennis purposely put us on diff shifts. i was supposed to do closing on both sat and sun but i changed sunday to morning shift, jarrel kanna sabo-ed. =x but now i thoroughly think through it, actually i made the wrong choice. WHY ??

sat --> closing, reach home 12am, 2am hair dry sleep.
sun --> 11am, wake up at 8am =.=

but if start work late very sian one, before that don't know what to do. like today, i wait for time to reach. went to hougang mall and had lunch for 1 and 1/2 hours =.= i normally take 20mins. then i went to hougang station, wait for three 6 min intervals before i board the train. took to dhoby ghaut then to marina bay to bounce back. instead of alighting at novena, i further it to braddel, and return back to novena. and i was still earlier than them !!!! brought them for interview, and i was half an hour early for my shift =.= my supervisor happy i sad lols. then just laze around and start 15mins early lor, my loss haha.

so damn tired la. but can't sleep cause my hair's still wet. how to wake up to do opening tomorrow !!!!

2007-03-12T15:07:00.000+08:00

i see people around trusting bad company so much, be it their friends or family. well, i don't have the right to step in and pull them out, so i'll just leave them to be. if not i'll just be making people unhappy again. =.= WHATEVER. i say once, i say twice, don't listen then forget it lo. NOMB anyway, i live my life you live yours. wahahaha.

alright, let's not talk about unhappy things. mahjong-ed on fri and lost alot, to the same person, mr jarrel choo. but it's ok =) then had mahjong on sat too. jarrel stayed over at someone's house then acc me to see doc at kovan. got quite pissed with people, even more pissed with another "people" but sua forget it. not my business also, i got no right to say anything, i'm always the bad guy.

then cabbed down to marsling for mahjong thanks to someone. the cab fare was a wholly 13bucks. well, it's pretty inconvenient to go there from kovan anyway, so i just take it as i wanted the cab ride myself. bumped into melissa while queueing at POSB machine. i didn't see her so i thought she wasn't queueing.

she shouted "eh !!! don't cut queue leh !!"
me thinking .. "cannot talk properly ar =.="

was about to shout back when i saw her, that siao char bor !!! haha, see her make me wanna laugh already. so she was the one shout so loud to kajiao la !!! haha. jarrel went to top up his ez-link card while we went to NTUC to buy drinks and 4D. melissa don't want to acc us wait for jon as we arrived kinda early, so she went back home first.

jon came and we mahjong-ed. our mahjong money was rising and dropping like stock market la LOL !!! at first lose alot, then win alot, then lose even more, then win back. but in the end lose 6bucks only, still ok la LOL !!! but the funny thing is ....

take melissa's phone to check 4D ...

ME: wa sian, never tio. wa!!! this number come out again. jarrel help me play la, no mood liao.

walked over to take the 4D ticket and tear it away ...

happy happy walk to MRT. halfway through ...

ME: OH SHIT !!!!!!!!!!! i forget leh !!!

jarrel: forget it ??

ME: i buy 4D for both days leh !!! but i tear liao.

jarrel: throw away ar ??

ME: ya !!! in the rubbish chute. tomorrow open 1st prize i jump down !!! haha.

jarrel alighted at khatib while i trained to YCK to change bus.

woke up at 2plus. what a pig. laze around until 4plus. went out with mummy for suki sushi =) who ask warboy don't want go with me hehe. ate like what like that, until i feel my tummy threatening to burst any minute. bought slippers =) acutally want to buy another of "i-don't-know-what-it's-called-shoe" but they don't have a new pair. i didn't want to take the one on display, so i gave it a miss. went home, did my nails and slept till now =)

had chicken rice for lunch =x later cough come back haha. and starting work tml, freaking early can !!! 8am leh, who would eat rice balls at 8am ?? haha. but nvm, got money can liao =p hope my cough recovers in time, if not customer will eat infected rice balls x))) just kidding la !!!

go back for more sleep, feeling so lazy haha. CYA !!!

2007-03-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

i'm employed !!! wahahaha. by QQrice at novena. any of my friends wanna join me ?? go apply, i pretend don't know you can liao LOL !!!

i'm actually quite surprised la. cause that time sheryl worked there, quarrelled with the supervisor then quit the job. jarrel went for interview but didn't get it. i went the next day with jarrel, the don't know who recognises jarrel as sheryl's brother !!! LOL !! cannot blame, they look too alike. i thought will leave bad impression, but never WAHAHAHAH !! money money~~

played mahjong and lose alot today. mostly jarrel win de =.= nvm la haha. then we play until too late ma, so they rushed through the game in case i got scolding from that stupid bastard. when we dilly-dallied, i kept losing. when we were rushing i won some LOL !!! then their mac delivery arrived, waste so much time collecting money. then rush even faster win even more =) but never win back my capital la.

made a new friend but i don't know his name =x good-tempered but quiet i would say. he look around 18-23 years old. but he's much older than that la !!! i was kinda shocked. i can't reveal his age here, not very nice la huh. don't want to offend anyone.

finished playing then ran downstairs, grab a cab and ZOOM off. left seng kang at 11.50pm, reached my house at 11.56pm, FAST right !!! the uncle power LOL !!!

guess what ?? i told that bastard i'm starting work on tues, he say "ask your manager don't put you on closing shift, reach home before 12am" WTHHHHHH !!! fucking stupid bastard la. company he open one ar =.= he never even contribute to the family still dare control me, he never even put in any effort to make sure his daughter was happy during the growing period. instead he make me more unhappy only. what fucking right does he have to make my life miserbale ?? he made me watch my friends have fun in chalets and stuff after "o" levels, playing midnight mahjong, going to countdowns. i'm gonna get back at him double when i find the chance too. this suffering will end all too soon. he better watch out, who ask him step on my toes first. KNN PCB !!!

2007-03-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

just something for you readers =) enjoy !!!

A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales.
The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small.
The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale.
Irritated, the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was physically impossible.

The little girl said, "When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah".
The teacher asked, "What if Jonah went to hell?"
The little girl replied, "Then you ask him ".

A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they were drawing.
She would occasionally walk around to see each child's work.
As she got to one little girl who was working diligently, she asked what the drawing was.
The girl replied, "I'm drawing God."
The teacher paused and said, "But no one knows what God looks like."
Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing, the girl replied, "They will in a minute."

One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at the kitchen sink.
She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head.
She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, "Why are some of your hairs white, Mom?"
Her mother replied, "Well, every time that you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white."
The little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then said, "Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are white?"

The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture.
"Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say, 'There's Jennifer, she's a lawyer,' or 'That's Michael, He's a doctor.'
A small voice at the back of the room rang out, "And there's the teacher, she's dead."

A teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood.
Trying to make the matter clearer, she said, "Now, class, if I stood on my head, the blood, as you know, would run into it, and I would turn red in the face."
"Yes," the class said.
"Then why is it that while I am standing upright in the ordinary position the blood doesn't run into my feet?"
A little fellow shouted,"Cause your feet ain't empty."

The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary school for lunch.
At the head of the table was a large pile of apples.
The nun made a note, and posted on the apple tray: "Take only ONE. God is watching."
Moving further along the lunch line, at the other end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies.
A child had written a note, "Take all you want. God is watching the apples.

2007-03-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

PEEK-A-BOO !!!! hehe. today was kind of like a fufilling day compared to those during my looonnngggg holiday.

i hate march, because my neighbour is having their stupid renovation, everyday i won't get to sleep past 9am one. #$$#%^&* went to hougang mall buy 4D, then in front got one girl kanna check IC, i faster zhao haha !!!

meet jarrel at novena for job hunt. went to quite a number of places today. like BATA, OUTDOOR SPORTS, POH KIM, QQ RICE.... blah blah la. thinking of trying giordano again but got disappointed so many times, and so hard to get in, SUA la LOL !!! the place damn ulu, always must take cab, i then don't want.

leong chun that bastard damn lazy haha. say want find job, then say novena too far, too lazy. he stay AMK can !!! then after went to bugis and ate KFC for lunch. haha, and my throat condition got worse. lalala~~~

walked round and round in bugis to get sheryl's present. wanted to buy a set consisting of an off-shoulder top, necklace, belt and shirts for her de. but the sales person keep wanting to overcharge. and she said that the necklace were not for sale, those for sale one very ugly can !!!! so ended up with a spag top plus a necklace. couldn't find shorts of her size, got her size one all very plain, not nice de.

went to junction to buy a box to contain all the stuff. very expensive box but nice la, with a lil decoration to tip off the plainess. since i shopped for others, of course got shop for myself la !!! haha. got a sling pouch for 18bucks as compared to cine's 23bucks. wanted only the pouch but the strap cannot remove one. also got a necklace, wanted the same one as hian leng but they charge me 22bucks instead of 10plus as he told me. so i choose another one for 16 bucks. kinda common but i like =p

took a train back to his house. played o2jam and mahjong. within 20mins, he lost 6bucks alrdy, LOL !!! then ming kang called. he came up, then we play awhile more jiu head to central liao. my ID skills suck like hell now but nvm la.

on our way back when we were waiting for bus, we saw something really vile and disgusting.

we saw an ugly guy, with an even uglier girl french-kissing in public. you all might say "french kiss only what, what so big deal, very common nia."

they were doing it very very blatantly can !!! even if we kiss our bf or gf, we will make it quick and cover abit right ?? they were right in the middle of the bus interchange where everyone was watching. and they made no attempt to cover up, or rather, purposely wanna show off =.=

the guy hugged the girl by her breasts can !!! then ming kang say because he breasts and tummy feels the same LOL !!! so bad can. when the bus came, the girl ran off with her fats threatening to burst out of that kiddy and tight spag top. and i can tell you, it was such an appalling sight. she was still smiling like she's on heaven. kanna people eat tofu still so happy, it was so obvious that the guy was toying with her feelings can !!! if he loved her, he won't do such thing to shame themselves in public lor. KAO !!!

the guy boarded the same bus as us, and they chatted on the phone, from yishun to hougang, haven't stop. when we alighted, we noticed that the guy wasn't speaking at all, majiam patronising the girl by just listening. this type of ta por can go die la, no girl want you also no need hurt an innocent one like that ma. give her false hopes, make her dress until like that thinking that you'll like it, make her feel so happy even though being shame and make both of you so ugly in the eyes of everyone. i believe if not for the guy, the girl wouldn't have turned out to be like that lor.

we walked through those private estates to get to my house. then i pretended to walk towards one of the units to convince ming kang that it was my house. me and jarrel's idea la. then we turn one round, walk out of the garden LOL !!! played with the lifts =x baddie i know, but there isn't a soul at that time, so we nv caused much inconvenience.

sherly and her mum only managed to find her present which i hid in her room after like 15mins i think, making jarrel laugh like mad haha. glad that she like it =) she's wearing it tomorrow, so sweet haha.

am actually making a trip to ngee ann tomorrow to acc namira go appeal, but she say don't want already. so should be going to jarrel's house make jelly for sheryl's classmates who will be coming in the evening. hopefully got mahjong LOL !!!

last but not least.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYL !!!! =)

2007-03-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

wahahaha. ok some journal of my life again. ya, yet AGAIN !!! but i'm just too lazy to upload photos la.

on saturday it was pool and movie with lance and hianleng. waited damn long for a table la. hian leng left around 6pm. so me and lance went to new cathay to catch a movie as we still have lots of time. bumped into jeffrey and his friend there. bought tickets for "pursuit of happyness".

the movie was around 8.20pm so we went to PS to have dinner. initial D-ed at atrium, a bunch of noobs. not really la, but i call them that because they act like very pro but blame the steering wheel when they lose. normally only noobs do this haha. went for the movie then.

nice movie, but not very nice also. i don't know why. it was suppose to be an inspirational and touching movie, however, it couldn't touch my heart. maybe because i watched it with the wrong person =x LOL !!! just kidding.

hmmm about sunday leh, can say that i almost forgot what i did. haha. lemme think ... think ... think ... DUNNO LA !!! haha.

then yesterday i slacked at home. was suppose to meet jarrel but i decided to be lazy and stay at home till he finishes his interviews before meeting him. went out to buy food as i was feeling rather hungry. just nice at this time jarrel made a trip to my house to bring me my liang teh and strepsils =) thanks. was sick the past few days, kept coughing. heaty food is not the only cause la, as diagnosed from the check up.

i was out at that time and did nto bring my phone. so jarrel couldn't contact me, sorry =p opened that bag and saw my TOTO ticket LOL !!! ate alot, plus KFC too ^^ then tio nag by jarrel cause i eat KFC when i'm unwell. well, who ask me not to be able to resist the temptation.

met him around 5plus. walk walk at hougang mall but the walk cost me alot of money. bought white board marker and duster cause er jie was kind enough to give one of hers to doodle on =) as i bought all those, i suddenly had the mood to do cross stitch as it was a long time since i last touched that. well, cross stitch kits aren't cheap.

went downstairs to buy a bag for my mum's present. whole day spend almost 100bucks, in hougang mall can !!! intending to get something for sheryl's birthday there too. but go bugis walk walk see got anything nicer anot first.

it's mum's birthday today. woke up really early cause my new neighbour was renovating his flat. DAMN loud can !!! called jarrel and he couldn't really hear what i was saying. using com at the same time. then i felt myself swaying unnaturally, EARTHQUAKE !!! minor one la. must be because heaven wanna punish my neighbour for waking me up so early x)))

met mum at cineleisure at 2plus. watched "LADY IRON CHEF" and "JUST FOLLOW LAW". both are funny but "LADY IRON CHEF" was kinda exaggerated. not worth the $$$. "just follow law" ok la, the tickets were 6.50bucks each so still ok. not worth it if it's above 8bucks.

had pathetic lunch at the food court which serves terrible mixed veg rice. dinner at a hong kong cafe. quite nice but still not worth the money. kinda quarrelled with my mum over small things la. whenever i try to protect her she push me away and side with the bully =.= nvm, small thing. next time i hack care her lo, if she don't like it.

eyed a pouch at cineleisure just outside the cafe. but it was actually a sling pouch which strap cannot be removed, so i gave it a miss. saw another hand bag quite chio also, but the bags there not worth that money la. tomorrow go bugis then see everything. means tomorrow will spend alot of money also. but will look for job tomorrow, hopefully i get one =)

phew, finish blabbering. that's it guys. goodnight =p

2007-03-05T23:23:00.000+08:00

erm .. don't need to "haha and dunno why i need to post another long page of comments" it's exactly the same reason as you did.
"i feel i have the right to clarify my thoughts, if not people will start pointing fingers at us when they read her blog. "

both of our bloggings are rather one-sided i would say, so isn't it natural to feel the need to clarify to avoid further accusations or finger-pointing ?? this i think you won't have much to doubt about cause everyone's the same.

i didn't say you couldn't be harsh on me. i was the one who started being mean. BUT what i said was that you need not repeatedly emphasize on that 5-letter word just to make me feel bad. i know i used it first out of impulse, which i have already apologised. at that point of time, i know you will think that i intentionally use that word to insult you, but you could have just warn me in your post instead of using it in almost every single sentence.

i said that you do not care for jarrel's feelings, i DID NOT once try to judge you. on what basis you asked. to the fact that you didn't think before you said everything. if i care for my friend, i wouldn't have said those things to him. and what's more, is that by saying those, it's not even for his own good, it's just to show your anger. so that is why i claim that you don't care for your friend. about your other friends, i never even commented cause i didn't see how you treat them. whether jarrel thinks you or me are good friends to him or not, that we can't really talk about it, isn't it ?? it's up to him to decide.

you told your boy about it, i didn't say you couldn't. yes, you did whisper to eunice before we started the 2nd pok. maybe you didn't remember. one is your good friend, the other is your boy, BUT i didn't say you couldn't tell them.

try remembering the time when you discussed it with eunice's boyfriend too. 4 of you guys were discussing about it, i saw it and heard it with my own ears and eyes. you started whispering because me and jarrel did it ?? i am affected by your whispers because after they heard we you said, they gave me a unexplicable look, as if i was, erm ... i don't know. and obviously, it didn't feel good. so i whispered to jarrel to tell him about it. point understood ??

ok about your words of anger, i don't doubt you. but you angry also too long already right ?? already last pok liao lor, the matter pass very long liao. so that's why i was wondering if you pusposely said it to hurt or it just came out like that. i misunderstood you, sorry.

i need to tell you that you can't link the case of jarrel winning and giving it to me to this case. that was at his relative's house. the stakes were rather big. plus, we weren't playing on the same table, in other words, we KUP. of course we split winnings or loses. but when we are playing on the same table, we don't split anything at all. when i win i keep, unless he really lose alot, i may just give him a lil from mine to help him abit incase he don't have enough to use.

however, when you claimed that he was being unfair and letting me win on purpose, you can never link that to the previous case. cause at that point of time, i was still winning, so there's no reason why he should let me win, or in other words "fang shui". and i already won quite alot the previous day, so why should he ?? erm .. is this ok and clear already ??

about what you whispered to your boy i won't probe, cause since you whispered, it must be something personal between the two of you.

with this, i think there's no need to keep on ranting again. i believe it's already very clear now. whether to keep the ill-feelings or not, i leave it up to you. but as jarrel know me, i'm angry for at most 2 days, and then it's "sunday" again. =)

2007-03-05T02:01:00.000+08:00

"Went to Hougang mall just now to meet Jolynn, to buy some nail polish. Went to buy lunch, at KFC, then went to Macdonalds to buy my brother's food.

So as we were queuing, there was this Indian man who was like making a fuss. It was like reallyyyy stupid. =.=

The scenario was this: Me and Jolynn standing in the queue then at our LHS, the Indian man was shouting at this Macdonald staff. I couldn't really hear what he was shouting exactly, but I heard sth like "I'm not stupid okay? I'd been standing here for 10 minutes already okay, and nobody come and serve me!" So the Macdonald staff explained that the counter was closed, and pointed to the "closed" word on the screen. But the man still insisted that he was right and continued to make a fool out of himself. Then asked the staff for her name, and said that he was going to write a letter to complain and left.

Is he like blind or what, people put closed what.=.= & he also asked why they close the counter. Pls lah, not enough people so close lor.

hahahaa...Jolynn's at my house now doing her nails.. & She keeps on deleting all my text. =.= & this is like the 5th time or so that I'm typing this. RAWRRR. Well, she's staring at me... & she just tried deleting all my text. Luckily I saved at draft. (:"

the above was extracted from my er jie's blog, so that was what i did today =) then we went for a class chalet later on. met ah chia at the interchange, he didn't notice we were around even after 10minutes haha. then guo qiang boarded the same bus as us too.

chalet was ok, abit boring though. had nothing to do so i went upstairs while others were at the pit. chatting with clarence and eh ... i forgot her name =x cheryl ?? i think haha. so i took beer out from the fridge to drink then i suddenly remembered that doctor had said that i can't take exotic tasting food or alcohol with empty stomach due to some probs. so i went down i ate all their chicken wings =p but i helped them fan the pit for 5mins to make it up can !!! so hot la !!! but my stomach hurts like shit now, it was ok just now.

i dirtied my precious jacket, my sore throat got worse thanks to KFC and chicken wing. then after lazing around, er jie received some unhappy news through sms from her mum. won't narrate the details here as it's quite personal la. but i believe it's part of life, so that we humans learn to treasure. so cheer up ya ?? i believe he won't blame you one. :)

i thought of *him* there, abit here and there la. and wished that i could forget him just like that. i always make wishes in pasir ris i don't know why. last time i wished for my ex to not be angry with me anymore, i still know where exactly it was though it's 3 yrs ago. ok, i admit that i vandalised =x but it came true. it was a class chalet, my ex was there. lent his phone and flipped through those photos and calendar memories. after thinking about these people, i asked myself "how many people did i let down in the past ??" -sighs ..

89-ed home. er jie missed her last bus so she walked me home then called her dad to pick her up. reached home, had a nice bath and here i am =)