When People Say Goodbye

peter pan pan told me to upload the pictures we took, so here they are haha. most of the time is me yi xiang qing yuan la LOL !!!

looks sweet right haha. but no yolanda !!! we have nothing going on =p

can see how mian qiang is he right LMAO !!!

FUN !!! =)))

WHACK ME !!! YOU IDIOT PAN !!! =P

what !!! trying to snap scandal ar ??!!!

PEOPLE DON'T LAUGH I TELL YOU !!! YOU BETTER DON'T LAUGH I TELLLLL YOU !!!!

' SHATTERED <3>
7/27/2007 04:41:00 PM

WAHAHAHA !!! boring blog huh. i kind of forgot about it the past few days >.<

i hate the end of a semester, everything so rush. only have one week to complete two freaking tough assignments. barely have enough sleep la !!! after that CD project we were like "WA BIG STUFF ACCOMPLISHED !!!" then everyone took a break and couldn't get back on track alrdy haha, all procastinating.

was feeling very happy on wednesday i don't know why. no matter what bad thing happen, it didn't ruin my mood, even when i have dizzy spells all day. going crazy ??? haha who knows.

my last days at suki already. this wednesday and saturday then no more le. on both days i work at night but ONN ONN work until 5pm only. so it means that i won't see him anymore. no fate lor =))) thinking of preparing a little something for everyone there then give it to them when i return my uniform. all of them were great =))) i love them, can't bear to leave but i just don't feel like staying on already, don't know what's pulling me away also. but i really lack time for myself la. will visit there often for food =)

yesterday i chiong-ed that stupid belinda's assignment until 4am. so i think can sleep until 7am then take shuttle bus to school no need wake up at 6am. but i couldn't sleep at all !!! i literally waited for my alarm clock to ring. perhaps it's because i slept till too late the night before. thus being too lazy to go out with zara, cause the weather also too nice to laze around at home la. sorry =x she was lazy too OK !!! haha.

am waiting for the lecturer to come in. we missed one hour of lesson last week cause we went to watch jamie perform then he told us to come one hour earlier. then NB !!! he at meeting, fly big aeroplane !!! haha.

i just create my friend test, it's somewhere below my taggy or links, easy one. go try =))) good day ahead !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
7/27/2007 10:52:00 AM

on friday, i heard some people sing. they weren't as good as what some others said they were. but dance was GREAT !!! esp jamie's group !!! they won !!! CONGRATS !!!!

choir after that was seriously boring la. am thinking whether to quit or not, just not my cup of tea. saw lun, wilson and guys downstairs my house again haha. chat chat chat .............................. stories .................

then went back and called eddie. personal stuff here, can't be mentioned la. after that, he still refused to let me sleep, so cruel la. am very tired can !!! previous night only slept for 4 hours. talk to him also bai bai talk, say already also don't listen, THINK THINK THINK THINK THINK !!! think somemore la !!!!!!!!!! LOL !!!

woke up at 3pm. though mummy said that she tried to wake me up but i didn't hear at all LMAO !!! went down to atrium to meet elmo. YAY !!! ID is back to life, but unfortunately, i have no interest in the new version leh. wanted to try playing today, but i haven't collected my nEbO MIP card. SAD !!! =(((

went back to hougang around 5plus. so i literally went to atrium for nothing haha. see all the good old friends =p met up with wilson and gang again. eat at level 4 foodcourt.

there was this very rude aunty, with her two kids, standing behind our table and staring at us. she was looking for seats la, but don't she know that it's rude to stare at people eating ?? she could have at least pretend to look away, but NO !!! she didn't even when i was staring back at her. SO RUDE !!!! her poor kids, got such a bad role model.

then they walk here walk there, and poor me, in that uncomfortable heels following them about. couldn't find anywhere with pool tables available so we went somewhere near kovan for tau huey and oh ah jian. DAMN FULL la !!! they really can eat alot man.

slacked at void deck, happening la haha. chasing here and there. joel hit the side of my eye with the bottle cap that he kicked. his aiming also damn zhun la. KAOS !!! then my ex-husband yvonne came haha. why ex-husband ??? cause she admitted to adultery 2 years ago LMAO !!!

later was emo-time, let's not talk about it. i saw the stone tables and chairs at the void deck next bloack to my house, memories flooded back ........ SIGHS .....

' SHATTERED <3>
7/22/2007 01:45:00 AM

zzzzzzzzzzzz !!!! is this big enough ??? !!!! sickening haha. then when i angry how ?? type in largest x3 ar !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
7/21/2007 12:36:00 AM

OK !!! changed blogskin =))) it's actually pretty much the same things you see except for the layout la. joel feedback that the fonts become too tiny to read. so i'm testing it out here =)))

have fun !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
7/21/2007 12:32:00 AM

WA !!! si bei long never update my blog huh ... nvm one la hor, also nobody read LOL !!! got photos, but lazy to upload la as usual, if not ppl complain heart pain again.

another bad thing happened la ... apparently, lance didn't pray hard enough. LMAO !!!

i woke up feeling throbbing pain in my leg. u know the inner part of your ankle, slightly below it near the base of your foot. such a weird spot, couldn't have sprained it what. and it's so much more painful la. i thought if i rest it on my blanket, it will feel better, but NO !!! once it touches something, i think i will scream. there's nothing i could do to stop that excruciating pain.

and i scared my mother by calling her and not saying anything. so i took about half a minute to finish crying and start telling my mum what happened. so she took off and brought me to my uncle's place. he said that i accidentally stepped onto some offering or what la, which i couldn't recall at all.

then he did something to my leg, but i didn't feel pain at all LOL !!! was still imagining how i will faint if he treats my leg like how he usually does. then i slept at his house for about 4hours, cause i couldn't sleep in the morning, just too painful la. ate dinner, cabbed to hougang mall, buy that bandage and met up with wei lun and guys.

they damn cruel la, put my slipper high high ask me climb up to get it =.= take my things and run off, thinking that i can chase up with them. DAMN PAIN la !!! the swell's getting worse
=((( but better than in the morning, wind blow, i never move, also can pain like mad.

they left after that, only left me and wei lun. played on the swing and got very giddy, i weak i know haha. he didn't wanna go back too early, but i can't acc him till so late. I HATE CURFEWS ROAWRRR !!! i can sense that he rather upset leh, sighs .... hope that all of them including me la, will be fine. this week is a bad week. FULL STOP !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
7/20/2007 12:09:00 AM

last few days was HORRENDOUS for me !!! totally sucked !!! maybe not totally la huh ..

tuesday's attachment was fine. went to school, didn't even have time to eat lor $#$%^& booked room ma, then chiong my CD stuff. then kenneth brought his "ginnas" to terrorize me =.='' wa so scared, they didn't even dare to come in LOL !!!

the day was ok, until test had to come. it was difficult, though it's MCQ. the choices were kind of stupid yet smart, contradicting la. some of them you find it very true in real life, but think again ... school's test paper will ask this type of things meh ?? but you never know if that's the correct answer. so have to really read between the lines. hopefully the answers i choose in the end will be correct. this 20% or dunno how many percent is IMPT !!! i only got a moderate pass for the last test =(((

choir was ok. then had committee meeting. realised that being in the committee ain't easy at all. in fact, very hard !! i'm not born to be a leader, but i'll try. and i believe kenny, my assistant will work hard together with me =))) GO CHOIR !!! ppl may say we sing for the sake of nth but high and low notes. they might say we are aqua, or lame. but just rmb, they are ppl that don't appreciate the same music as we do. it is a sign of disrespect to pass comments about stuff u don't know but it's also a sign that indicates the way you think before you say. shows that you have no depth in thinking at all, shallow !!

well ... all these harsh stuff was to emphasize on the fact that we humans, have many different views. you should not try so hard to run ppl's passion down when they did not do it to yours. even if they did, you are just childish to play back with them. if some ppl can show basic respect by not commenting, it might make him/her look smarter. besides, i think that him/her comparing whoever with my friend in choir, will sure lose. cause he/she had not heard both sides, and is so eager to announce the results already. well .. it's ok ... talented people don't have to seek attention to be famous. they will one day, be well-known in the way they want it to be. people who can sing very well, need not be a performer or singer right ??

on the way back, had a long chat with jing yi after zeke alighted. i love chats with her =))) keeps me rather engrossed. usually in long chats, i'll be the one to get off track first haha.

this is one of the very bad parts of my days. chiong assignments !!! then didn't sleep, still can go school late =.= was kinda pissed off before CD lesson, well don't wish to elaborate. ppl who should know will know.

went out with jasper after school. before that, went to far east buy cardigan with sheryl and her mum. but sad to say, one button already drop out le. so sad !! cannot find leh. maybe tailor there will have then go buy haha. ate ramen with jasper, the food was like the maggie mee i cook at home, don't know why he like haha. then walked around with nothing to do. wanted to play initial D but didn't bring my cards =.= think i bore him to death la. first time meet, also dunno what he like, scared later he don't like. blah blah, couldn't find movie to watch either. DAMNED !!! lucky when we go PS, i play stock car for initial D alot of ppl challenged me haha.

bade goodbye at around 9plus. thank god for him, he must be feeling great at that time.

had a good sleep after so many nights, till 12pm =))) then jasper didn't exactly talk much to me already. perhaps i'm really that ugly till the extent where he don't wanna contact me after meeting. well, he is my ex's friend, so one fine day also will see me. god bless him.

work sucked today. attitude customers. but after work was kind of good. joked abit, then wei lun send me home and talk about some stuff, not convenient to reveal here. seems like so long nv work with him. but also good la, if not when he work always very crowded, cause his mouth very smelly. no customer then he say very empty, then customer come filling in. it's too true not to believe. all of us in suki don't dare suey chui, only him haha.

but am quitting soon. i don't know why, i just don't feel like working there already haha. but also quite she bu de. how leh .....................

ok here comes the worst part. for the CD project which i just handed in on wednesday, it stated that it was supposed to be week 11. then i have this project due on week 13. thinking i have 2 more weeks left so i didn't panick or what la. but then kenneth told me it's week 13 already. so the assignment descriptor was printed wrongly for CD !!! DAMNED !!! why her assignments all like that de !!! TMD !!! die, now i don't even know which group am i with =.=

so many bad things in a row. people !! pray for me T.T

' SHATTERED <3>
7/13/2007 12:38:00 AM

to add on to my day which didn't really start well, i was late for S&W class. so have to partner with that stupid teacher. torture me like some mad man. crazy means crazy !!!

then after that partner with that pui eh, very xin nang. empty vessels make the most noise, so true haha. kp so much in the cannot do himself, still can laugh at ppl. kenneth say he insecure, scared ppl dunno he li hai, scared ppl laugh LOL !!! i keep smashing into him he like very happy, i think is zhar bor advantage la. next time must take chance and smash more haha =x

after S&W, i wanted to go change, but i once i stepped into that damned toilet, the lights went off. freaked out la, then dont want change. kenneth still laugh at me =((( then went down to canteen 2 de toilet. i think i change very long, he wait until want sleep haha. well, girl ma ....... LMAO !!!

what really makes my day "bad" was that, i got irritated by "someone" that wu gui, pig or tiko peh, whatever la. well it's ok, i too used to being teased haha. i got my revenge by pinching his muscular arm. not muscular, just hard and stiff like a tree branch. hao kan bu hao chi one. no strength one LOL !!! that ah pui say one =ppp

reached home, bathed, talk to that stupid someone. then went out with KG for dinner at cartel. wanted to have ichiban sushi instead but in the end somehow we settled for cartel. my order took very long to come, so he offered to share his food with me. how nice haha. like real, i snatch one la, but he didn't mind haha. we are good friends anyway =))) then we share our dessert "lovers' fantasy" sia. sia la !!!! LOL !!! i forced him to finish the blueberry, cause i kind of hate berries, maybe with the exception of grapes haha.

bought a bag home on the way. got lelong lelong ma haha. 10 bucks, bu mai bai bu mai =))) no such adverb though, if not i can use it on my mum to stop naggings whenever i bring a shopping bag home LOL !!!

no handsome guys one the way home, no bus encounters like sheryl's, nothing special except for friends =))) my friends made me so happy today =))) not bad day la, tiring but enjoyable =)))

off to catch up sleep after so many days. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz YAWNS !!!!!!!!! POOT* :)))

' SHATTERED <3>
7/09/2007 11:21:00 PM

hi guys =))))

let me tell you guys something....

i arrived school this morning by a bus driven by a driver who drove like everyone on board had gangbang-ed him. well .... he started off pretty gentle but started to go bonkers when we passed by bishan fire station. maybe there was a fire and he was trying to avoid it =.='' luckily, i alighted the bus alive and in one piece.

-THE END- :)

' SHATTERED <3>
7/09/2007 12:34:00 PM

i suddenly feel so lost, like i've nowhere to go in life.

' SHATTERED <3>
7/07/2007 12:42:00 AM

life's going on well ... erm ... not really la .... no not well ...

can i make up my mind ??!!!

IT SUCKS !!! feeling sick and stuff ... having loads of problems that i dunno why i have to go thru ... see all the unfairness, accept all the ugly sides of my life ...

ok la, dont say until i so ke lian ... i'm also a very bad person that i know. i have zero tolerance for everything that doesn't go my way. in other words, stubborn. then i can't stand injustice done to myself and my friends or whoever i'm helping, but to others, i can't really be bothered. BIAS !! selfish or whatever u call it.

alot more i'm lazy to type out here, get to know me and you'll know. i'm not trying to be pessimistic here, but hiyah, it's the truth la. i dont wanna deceive myself. that's the reason why i got such a bad life, and i only have myself to blame. if i treat everyone good, everything will be better, i wont be so miserable. but i just dont know why i cant. why do i have to be so temperemental and whatever i dunno.

ok some days back i saw that very blissful couple (names not mentioned here, they will know themselves if they read it), then i saw her again at the other side of school. ok coincidence la, then rmb-ed those stupid conflicts and thought that i was kinda rash, temperemental hormones raging. i was 90% at fault for not speaking nicely, hiya but i also dunno la. i just have the urge to hate myself, i have to. i don't know why i thought of them of such bad ppl at that time when they aren't really are. unfair to them ba, all i can say is sorry ba.

so many things have flew past my eyes and i never learnt to treasure, so i got none. it's time i do something, but i don't have motivation nor strength to do so. it's kinda religious so it's hard to find a partner, cause only deep believers will wanna do that. i shall find that spirit back, on my own.

being single for so long, i shan't deny that i feel lonely and want someone to acc me. but i don't want to take just anyone, cause it hurt others as well as myself. even if someone appears and things are mutual, i also don't dare. afraid that i wont treasure, afraid of getting hurt. maybe i should just be a nun, cause buddha wouldn't abandon me ?? well ... it's almost impossible haha.

after saying so much, i don't know what i'm trying to drive at. this is the main reason why i always fail english wahahaha. ok, enough said, i'm tired of my life. let's go to slp =p

' SHATTERED <3>
7/01/2007 12:54:00 AM