When People Say Goodbye

it was a mixed up day for me ??? how should i phrase it ??? fruitful ??? not quite ... i would say average la ...

morning i watched my classmate being caned ... i felt that he does not deserve the caning because of such a small matter ... somehow i disapprove of our principal reinstating the caning punishment in school ... it doesn't really work ... and the only effect it has is that, we leave this school with bad memories ...

had 4 periods of maths ... tiring .. andrew yeo say that if i get a2 for a maths during mid-yr ... he will buy me a carton of 100plus lols ... if i dont, i buy him 1 then ... but too bad i dont drink 100plus so i requested for green tea instead ... lols ... then he reassured me that i wont get a2 because he is the setter and he is the marker =.= he will make sure i dont get a2 ... wth ... i say that i could lodge a complaint but he rebutted by saying he will do things nicely so that i would have nth to find fault with ... hiyah i lose lor... but i know he wont do that de la ... maybe he'll just mark my paper more strictly ... good for me anyway, like that i can train for o levels haha ...

english was boring la ... teacher always late ... but somehow i just dont like english lesson ... is like there's nothing to teach but yet they are trying to squeeze syllabus outta it ... they can turn it into reading exchange sessions or something more fun ??? i really wish that miss suan dont always take off ... exams are coming ... our english is suffering, when she on leave, she only gives us composition ... do so many times but never go through... we are just repeating our mistakes and getting more used to it .. she got her salary want lor ... responsibility .. hais ... i do understand the fact that she has exams too, but not at the expense of our future ???

nvm .. after went home ... then went to meet didi ... i was very late =x sorry ... went to jurong point ... eat kfc .. went up to arcade and waited for 2hrs be4 got machine to play =.= then broke a few records ... then dont know what happen got 1 girl want challenge me but i rejected cause i still not up to standard yet .. then they asked a few ques, like what team i from ?? who's the leader ?? so and so still in the team ??? lalala ... then around 7 plus jiu go home le ...

reached home at 9pm ... very tired ... bath, on the com and here i am =) mapling in a min ... lols ... will blog soon .. next few days quite busy ...

xiaolynn feels tired and numb

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4/28/2006 09:15:00 PM

the day was super duper tiring ... maybe i was just feeling lazy ... woke up around 5plus then woke john up also .. then met him at our house downstairs around 6.15am ? talk talk talk non stop until i reached school haha ... that's what we are like ...

as expected, our newswatch wasn't a sucessful one again ... cause we had to attend a live interview of "zao an ni hao" in the canteen ... lame one la ... after that was chinese lessons ... did a few questions of the revision paper then dozed off =.= so tired can ...

after which we had 4 periods of maths !!!!!!!!!! wasn't that tiring la ... in andrew yeo's class cannot sleep wan ... you sleep you die ... lols ...

recess eat together with er jie as usual ... thinking of the canteen, they are renovating it into a cafe in june ... then all the stalls will change vendor ... omg ... i hate that ... i love the school food, very nice what ... nvm ... my last year in school, at most dont eat recess for half a year lor ... shed some kilos also good ... then we comforted en hui cause she was kinda upset la ... i wont say much about this, quite personal ... as i was trying to counsel her abit, i said things which people said to me when i was like her ... those words that had changed my life ... though some of them i still cannot accept but i definitely hope it will enlighten her ... cause her misery isn't worth it over such a person ... as i was talking to her, i recalled some of my memories, felt a little sad too ... but i shall be strong ... at least i still have my friends around ...

chemistry lesson supposed to have caning but he didn't come ... i'm still thinking ... why do they still use that stick ??? it doesn't work on us lor ... we need emotional torture la ... and what's more, it was only a very small case which i feel the teacher was at fault ... by collecting a dollar to photocopy 3 pages of worksheet just because we forgot to bring it =.=

today we have dismissal at 12pm =) thanks to bowen military band for the acheivement of gold with honours at the singapore youth festival central judging of dont know what de ... haha ... went home, bath, on the computer and tap away .. haha ... played maple the whole afternoon .. so tired ...

shall go back to maple ... lols ... i dont want my char to die ... lols ...
take care guys ...

xiaolynn feels so tired and numbed

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4/27/2006 08:29:00 PM

hmm .... today dont know why ... i woke up around 4am ??? then i just lie down there ... suddenly i feel like sleeping ... but i reminded myself not to cause i thought it was 5 plus already ... so went to do preparation for school ... as i was about to go out .. my alarm rang ... it was only 5.30am =.= lols ... something must be wrong with me ...

today had some stupid temperature taking ... then did compositions as miss suan was absent again ... then copied ALOT of homework=x i wasn't in school on monday ... sick what , so missed out alot ... chemistry test was cancelled ... i forgot what we did for chem because .. i only remembered that i fell asleep 5 minutes after deciding that i don't know what mr ng was teaching =/ hohoho .. maths was tiring ... i missed his lesson on monday, so i had no idea what he was talking about, but eventually got something in my head ... not bad ... lols ... hmmm ... as for social studies, as usual , SLEEP ... have been sleeping alot recently, better buck up ... then physics, i tried to do the quiz, but most of us didn't knew what mrs tan was trying to teach for the past 1 and a half years, so did not manage to complete the quiz ...

after school was oral ... haha ... the invigilator was quite nice but after all, she's still from china, which makes me very nervous ... i was register no.1 so finished around 2.45pm ... went home, bath, go john's hse ... did maths and gave up halfway haha ... fiddle with his laptop and decided to complain that i was hungry haha ... pig ... we decided to go kovan for KFC although there was 1 in hougang mall because some people don't like to go hougang mall=x then while waiting for bus, i saw that opp coffeeshop was open, then went there for dinner ... but got nothing to eat so we ended up waiting for bus to kovan again =.= haha this time it's thanks to me ... lols ... sometimes u just can't make a decision on what you are gonna eat ...

kovan was very cold ... me and john shivered while we shopped lol ... then went to the magic stall ... the person praised john for his good basics =) *claps then bought vcds for my mum to watch ... home sweet home =) so here i am now typing away haha ...

off to maple ... will blog soon =)

xiaolynn ish happi

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4/26/2006 08:35:00 PM

hmmmm ... things dint go well recently ... conflicts ... ARGH.. duwan 2 tok abt dat ... but i seriously fell sick ... because of a toopig reason ... i smiled at a baby she smiled bac ... den she turn arnd ... n sneezed at mah face=.= wth ... den i tio lor .. sho mon on mc ... which was nice =)

cooked dinner todae ... was quite ok la ... nth burnt or uncooked ... but i couldn't finish even half of it ... lols ...

many people msged to ask if i'm ok ... thx=) didi, ah gong, wei lun and of cuz kenneth =) he has been pesterin me to tok 2 him on msn ... haha ... he just lightens my day up after all the heated arguements about many many lamers ... rofl ...

now i realize how stupid i am ... i shouldn't have loved him ... he isn't serious ... he treat me so good, then once he got me, he never treasure me ... ok la ... he treat me quite ok ... but towards the last week, it was hell can ... now we break like less than 1 week, he got another target ... how flirt ... since u like to give your heart to so many girls ... just don't regret when 1 of them take it and smash it just like what u did to me ... i left you with my head up high, cause i don't owe u anything, neither $$$ or lurve .. i didn't do stupid thing because of you, i did it because i blamed myself for loving sum1 like you ...

i have decided to try my best to live my life well w/o the memories he gave me ... i'll take it as a lesson learnt ... from now onwards, i'll love people who loves me, not those who don't ...

if you have noticed, i'm trying to use less or singlish ... haha ... it is to make myself more understandable ... it's hard ... many letters to type ... lols ... but this doesn't apply to msn or sms ... haha ... i cant be using nice english everytime ... =)

xiaolynn is happi=)

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4/25/2006 12:21:00 AM

hohoho ... how shall i start ??? hmm ... i lyk 2 congratulate(ohoh ... 4 get how 2 spells=.=) mah didi fer gettin 22nd fer cross country ... i noe u can get 6th but u got stitches mahx ... take care of urself ya ... regardin todae's thing , i wil help u settle wan ... dun worri ...

hmmm ... recenlty mah "half-special" one has stood by mui thru mah darkest tymx ... of cuz includin mah special ones lyk mah ah gong mah didi ah poh n frens ... =) thx ... i'm stil heartbroken but i fil muach better lerx ... xie xie ...

ytd i made ah poh's cousin, dunno wad his name, angri by pullin his tail ... lols .. sho sry ... hehes =x

todae jus isn't a happi dae la ... manni things happen, jus hope dat i wun seperate our team lorx ... heard alot of backstabbin in front of mui abt mah frens ... den i realize how heartless can ppl b 2wards their fren ... psycho dem n use dem as scapegoats ... kaox ...

den todae went bugis arnd evenin ... he came down =.= sho i tried 2 b happi in case he tinks dat i'm stil broodin over him ... den i found out dat guan actualli quite a nice person, nort wad ppl describe him as ... lols ... i tried 2 steal his shoppin bags from him .. lols ... he did LOADS of shoppin can ... rich sia ...

hais ... fallin sick agn ... mayb i hav 2 take mah daily dose of dried leaves agn ...

wil blog soon ... cya guys ...

xiaolynn ish stuck in da middle

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4/23/2006 01:57:00 AM

hmmm ... todae went quite ok ... except dat .. i found out da teacher invigilatin mui fer chi oral ish a teacher whu came from china =.= die la ... i cant speak proper chinese u noe ... hahas ...

hiya ... nvm ... lols ... todae da assembly eat in2 our news watch tym agn =( how irritatin ... lols ... we sho wanted 2 watch abt teen sex den everitym da sch wil cal us up fer sudden assembly on thursdaex =.= chinese was ok ... but 4 periods of maths lesson was hell la ... hahas ... sumhow i cant concentrate on maths be4 recess wan ... dunno y hahas ..

durin recess i ate chicken chop but couldn't finish it ... recently appetite's bad la ... alwaex fil lyk vomitin wen i eat ... perhaps i got ... wad dey call dat ... aneroxia ??? wadeva ... dunno wad dat la ... hahas ... aft recess ... half da class decided 2 b late fer chemistry sho dat we can skip test cuz we got health checkup at a ltr part of chem ... hahas ... den 20 ppl was barred from da classroom ... n i was da last 1 allowed in =.= how lucky ... lols ..

sho durin health checkup ... i was one of da earlier ones 2 finish cuz i m resgister no. 1 hahas ..
lucky mah back bone ish healthy ... den no nid strip n zhao geng fer da nurse 2 molest ... lols ... i'm tokin rubbish ... den one of da ppl i dun lyk talked sho sacarstically in front of mui ... wadever la ... mah eng no gd asho none of her business ... i lyk singlish sho wad ... it's mah style wad ... bleahs ... dun lyk dun listen wad i sae ... dun read wad i write lor ... bleahs ... pui ar ... aiya ... dun sae le la ... mah blog alreadi neg enuff ... dun let tis type ppl spoil it even further ...

aft sch ... mah dearest mum brought mui 2 sakae sushi =) yum yum ... i lurve jap food ... wen 2 hougang mall arnd 5 plus aft finish eatin ... plae initial d ... agn i wasn't dat happi things dat happen agn but it's ok la ... small thing nia ... den went home arnd 8 plus ??? bath liao den on da com n blog lor =p hahas ...

den sumbodi on msn ish pesterin mui 2 tok 2 him cuz he's bored ... lols ... he has been msgin mui half da dae la .. lols ... tokin rubbish 2 mui ... tel mui 2 faster go home if nort spirits chase mui =.= wan mui go online sae la ... lols ...

todae i nv tink of him lehx .. hahas ... mayb i startin 2 ferget n recover le bahx =) dats fast ... hahas ... gd news fer mui ... aniwae ... he dun deserve mah lurve asho ... hahas .. since he dun lurve mui ... shan't make mahself unhappi cuz of him ... ah gong, wo xiang tong le =) aniwae ... asho thx 2 kenneth whu has been tellin mui dat if i pei him tok rite , i wil ferget everithin n i wun b unhappi hahas ... it kinda worked la ... hahas ... thx=) but i wil b reali unhappi wen mah bill arrives ... lols .. burn a hole in mah pocket agn ... lols ..

aniwae ... here i apologise 2 er jie ... cuz i disturb her alot ... lols ... i'm born 2 b disturbin ... but i wil try nort 2 disturb u le kkz ... dui bu qi ...

haiyah .. shan't blog le ... kenneth pesterin mui agn =.= hahas ... ltr he lame agn i die ... bye everi 1 =)

xiaolynn fils better now =) thx guys ...

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4/20/2006 08:44:00 PM

todae isn't mah dae la ... sch was ok ... den aft sch went 2 find ah poh dey all ... den realize actualli dey r beri nice ppl ... suddenli treat mui sho nice hahas ... tym passes wif dem la .. den aft ah gong n en ting came down tpy asho ... wen i c ET ... sumhow i start 2 tink of him ... den jiu sad agn ... sho remain kinda quiet la ... den did a bit of light trainin of initial d ... jiu go home le ...

preparin fer match on sat .... recentli alot match ... dunno y ... probably cuz we new team bahx ... haiyah ...

i'll ferget him sum dae ... but i nid tym ... i mae go bac 2 mah old self ... but doesn't mean i recover ... i'm jus puttin a strong front ... sho ... ppl whu ain't dat clear abt da situation can stop askin abt it ??? thx ..

xiaolynn ish kinda sad ...

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4/19/2006 10:21:00 PM

afta mani miseries todae ... shall blog sumthin less negative hahas ...

todae's assembly was kinda lame la ... got alot prize presentation thingy ... tink was 2 show off 2 da "ah nehs" (oops) whu came 2 our sch fer exchange .. wahaha ... i'll cry if i were dem ... da gals hav 2 tie 2 plaits wif yellow ribbons at de end ??? i tink sho ... omg ... i dun even tie plaits now ... lols ...

den eng lesson ... as expected ... ms suan dint come ... den dat teacher whose pants r droopin sho low came 2 relieve us .. i tot dey dun allow teachers 2 wear liddat wan ??? hiya ... dun care her la ... den chinese lesson was ok la ... everi 1 was rather tired except mui ... dunno y suddenli got da urge 2 ask da teacher da meanin of alot of alien words ... chinese ish alien 2 mui ... hahas ... but i'm a gd student todae afterall =)

sho after recess was geog ... todae's geog was rather boring ... bay bay ran outta ideas bahx ... hahas .. did alot of copyin ... hands darn pain ...

n da lesson we dread most came ... MATHS ... i dun hate maths la .. i jus hate da teacher , da homework etc ... da teacher sumtymx ok sumtymx no ... hahas ... but at least he got our future at heart ... i tink wen we get o lvl results , we reali hav 2 thank him alot fer all da drillings he gav us ... lols ...

den ... here comes mah most detested subject ... F&N ... i hate everithin abt it ... coursework( haven even do 2 pages outta 40), lessons , teacher wadeva ... coursework hav 2 hand up by june lor ... how 2 finish ... i jus completed da 3rd page onli .. da ques was given 2 us lyk on 18th feb or wad ??? lols .. if da teacher ish ur fren ok la ... but if she nags at u abt coursework u wil die ... but todae she left at 2.30pm fer band practice ... sho we were left alone ... but we nort allowed 2 go home until 3.30pm =.= but i was reali a gd ger kkz ... i did 2 essay ques =) which i tink none of mah classmates wil do ... hahas ... den towards de end of lessons ... we played da secret code thingy n black magic ... lols .. sum ppl dunno how 2 plae mahx ... den c their blur blur face sho funni ... hahas ... i asho got fooled durin black magic la hahas ... da lame thing renuka did wif wee nee was sho funni hahas ... shake hands lols ...

aft dat went home lor ... as usual ... bath liao go mall find mah didi n his fren ... train initial d ... had alot of challengers ... den mah 100% dropped =.= wadeva ... but dat "dotg " better watch out ... bulli mui ... wil get bac at him aft mah intensive trainin ... gonna beat him flat flat ... lols ...

hiya ... i tink dats alot fer todae la ... nort fergettin mah neg things ... cuz recently things r reali neg fer mui ... n ish dat ... i fil farked up n shag !!!!!!!!! but i'll recover n stand up soon ... i'll try mah beri best ...

to frens arnd mui:
thx fer helpin mui on da wae of recovery =) lurve ya all lots lots ... but i got 1 small request ... can dun ask mui wad happen le mahx ??? cuz i duwan 2 tink of him le ... living well ish da best getback =)

xiaolynn bu kuai ler

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4/18/2006 11:15:00 PM

hais ... 2nd dae w/o him ... miserable ??? i dunno ... living well ish da best revenge ... wadeva la ... i fil quite relieve nort havin 2 one-side lurve animore ... one-side lurve cant b darn painful now i realize ... but i fil weird n empty ...

i noe i'm onli wif him fer less den 2 weeks, but it seems lyk 2 months or sumthin ??? hiyah ... i alreadi said we'll b frens ... n i added:" alwaex n 4eva .." although i duwan 2 but i fil dat tis ish da onli wae 2 end tis endless torture ... wen i hang on he pulls awae ... wen i pull awae , he onli half hanged on ... dat shows da diff btw our lurve ...

mah fren said dat if he lurves u he wil tel u dat he dun jus wanna b frens ... he told mui 2 test him but i tot it wasn't reali gd thing 2 do ... but now i nv test him, it reali happened n it all jus reflect 2 mui dat he doesn't lurve mui at all ... wad a disappointment ... take it as i zhi zuo duo qing lor ... now i fil dat i'm da most toopig n moronic creature in da WHOLE WIDE DAMN WORLD ... i reali miss mah clown ='( but i shan't animore cuz i promised dat i wun lurve him ... i knew he dun lurve mui i stil go lurve him ... how toopig rite ... i'm jus going crazi nowdays ...

i guess it wil b beri long or mayb i wil nort get 2 c him agn bahx ... he's busi i guess ... mayb it's asho gd larx ... liddat i can forget him easier as tym passes ... jus got dat feelin dat he stil lyk her ... hais ... if he stil lyk her den gd fer mui asho lor ... dat means dose 2 wks i'm a fool la ... aiya ... wad m i sayin ... shouldn't sae dose things abt him ...

luckily ah gong's alwaex by mah side ... thx 2 him i fil muach better ... i dun hav muach close frens la, but wen i hav, i treasure dem ... mayb shld jus go train initial d ... den mayb lyk last tym liddat ... outta anger den break national record ... lols ... wtf ... fil sho retarded ... hiya ... i'm jus nort mahself ...

peeps ... wen u c anithin on mui or anithin diff in mui ... dun ask mui wad happen kkz .. cuz everitym u guys ask .. it jus reminds mui of him ...

msg fer da dae:
darling ... u gav mui a stab in mah heart n left w/o memories .. now i'm standin up agn ... w/o da ugli past nor memories ...
it saddenin wen ppl u noe become ppl u knew ... HAIS...

xiaolynn bu kuai ler ...

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4/18/2006 08:37:00 PM

cant get 2 slp now ... sho decide 2 blog ...

had quite an talk wif him jus now .. he stil gimme da feelin "i'm-jus-sayin-fer-da-sake-of-sayin,u-wan-anot-it-doesn't-matter" hiyah ... dunno how 2 describe la ...

in mah heart, i noe i lurve him ... but i stil fil dat he's nort sure abt his lurve ... he said he lurve mui cuz i scolded him fer nort being sure of his lurve ??? i asho dunno la ... i duwan 2 accuse him of anithin else le la ...

msg 2 him:
i reali lurve u ... if u lurve mui, pls prove it 2 mui .. i nid it ... i duwan 2 lose u , i reali duwan 2 ... but i nid u 2 prove it 2 mui ... wo ai ni .. ='(

i kinda feelin quite depressed ... can type n cry at da same tym =.= no pen knife or wadeva at home, or nort i'll b dead by now ... actualli i nort kiasi la, jus dint wan him 2 worri or wad ... i cant kill mahself now but i wanna kill mahself .. n i'll do it sumdae ... lalalalalalalalala ... wadeva la ...

wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni wo ai ni !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xiaolynn hen ai ni
01.32a.m

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4/17/2006 01:27:00 AM

perhaps everithin's comin 2 an end ... mayb nort ... i dunno ... it's rainin heavily inside, n it has nv stop hurtin ...

DA 1 I LURVE DUN LURVE MUI, DA ONES I DUN LURVE DOESN'T LURVE MUI TOO ...
i'm unloved ... sho dun tel mui u lurve mui unless u reali do ...

i'm sho farkin heartbroken la ...

duwan blog le ... it's killin mui ...

wil update soon ... i hope ...

take care guys ...

xiaolynn's crazi

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4/16/2006 09:38:00 PM

tis few daex passed reali painfully ... mah dear doesn't wan mui 2 go down all da wae 2 tpy 2 find him cuz he duwan mui 2 b too tired or wad ... den he asho dunno tio wad case ... shld b small wan la ... sho ytd, da 12th april , dere were gd news ... mah hubby has found himself a job wif en ting ... was kinda happi la ...

i tot he's gonna start work lyk on mondae ??? sho jus now( it's alreadi 13th april, story ish being fast forward) he msged mui ... 2 sae dat he cant mit mui tml n sat asho ... cuz he gonna start workin ... hais ... i waited fer da whole week jus 2 c him once ... but it was a shattered dream of mine ... i fil da gap btw us ... i fil dat he's keepin things from mui ... we ain't honest 2 each other ... everithin jus wasn't rite ... ish he avoidin mui ? i sign in msn he sign out ... hais ... it jus totally hurts la ... but wad can i do ???

i cried mani mani tymx ... but i'll stil hold on ... til da last bit dat i can ... n wen i let go ... everithin wil jus slowli vanish from mah side ... everithin dat used 2 b mine wil nv b , animore ... i fil lyk i'm gonna break down ... i'm jus missin him sho muach ... does he noe how muach it hurts ??? hais ...

jus now wen i received da news ... i cancelled mah appointment wif mah fren ... n wanted 2 go find him ... fer sum reason he said no agn ... dun he noe how muach i wanna c him ??? or was he jus tryin 2 hide from mui ?? has anithin changed ??? y cant we jus b lyk other couples ... sho happi ... i noe it's jus da outer side ... but we dun even hav da outer side dat looks happi ... neither r we inside, i believe ...

msg 2 u: if u r reali unhappi, pls tel mui ... i'll reali let u go .. dun try avoid mui, u noe it hurts ... dun try tuh hurt mui cuz u noe i'll cry ... lurve mui if u reali do, if u dun, den leave mui ... i'll jus stand up on mah own ... i promise ...

^ never endin pain ..

xiaolynn's gonna cry

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4/13/2006 03:09:00 PM

another typical fri ... got an "a" fer sit n reach .... but instead failed standin broad jump ... as u all noe ... pigs cant jump ... esp fat pig lyk meeeeeeeeeeeee ...

todae dint go wel ... i kept wantin 2 vomit ... wads wrong wif mui ??? ( I M DEFINITELY NORT PREGNANT !!!!!!!!! )

tis few wks wen sch reopens ... dere hav been tis madness among teachers 2 go up on stg 2 nag abt things a mil tymx ... probably becoz angela loh started it ... eat in2 our readin n news watch tym ... tis wk's topic ish abt teen sex n everibodi was sho wantin 2 watch it ... n dere goes teachers naggin n naggin ...

tis tues's assembly was even worse can ... taught us how 2 sing national anthem n sae pledge ... wth ... although everi mornin we dun sing but dey asho dun hav 2 do tis rite ... we r tired lor ... i tot jus stand at attention jiu ok liao .. sho ... 2 pls da teachers, we sang loud la ... den guess wad ... dey expect us 2 maintain da vol everi mornin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! den todae sec 4 sang ... but jus becoz we were rite behind ... farid sae he cant hear us ... of cuz la ... =.=

hiya ... hatin sch more n more .. sho mani bitches, act chio n act lian ppl ... i admit i'm bitchy but at least i dun wear short skirts nor put makeup 2 sch ??? i dun hav dose purposeli fallin fringes on mah face ... everi tym i go toilet .. it's alwaex crowded ... nort da cubicles but da sink area ... aft i come out of da cubicle, da same ppl wil stil b dere combin their hair ... dun dey noe too muach combin of hair can spoil da quality of it ...

one more thing dat i hate todae ish da meet-the-parents session dat i'm going ltr ... i was supposed to mit "clownie =) " but got tis toopig thing ... hais ... dunnno wad dat bias teacher gonna sae abt mui agn ... nvm ... i bring mah mum c mr bay instead of her ... lols ...

it's 4.26pm alreadi ... going 2 prepare 2 go bac 2 sch agn =.= blog agn sumtym ltr ...

xiaolynn ish beri moody

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4/07/2006 04:17:00 PM

agn ... i'm bac 2 da blog ... which finalli hav visitors =)

thx si jie, er jie n de soul ... although de soul was tryin 2 ask mui 2 shaddap ... i noe i'm irritatin but i reali duanch giv a damn =) sry fer da harsh remarks but da word " zip it " isn't necessary cuz mah ques r nort pointless ... cuz da teacher gets da point =) n of cuz i m sacarstic but if u wanna hate mui i dun stop u =p

mah blog doesn't improve ur eng lyk wad other blogs do ... cuz it's jus full of cheenaism ... i'm a cheena but i accept it .. lols ... i'm kinda outta mah mind ...

recentli tym seems 2 pass beri fast ... no tym fer anithin ... hiyah ... i'm startin 2 hate da form teacher more n more ... i bet she dint reali write gd remarks in da report lor ... or she was jus pityin mui by adding abit ... can c dat she doesn't reali lyk tis class ... but wadeva ... she's alwaex on leave ... liddat asho gd ... i changed mah mind ... i rather do compo than c her "wadeva" ...

surprisingly ... i'm startin 2 understand n lyk maths more n more ... however, i dread physics n language lessons ... i jus lurve singlish ... lols .. fil comfortable speakin it n typin it lols ... but if singlish becomes a subject den it wouldn't b da saem animore ... cuz dere wil b oral ... den everibodi hear singlish asho stress lols ... hiya ... i'm jus crappin la ... fer those whu noe mui ... dey wil realize i alwaex get tis type of weird tots dat can nv happen outta nowhere ... hahas ... i'm lame n i admit it ... hehes ...

nvm ... enuff of tantrums ... hiya mood swings mahx ...

o4o4o6 ...

mah life starts a new ... recentli frenz arnd mui hav switched ... tis tym round ... i met ppl whu wil believe mui n accept mui fer whu i m ... dats great ... we hav a racing team call " team emperor " ... i'm da onli ger inside sho i'm da emperess ... =p

of cuz nort fergettin mah dear boi ... on tis beri special dae ... our hearts beat as 1 ... from now onwards, we wil b carvin a future of ours by our own hands ... u asked mui:"dun leave mui ok ?" i beri muach lyk 2 sae yes ... but i dun lyk 2 make empty promises ... if 1 dae i confirm i can do it, i'll promise u =) lurve ya clownie =x

xiaolynn gives a big smile fer euuuuuu = )

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4/05/2006 10:45:00 PM

i hav chose 2 split da roads of ours ... and now i'm walking alone ... i reali lurve him but dere jus a beri strong feelin dat tels mui he's nort da 1 ... hais ... recently do everithin asho wu jing da cai wan ... dunno y ... kip lao sai ( =x ) since de end of march hols ... mah bodi where got sho muach things 2 lao ... nvm ... it's a wae of slimming down ... as long as it doesn't hurt ... hehes ...

nowdays i hav da feelin of spendin $$$ ... now in mah acc i onli hav $20.44 - $18.85 ... which ish $1.59 ... lols ... nvm ... gettin $$$$ tmr aniwae ... mah form teacher ms suan said sumthin dat describes mui beri well ... i'm da type whu ish da worryer ... i worri n panick ... scream n shout but nv do anithin ... lols ... o lvls approaching ... i fil da stress but i stil slackin ... lols ... jus dun hav da form fer studyin ... sumhow CE daex interrupts da environment fer studyin ... aft CE daex, it's diff fer us 2 get bac on track ... mayb dey shld cancel all those CIP n wad value ed lessons ... dey repeat all over agn ... n wad we r supposed 2 learnt cannot reali b obtained dere, sho wads da use ... mayb teachers demself set sum better examples mayb we can learn better dat wae ... cuz dat 2 darn char dev teachers in our sch have da worse attitude among all ... shldn't dey b more civilised ????

char ed lessons r contradictin ... dey educate us nort 2 b spendthrift on shopping blah blah blah ... den on thursdae we went 2 fine dining course at shatec ... sho dey expect us 2 dress formally ... sho shopping agn ... den dey teach us how 2 eat dinners dat costs abt 100plus per person??? i tot we shld b contented wif wad we hav ??? dey teach us how 2 behave n tok ... how 2 b fake ppl =.= yucks ... i dun lyk dat type of socialising ... hiya ... teachers r MOSTLY nort all .. artificial ppl ... in front of da principal, dey act as if dey cares abt da sch's reputation more than da student even wen da student ish mistreated by outsiders ... gd sch PROTECTS their students kkz ... den behind da principal's backs dey come n pretend 2 b nice 2 u ... yucks ... hypocrite ... dey pretend 2 b sho disappointed even though dey cant b bothered at all ... wad rite do dey hav 2 b disappointed wen we did nth wrong ??? hiya ... tis type of teacher r out 2 giv us hell ...

nvm ... enuff of rantin ... wen i officially graduate sec sch on da last dae of o lvls, dats da last i wil c of u ... wen i take mah results ... i promise nort 2 look at ur fugli face ... n one last thing ... stop fiddling wif ur hair 24/7 ... it isn't nice n it doesn't make u look cute either ... dun sho action la ... nobodi appreciates it ...

xiaolynn ish darn angri

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4/01/2006 12:16:00 AM