When People Say Goodbye

today was a fine day ... so was yesterday ...

yeah right ...

still couldn't quite believe it's the 30th already ...

shan't say anymore ...

really don't have the mood to blog ...

sorry guys ...

sobs ...

jason ... happy 1st month anniversary

xiaolynn's hiding

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5/30/2006 09:20:00 PM

you probably still don't get what i mean ... or rather .. you don't understand me .. but never mind .. i shall just leave it the way it is ... hais ='(

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5/27/2006 12:06:00 PM

FINE ... i'm darn fed up today ... people who follow you for so long you don't trust ... others you just know, they say you trust 100% .. and don't even allow me to say anything at all ... fine .. don't want hear right ... i shut up ..

i wasn't even trying to make any bad comments .. trying to warn you of the bad side that may happen only, you also don't want hear .. don't hear lor .. everything has its good and bad side, since you only face the good side then just watch what will happen lor ... this is of course the bad side of me you will see when you try to distrust me ... fine .. what i say is rubbish, and you'll never get a word in your head anyway ... if you don't like what i say, you could have told me or just let me rant w/o listening ... but you seriously don't need to lie through your teeth to defend them ... or maybe you were lying to yourself ??? i don't know ... i'm stating the facts and you try to deny them .. everything is present in front of your eyes but you refuse to believe it ... probably you've been brainwashed or what i don't know ... but all i have to say is, face up to reality .. not everything is so nice and easy as you think .. there's no easy lunch in this fucking world ... when people need you, they'll only let you learn their good side ... but have you found out the bad side or least the neutral side ??? that's my question to you ... don't get blinded by rewards even before you start working for them ...

companies now just don't know what they call "zhi ye dao de" in chinese .. FARK THEM .. so eager to prove that they are innocent ... just reveals their hilarious intentions .. he may believe them but they never thought that people around him watching are more aware of their motives rather than they themselves ...

i'm feeling so angry now ... how ??? he rather trust the words of a person who he has met for barely 2 weeks rather than someone he has know over the years ... i know i'm not very close to him and i don't understand him .. but what about the person who only knows him for 2 weeks ???

one word:" blinded " that explains it ... i don't have the power to knock some sense into him cause i'm not the one he will listen to ... people he listens to do not give him the right comments ... am i going to see him go on like that ?? what can i do when he decided that he don't wanna listen to me ??? i doing so much for what??? when people don't even bother to listen 1st before rejecting any comments ??? FARK ME, I'M STUPID, FOOLISH, MORONIC AND DUMB !!!!!

better stay outta my way now ..
xiaolynn

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5/26/2006 11:22:00 PM

hur hur ... today am in a happy mood so a little outta my mind la ...

finally i woke up on time for school =) *cheers recently always overslept don't know why ... i used to wake up at 5.30am anyway haha ... so i went to school feeling quite tired of course ... drank my daily dose of coffee and went for assembly ... msged baby, sq and judas ... then sq and judas told me some info on initial d and i was wondering ... leon is trying to cheat me ??? if he is just for the sake of his team members winning then i'll be so darn disappointed ... i knew him sometime ago and had seen him as an honest and nice guy ... hope my judgement don't fail me =p

this week is language intensive lessons ... so had to do mock papers again =.= then sq didn't want to disturb me ... but i hoped he did so that he can keep me awake during the paper haha ... i dread chinese paper 2 .. though it's easy, you have to read and copy so much until you get really drowsy .. and my eyes can't concentrate for too long, it will get blur so i decided to tell my very kind chinese teacher to let me go canteen buy food =)

eng intensive was ok but it was near dismissal time and i was looking forward to hear the bell haha ... you know why ??? baby is coming to fetch me from school =) 1st time he do that and i'm ERY HAPPY =) haha

he waited for me when i bathed then went to hougang mall to eat ... bought a new wallet cause mine was spoilt .. then headed to baby's house and "slack" then slept .. hubby was intending to leave me in his house to sleep !!!! bleahs ... but in the end he still woke me up =)

then he had to go office =( cause his boss asked him to ... then i went to hougang mall to play abit and there was this bunch of kids so noisy can ... can't even hear the machine %^*&(*()&%*%$ then met my mama at kovan for dinner and go the travel agency to look for nice holidays =) yay ... which means shopping again !!!! hohoho ...

did i say shopping again ??? haha ... i just remembered .. after we finish our enquiry about the tours, i pretended to sway my way into a boutique shop and started the SHOP again haha ... bought 3 skirt but couldn't find any suitable tops =( maybe go hougang mall find lor .. i went to scout for clothes just recently lols .. SHOPPING SHOPPING =)

now i'm back to home ... typing away ... talking to baby on the phone, with a crammed neck cause "kiap" the phone to long haha ... SQ and kaiqi in msn waiting for me to go back haha .. cause i told them i'll brb half an hour ago =x

bye =))))) weeeee!!!!!!!!!

xiaolynn is feeling happy

don't let things be too physical or true emotions will fade away ..

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5/24/2006 09:51:00 PM

haven't blog for a few days ... cause was busy with a few things ...

1. accompany my baby =)
2. initial d matches
3. exams
4. sleeping (seriously lack of it)

hmmm let me see ... how shall i start ...

2oo5o6
it's a saturday so as usual ... initial d day ... many matches today ... atrium was very very crowded ... the 5 vs 5 match was probably the biggest match in the whole of singapore ... where top players compete with their skills ... i reached atrium around 1 plus .. had gastric because my dearest brother didn't want to accompany me to buy food =x SQ msged me when he was just beside me can lol ... no la ... we were too shy to even say hi haha ... the match wasn't that exciting as i expected it to be but it was quite ok ... at least the proudest people learnt their lesson .. they were defeated by SQ and friends .. then emperor lost a match and drawed one ... good start for us =) 23o5o6 which is today is our 2nd month together as a team .. much has happened but no matter what, we are still a team =) after that me and jason, my brother went to KFC to eat ... i wanted to draw $$$ from the ATM machine ... the queue was darn long ... in the end ... none out of the 3 machines could dispense $10 bills ... waste of my time =.= we are short of 20 cents to buy the buddy meal ... how pathetic .. that was when my baby appeared and saved us .. haha ... he's always there when i need him =) love you loads ...
after which it was 7 plus, and hubby accompanied me to my uncle house ... he was in some kind of danger, and i was so freaking worried can .. but it should be ok now ... phew ... went home about 11plus ... and was very tired so fell asleep straight away ....

21o5
i personally don't enjoy sundays as much as saturdays as there'll be school the next day ... the thought of it ruins my mood totally ... today i went to the temple to pray ... ate sakae sushi ... yum yum =p hubby called many times ... he keep changing his mind about going to the office haha .. so i can't plan anything in case he wouldn't be free so i went to hougang mall to play initial d haha .. halfway playing, hubby and guo hao came ... was so happy to see baby haha ... after a few challenges, we went to eat ... had no appetite .. leyi and her sister joined us abit later then we went to plaza to play pool ... and then go home afterwards ... *yawns very tired ...

22o5
MONDAY... the day i dread most ... was late for school ... reached school at 7.59am and was given 2 hrs DC wth =.= after 8am then 2 hrs lor ... it was the councillor talking to teacher then late by another minutes can ... actually i could have reached at like 7.30am but i decided not to go so early if not have to stand there for like 1/2 an hr ...so might as well go later ... the whole day was very slack ... teachers came to give out papers, then i spent the whole day reading, chatting and sleeping only ... after school do DC la =.=

my results sucked .. only got back some papers and i'm already confident that i'll fail mid-yr ..

--> e-math paper 1 - 41/80
paper 2 - 75/100
--> a-math paper 1 - 35/80
paper 2 - 26/80
--> social studies - 18/50
--> geography - 22 1/2 / 50
--> food and nutrition - 32 1/2 / 100
--> chemistry paper 1 - 44/65

how wonderful can life be .. bleahs ...

23o5
which is today ... school is even more boring today ... watched i not stupid too halfway then teacher told the graduating class to go for their block revision =.= whole had nothing but shit ... did the chinese paper halfway and then decide to give up cause i really wanted to sleep can ... only slept for 2 hours as i was rushing something for him ... then slept untill recess was over and went to the PA lab for english ... english was alrights but it was combined class and you will see many people you don't like ... after school, went to buy prata cause i was suddenly craving for it * pig
went to hougang mall to get materials needed for baby's present ... reached home ... ate prata and now i'm of course typing away here .. gonna catch some sleep later as hubby isn't free today ... shall miss him so much ...

xiaolynn is too tired

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5/23/2006 03:22:00 PM

today was fun=) woke up around 11plus ... bath packed my things and met baby=) eat and eat and eat ... then went to play initial d ... hubby lost =x oops haha ... then i was off to sentosa ...

at sentosa ...

we couldn't get the volley ball game started so went to play water ...then we took tram all around the island barefooted haha ... saw a disgusting couple petting over there ... whatever haha ... but what's most disgusting is that ... we went down the stairs and saw a used kotex lying on the floor =.= yucks .. * bleahs pui !!!!!!!

si jie and bell left early ... so we continued playing for very long la .. took loads of pictures ... then everybody kept "zhao-genging" =x and the most irritating thing we experienced is that ... 2 f***ing bangalas was like taking photos of us with their phones and they were smiling so cheekily can !!!! hope they fall into the sea and drown ar ... the life guard kept watching us .. i think he scared we don't know how to swim haha ... then there was also this couple kissing in the middle of the sea haha ... like watching RA movie like that ..

so about 6 plus my dearest baby came all the way to sentosa to fetch me ... he came with jason chua and justin .. and they waited very long for us haha ... sorry =x as usual ... jason chua got a few beatings from me =x

after a long bath ... we went habour front to makan ... when we sit the shuttle bus all of us wanted to vomit .. maybe pressure difference on land and sea ba ... then keslyn and jessica's face were like very red haha ...but the food at habour front sucks la ... ate a few mouths and vomitted .. i don't know why, once i eat something i don't like i will vomit haha ..

it was quite late .. so we decide to take cab .. wait so long can !!! by the time we got on cab, we can reach home if we took mrt in the 1st place=.= sent justin back 1st .. but baby paid for the cab fare='( he don't allow me to pay ...

hiya .. fast forward abit i very tired .. haha ... so i'm typing here now .. half-awake ..
that's all =) zzzzzzzzzzzzz

xiaolynn very tired ar !!!!

' SHATTERED <3>
5/19/2006 11:17:00 PM

today was a bad bad day for me ... firstly is because of a-math la ... when i finally recalled what mr yeo taught ages ago, that "kok tau" announced:" time's up, put down your pens. " =.= nevermind ... even if i pass this paper, paper 1 will pull me down also ...

2. i was late .. so baby had to wait for me so long >.< sorry

3. this is personal... just that i don't see why people never know how to treasure they person they say they "love" ... sometimes i wonder ... do they really know what's love ??? by letting desires get the hell out of you, you hurt the person you said you "love" .. so it's worth it ... now i know ...

if i ever meet a person who will protect me before his interests, he's definitely someone i want by my side for all my life ... cause he'll never hurt me ... having self-control is the best thing you ever need to have on earth ...

him: don't ever tell me sorry cause this word means nuts to me ... sorries are useless when mistakes repeat all over again .. not even a drop of effort was made to control the situation... what's the point of saying sorry when the whole thing is already messed up even though it can be prevented ... i apologize to tell you that time is not what i have ... if you treasure me, don't hesitate to show me, cause i don't have time to stop by each and every one to see if he cares ... by the time, my life would have passed on ... i am rushing through my life, i can't afford to wait any longer, i'm tired of my current life ..

last thing is that .. if you haven't notice ... i'm stubborn, unreasonable, childish, tempremental, whatever ... don't bother to reason anything, it won't do you any good, i'll just feel worse ... when you have decided what you want to do, bear the consequences .. no point saying you regret .. cause you should have prepared yourself for what's coming next before you even decide what to do ... if it's because of rash decisions that you hurt me, then i'm definitely sure and want to tell you that, you don't treasure me at all ... and what you have for me is definitely not love ...

enough of ranting ... i feel like dying now ... but i can't find someone to kill me ... FARK

xiaolynn is a dangerous person to approach now, try not to disturb her at this moment ...

*biting and killing

' SHATTERED <3>
5/18/2006 10:39:00 PM

today's really tiring ... e-math paper 2 wasn't too bad ... still "passable" ... but physics was just a pile of smelly shit ... cant do even 3 ques =.= today's recess only have 10mins ... i was like what the hell !!! 10mins eat what sai ... but it's still ok cause i wasn't that hungry ...

today i did not meet baby ='( so after school i went to toa payoh to find ah poh they all ... slacked, talked, laughed, went bonkers and went home of course .. went to hougang mall 1st then had a few challengers ... and walked home by myself =(

that's all for today .. really a bad day ='(

hubby... i miss you lots ... muacks ...

* let the spirit run free, for what isn't meant to be, it'll never be ...
(that's true) =)

xiaolynn's a little upset

' SHATTERED <3>
5/17/2006 09:41:00 PM

today had f&n and e-math paper 1 ... as usual .. f&n is a sure fail case but e-math was alrights la .. dont expect an "A" but pass jiu can liao la .. after f&n paper, d&t and art students were still taking their exams so we had 1 and 1/2 hours of recess ... nothing to do can .. didn't bring wallet to school cannot eat much also ... luckily "lao ni" lent me $$$ * thanks =) miss suan didn't allow us to stay in class so we had nowhere to go and we ended up at the staircase =.= i promised her i wont disturb other people as i wanted to sleep in class but she dont let .. *bleahs i think she accidentally scolded me dumb or what .. was quite angry but now i think of it, i also cant be bothered =p

today after school i went home then cook for hubby ... in the end, the eggs became scrambled egg instead of omelette ... haha but still taste ok la ... then lao gong finished it all=) wee weet =p
went to baby's school to find him then went back home ... played with the baby at his house then go inside orh orh hehe ...

then something abit bad happened but i guess it's done intentionally so it's ok ... i should trust my baby =) but why am i starting to develop doubts on many things ??? so bad of me =x i dont really know what to blog today, quite lost for words ... maybe i have not recovered yet ba ... but i'm quite sure about my love for him ... =)

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5/16/2006 10:42:00 PM

today i'm freakingly SUEY can .... today "wen shen" following me nehx ... reached school, almost fell down just like siew *** .. but just that i have less butter under my feet .. =p today school was VERY BORING can .. because that stupid SQ say will message me but till now i haven't received one damn sms from him $%$&&*^%

during oral that very nice teacher told us something that totally put us off can .. fine la ... if she thinks that she's so responsible then we can't say anything, can we??? but the worst thing was that, she even blame us for her own foolish mistakes can ... whatever la ..€

after school was even worse ... bath liao and got into the rain =.= i was so damn cold and the 2 buses refuse to come until half an hour later ... so i end up waiting for a hour for buses ... then halfway baby told me not to go woodlands le ... so i went seng kang to wait for him lor ... then the stupid uncle tricked me can .. he told me the wrong bus stop to drop ... i walked in the rain and my feet got all soaked up and m broken nail got wound so was swollen .. curse him 3 generation all die ar!!!!! bleahs...

aiya very angry now la ... baby's mum cooked for me so now go eat le ... will blog soon ..

xiaolynn is a tigeress =)

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5/15/2006 05:07:00 PM

didn't blog for the past few days cause was kinda busy not with studies of course haha ...

i think i shall stop taking photos for a few months thanks to the haircut i got on saturday ... hais ... my fringe is real short now and my hair is like standing up like nobody's business .. bleahs .. Saturday me, baby and jason chua went for that haircut ... after that jason chua pang sehed us and went to find her .. so we went to kovan to find hubby childhood friend, kelvin i think ... he was with his girlfriend, very pretty, slim not like me ... she just so not like me la ... haha ... okok, i'm jealous haha ... they played pool then kelvin give alot of faces cause he kept performing stunts and losing to my baby haha ... then they went to play bowling ... as usual, i sat there and watch cause i know nuts about bowling ... kelvin's girlfriend played really well .. *claps however, hubby still won =) YAY ... then we went to 7-11 to get some beer ... after that went heartland to get hubby's mama's present then baby accompanied me to jurong .. so sweet of him =)

14o5
it's mother's day today .. mummy was happy about her present ... guess how we spent the day ??? she stayed at home to sleep while i go out slack with friends haha .. happy mother's day =)
later on i met hubby at plaza then he went to play pool with jason chua so i went home ... jason chua was sad .. i was just wondering ... if people dont like another, why say those words to give people false hopes ... argh ... nevermind, that's their personal problems ... then hubby save $100 of innocent $$$ .. good for him =) if not i'm gonna get it back for him ...

15o5
finally monday ... hate it ... was almost late for school ... thanks to hubby's msg i woke up =) love you so much ... he must have predicted that i'll oversleep haha ... exams was really bad ... i think i'm going to flunk a maths for the umpteenth time and geog as well .. wahaha ... how clever can i be ... met hubby around 4pm then go his house ... so here i am typing away while my piggie's sleeping really like a BIG FAT PIG =x he came to tickle m bu i told him to disturb me after i blog =x so bad of me ... k la ... i go accompany him now if no later he fall asleep difficult to wake him up ...

shall try to blog soon cause i'm often not at home ... cya guys =)

xiaolynn is feeling 3/4 happy =p where's the 1/4???

' SHATTERED <3>
5/15/2006 05:07:00 PM

maybe it's really time for me to do something for the relationship .. but you know ... there's just some things you can't give ...

i don't know why am i talking or thinking so much this few days but i just feel the need to .. i can't really write anything here ... too public ... hiya ... i just feeling like exploding ...

nvm i'll explode in my secret web ... it's good to have it ... =)

i'm in total madness now ... i don't know whether to love myself for this ... but i hate the world that's for sure ... thanks for hating me too =)

xiaolynn is farked up

' SHATTERED <3>
5/12/2006 10:32:00 PM

the past two days passed really complicated for me ... but i understanded one point, relationships need sacrificing ... i finally know what it really means ... it's reality, and i will accept it ...

baby i love you .. and hope you know that .. i've been treating you quite badly the past few days .. i'm sorry, i'll work more on my character ... but i just want u to know how much i really love you ... it really hurts, really ... but i will do it just for you ...

perhaps nothing will really come true ... but i know that if it comes true ... that person is my one and only husband ..

that's all for today ..

xiaolynn feels shattered, broken, empty, whatever

i'll just like to F*** the world and k*** myself ... i'll never live ...

' SHATTERED <3>
5/12/2006 09:46:00 PM

hmmmmmmm .... yesterday didn't blog cause need to rush social studies .. it was really bad la ... hais ... after school i met my baby and jason chua ... then went to baby's house ... ka jiao jason chua abit then fell asleep lols ... jason chua had a hard time waking us up ... woke up le then took cab to gym .. makan there ... they go do workout then i went home le ... i was supposed to join them, but i had stomach cramps ... awwww ...

today is social studies exam!!!!!!!!!! what i study all never come out !!!! i studied the majority and the minority came out !!!! wtf ... i missed out an essay question ... hiyah, used to failing this subject already haha ... after school i met my mummy at 2.15pm ... re-newed my bankbook then went to kovan to eat sakae sushi ... so full can ... haha ... went home and packed the whole lot of notes to study ... tmr's science ... sure die ... i met hubby at 6pm to study ... in the end nothing went into my brain =.= whatever ... just no mood to study la ... played initial d with hubby =) actually is draw but dont know why my car went in ... sorry hubby>.<

recently i always miss hubby but he like never miss me le ... haha ... no la ... things are changing as time goes by, everyone understands the fact ... but as long as things dont turn too bad, i'm willing to go on =)

love you lots =p

xiaolynn is so sleepy *yawns

' SHATTERED <3>
5/10/2006 09:17:00 PM

today is monday ... as usual ... monday blues ... today baby dint go school ... so i went la ... 1st period is maths =.= didn't really do much either ... then social studies ... mrs hee nagged the whole lot ... haha ... used to it ... geog lesson wasn't that good cause my test results sucked ... f&n is the worse ... nothing to do ... even if have, i also dont know how to do ...

2pm was listening compre ... listen halfway i sleep lols ...

after school i rush home ... cooked for baby ... bath everything ... then call him he no pick up ='( msg no reply ='''''( so here i am sitting here typing away lor ... something weird is going on ... i think ... intuition tells me so ... nvm i shall just wait for his call lor ... cook until darn tired ... if he never call then i eat it myself then =(

dont feel like blogging today ... not really in a good mood ... cya guys ...

xiaolynn feels empty

' SHATTERED <3>
5/08/2006 04:45:00 PM

hohoho ... didn't blog for the last few days ...shall update a little ...

1stly,
nobody tags my blog ='( haha ... that's lame ...

050506
friday ... chinese exams ... alright la ... not too difficult ... after school met my brother at mall ... play initial d and photo hunt for the whole afternoon =.= we had nothing to do la ... then around 5plus i went to hubby's house ... he was suppose to meet justin and jason chua at 8pm ... but we this two pigs end up sleeping until 8plus .. haha ... took a cab down then got "scolded" by them ... saw his ex there ... feel abit bad la ... cause when your ex bring another girl with him, you see already also will feel sad right ... i feel kinda bad but i guess it's ok bahx ... just hope she dont take it too hard lo ... went home around 10pm ... then talked on the phone with hubby until 1am ... so tired can ... *yawns me and baby like cannot separate wan ... lols ... 24hrs in contact ... i just love him la =)

060506
today ... my "best brother in the world" woke me up at 10am !!!! it's a saturday, and i slept at 3 plus last night !!!!! argh ... then anyhow bath and change then went down to atrium ... jay had match with josh ... josh won then we go jurong point for another match ... i dont quite like the people there so i didn't really play there ... that girl keep wanting to compete with me ... dont knnow why ... i didn't offend her ... and besides that she should know that it's a waste of her time ... she sure win me ... nvm la ... all i have to do is to reject the match lor ...
then later on about 5plus, baby came all the way from his house to jurong point find me ... so happy can !!!! but i feel very bad lehx ... i cannot stay overnight ... must go home early ... cant spend much time with him ... and he's like travelling miles just to see me ... i feel so selfish ... ='( hubby said he dont mind ... but things cant go on like that what ... hmmm ... i'll try to find a way ... it's just a matter of time ... baby brought me to "bento box" at jurong point to makan ... food was quite nice but the lady at cashier really irritating la ... cannot concentrate on her work wan .. always do things wrong ... very careless ... cause she was talking to her friend while taking our order .. =.= bad service ... but i still enjoy the food cause is hubby treat me eat de =) but my baby boy said it was ok la ... nothing special .. my baby is just so fussy about food lols .. not like me ... as long as got food jiu ok ... haha ... shall cook for him something he dont like and have him to eat it without complains =x no la ... not so "zhe er" ( baby taught me this word )

070506
today cannot meet hubby ='( have to pray ... about noon time went out with mama ... eat already went to buy the praying food ... today everything didn't go well ... the meat we bought not very fresh cause the person dont want to take the fresh ones out until he sell those not so fresh want ... somemore he chop the meat until so ugly ... later went to find the "peng kueh" but then hor ... walk the whole hougang central also DONT HAVE !!!!! so tired can .. end up buying meat bao instead ... grrrrrrr ... then the taxi wait so long ... carry those stuff very heavy nehx ... when i reach my uncle house ... chat with my uncle ... talk about yesterday's election thingy ... worker's party did a good job this time ... keep it up =) then eat and headed to NTUC ... bought stuff that i cooking for hubby tml =p went home ... chop chop chop wash wash wash ... until i cut my hand ='( but nvm ... it's for my baby =) i saw his ex today ... with another ... guy ... nvm ... i just hope my pressence dont affect her ...

hmmm ... gonna sleep soon ... tmr got school ... yawns ... night everyone ...

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5/07/2006 10:02:00 PM

tried to blog in the afternoon ... but internet was down again ... what the heck ... haha .. now i am currently in the sacarstic mood .. just now keep shooting baby and friends >.<

today is the 1st day of SA1 ... dreads ... eng paper 1 was ok ... paper 2 was also actually ok ... until after exams when we compared our answers and reslised that all our answers were different .. omg ... today was a short day la ... i love exams cause of alot reasons ...

1. it's definitely because of early dismissal ..
2. i dont study for exams, so i go around disturbing those who study =x
3. alot of free time, no homework =)
4. no need to wake up early cause no need copy homework
5. light school bags

haha .. exams barely started but i'm already in holiday mood .. how far-sighted can i be =p but i almost forgot until teacher reminded me that there is chinese o levels coming up right after mid-yr =( *groans chinese teacher printed the whole stack of chinese compo writing format for us cause she know that we misplaced her notes ... so kind of her =) she's a nice teacher la, but then the chinese she teach so chim can .. cant understand ... even if understand dont seem to remember ... all the four word phrases got different meanings ... and the words dont suit the meaning ... what's worse is that there are like 3276498056907945789 of them ??? lols ...

i went to hougang mall about 4pm ... bought hubby a wallet cause i know his wallet spoil le ... i saw it, but i pretend never see then buy him 1 to replace it =) hehes ... then had initial d match with an ex-schoolmate just now ... 6-0 =) hhaha ... i won ...

met up with baby about 7pm ... went to eat then wait for his friends ... joke, chat blah blah blah ... han guang got suaned by me until very jialat ... then next was jason chua's turn ... but baby was the most pitiful one ... got suaned by everyone of us ... lols ... poor him ... then xiao bai FINALLY arrive haha ... so long never see him, still like to be late ... lols ... so hubby sent me home then they went gym ... they are still in gym now, but i lazy to join them .. haha ... i'm a fat ass =x tomorrow baby maybe go play pool, but he go lot 1 and play .. so far can .. and i'm not 16 yet ... i scared kanna caught very paiseh ... haha ... shall miss him so much ...

baby asked me:" what if tonight i miss you too much how ??" i actually wanted to say:"cry la .. " haha, but that was mean la .. so i replied:" go to lalaland and find me .. " lols ... what a bad gf he has ... hahas ...

aiyo ... nothing to crap le ... MAPLE =)

xiaolynn is currently having exam madness, pardon her for insanity =p

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5/04/2006 09:10:00 PM

hmmmm ... today is half boring until i met baby of course =)

0600hrs
i woke up and walked with my eyes closed cause i have lived in this house for 15years ... however, i managed to make contact with the wall =.= then i realise, i run out of toothpaste and body foam luckily still have little bit ...

0730hrs
had assembly ... got SPOTCHECK ... so quickly cut my nails ... but in the end never check nails =.= another 2 weeks before they are long again ... hais ...

0800hrs
it was eng lessons .. today quite slack ... had news watch ... the victims all quite pitiful ... one girl even had abortion two times ... awwww ... she didn't want it, it was the parents and the society ... whatever la ...

0930hrs
chemistry is slack as usual ... go through test paper ... 1st time or rather 2nd time i fail chem ... cause didn't study ... then after that, i had no idea what went on cause i was sleeping =x

1030hrs
recess time !!!! yum yum ... lols ... i'm pig ... normally wed and thurs eat alot during recess cause late recess then many people get very hungry ...

1100hrs
maths ... got back test papers also ... was quite satisfied with a 19/45 lols ... i didn't attend that lesson so a double digit is quite ok with me ...

1200hrs
social studies ... one of the lessons i pay least attention to ... played tic-tac-toe and hangman with diliang throughout the lesson ... wasn't listening haha ...

1300hrs
physics was ok ... the experiment quite hard but manage to do it afterall ... actually physics not that difficult but it's really hard to understand what she teaching ... cause she expects us to be familiar to the terms and short forms she is using ... but we are not ... and she doesn't slows down during lesson ... so cannot really catch what she teaching haha ...

1640hrs
met baby at woodlands ... went to ttsh to visit his grandma ... bought hi-fibre biscuits for her ... went there chatted abit ... but baby feels awkward cause he not that close to her ... haha ... his "paiseh" expression soooooooooooo cute =p then fed his grandma her meals and headed to PS cause hubby wanted to go mac .... i kind of did his homework for him, then he say teacher sure know cause english more "chim" than what he usually writes haha ... took a couple of photos then walk walk ... he sent me home and we decided to slack downstairs my house .. he said:" you everytime go home so early, i 'bu se de' you lehx " =) so sweet ... hehes ... sorry worx ... home curfew cant pei you for latenight outs ... will put aside more day time for you kkz ??? muacks =)

later gonna sleep soon .. so tired and drowsy ... mapling 1st !!!! =x will blog soon ...

xiaolynn is satisfied =)

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5/03/2006 09:50:00 PM

yesterday actually i blogged ... but internet went bonkers then couldn't post it ... kinda 4got what i type ... but i only knew that i almost made a VERY VERY BIG mistake yesterday ... it was 1 step away before i walked out of the door and never came back again ... but baby pulled me back =) i thought he wasn't serious at first ... but the way he told me things yesterday melted my heart =) i love you baby =p

today have school ... * groans woke up at 5.30am as usual ... went school, on my "photocopy machine" and started copying homework=x no la ... i did it myself ... o level year still copy mehx ... lols ... i have witness want ok ... charles, you'll be my witness alright ??? lols ...

0730hrs
today's assembly, one guy kanna caned ... aiya, dont like him and his doings, so serve him right haha ... actually his offences all quite childish haha ... dont say le lols .. eng lesson .. i dread today's eng lesson, because erdiah walked into the class with a list of names of people who need to go dental ... and my name was on it !!!! the dentist sucks can ... he keep accidentally poke my gum until very pain lor ... then keep saying sorry got use mehx ... next time make sure you wake up fully then come work la toopig dentist ... dont know is purposely or what ... he kept asking me if i ok anot ... my question to him was:" do i like ok ??? " pain until i almost cried cause he poke the same area alot of times!!!! irritating ... then later on my teeth was still bleeding all the way until i reached home ... which was 8 hours later ??? hais ...

0930hrs
chinese teacher isn't here today, wonder how she is ... since teacher not here and we have no assignments, i managed to make use of that hour to finish up my maths and catch some sleep ...

1100hrs
geography also slack period ... that hour was super slack cause everybody finished homework le, then chit-chat around ... no relieve teacher, and we are in an air-con room somemore ... lols ...

1200hrs
of course something that we must have everyday ... maths !!! had maths test ... i was absent on the day mr yeo taught that chapter so i'm really confident of failing the test ... so gave up, went toilet to slack haha ...

1400hrs
f&n was ok today .... finally one lesson is ok haha ... usually i have alot of complain about f&n ... but today we went to c&t room to use computer type out our coursework B stuff .. she didn't nag today, so it's alright la ....

1700hrs
aft bathing, i went home to bath then go hougang mall ... today not many challengers ... saw orh ni ku and his brother ... forced orh ni ku to pei me eat ... haha ... play alot of photo hunt, nothing to do mahx ... then play SSR ... around 7 plus ... they pei me walk home then slack downstairs cause still early ... allan keep complaining that he want go home ... lols ... like a toddler ... we saw a baby girl ... she keep wanting my handphone haha ... then her father dont let her take ... she quite noisy la ... want this want that ... not exactly cute ... i help her father to finish feeding her cause her father was having a hard time ... then jiu went home le ...

i miss my baby ... dint see him today ... he go gym again ... go become gorilla =x tomorrow meeting up with him go his ah ma house ... but i'm waiting at amk centre cause i pai seh haha ... bibi ... wo xiang ni oh =)

hmmm ... i think that's all for these 2 days ... take care guys, will be back soon if i can help it ...

xiaolynn is spinning around

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5/02/2006 09:04:00 PM

hohohoho ... today i am freakingly HAPPY .. lols ... shan't say too much ... hahas ... actually wanted to go atrium to watch match ... then in the end, we ended up at his house ... then around 6 plus ??? or was it 7 .. went to hougang plaza to play pool ... damn ... i realise that i am really lousy in that haha ... went home really late cause went to eat with yvonne and friends haha .. really missed them cause they graduated then nobody accompany me in the morning ... so lonely haha ... then halfway "somebody" pulled my bag ... i thought it was robbery or what hohohoho scare me ... but actually it was baby =)

as we were walking home ... the rally just finished then the traffic jamed like crazy ... this year polling at my house downstairs =.= noisy lehx ... but anyway ... alot of people voting for worker's party =) yay ... i dont really like the government la ... international transparency ranking is like 140 out of 167 =.= whatever la .. i cant vote anyway ='(

after that baby came my house downstairs to have a "chat" haha then i went up le =) 1111 =p hehe ...

aiya ... very tired la ... go slp le ... nites everyone ..

xiaolynn is so happi ...
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5/01/2006 12:14:00 AM