When People Say Goodbye

MUAHAHA, stumbled across this on wilson's blog. kinda true and funny so i thought i'll share it with you guys =))) enjoy !!!

funny right !!! haha, at first i couldn't copy and paste the whole. spent like half an hour before it could work. but then when it can work the fonts can't change and stuff. so the font size is abit errr ... i dunno ... haha. bear with it ya. dunno if is it blogger change settings or what. hopefully next time will be ok ba if not i stop blogging =xxxx just kidding la haha.

hope you guys enjoyed the video !!! =ppp

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8/29/2007 03:49:00 AM

i'm very very busy recently ...... with sleep. i just can't get enough of it. without sleep, i get all grumpy and irritated.

i slept for 14 hours yesterday, and i still feel tired now. went for a stupid briefing that lasted for less than an hour which half of it was nothing but crap. wasted trip all the way to SP.

took train with kenny, but i alighted at raffles place to meet up with keng guan. go watch SECRET !!! muahaha don't box me. but seriously la, we dunno what was so touching about that story. half the time the audience were laughing. we didn't see anyone crying. when we thought of the story after the show, the first thing that came to my mind was ...........................

"when jay chou was writing this story, was he dreaming or what ??"

don't say touching la, i didn't even feel like crying can. i so emo de, still can laugh at the stupid story. maybe because the girls were jealous that one of the actresses get to kiss jay, or maybe because they were afraid that the huge heavy metal ball would kill their idol haha.

mediocre acting, but fantastic piano skills and beautiful settings haha. lucky i watch on monday plus the discount that NEBO card bring for us, i only paid $6. now i rmb, KG owes me a dollar muahaha !!!

went back suki to buy food then just nice ONN ONN came out. he just finish work la, then talk talk abit then his friend jiu call le =(( damn his friend haha.

am sooooooooooooooooooooo tired. i'm still wondering, the person who kanna accident is from my block but is he my friend ?? i don't dare to go see, but when i found the courage to, he chu bin already. i kept dreaming of the same two people, but i hope it's not them. =((( i don't wanna curse them choi choi choi !!!

benchers !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! who's going back to bowen, tag me !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
8/27/2007 11:25:00 PM

well ... ok !!! have not been blogging for the past few days. that time spam posts so make up for these days haha. i really feel like telling the whole world that my exams are over, but i still want my life. people during exams can be really outta their mind LMAO !!!

tuesday suddenly had the feeling no choir very weird haha, but think of so many days of the holiday are taken up by choir, i jiu sian full full liao. shit man, i hate that lo. well, no choice. but the timings really suck lor, can start practice at 6pm, then before that dunno what to do, go out halfway even more sian. KNS !!! waste my time haha.

wednesday was a hell lotsa fun. went to eat with the suki people ma. then i think about three tables there are all suki people, like big family gathering. took some photos but lazy to upload, also good for the readers' eyes haha.

my mum keep asking the same stupid question can !!!

"u all go and eat then suki close one day no need to work ar ???"

KAOS !!! of course got people work la haha, suki only got 15 staff meh. i think what we ate most are raw prawns, scallops and cream puffs haha. the regional manager went into the kitchen and took a whole bag of cream puffs for us LMAO !!! we almost died laughing la. the whole time i was sending songs here and there, until suki close also haven't send finish la haha. now at leas my phone not empty empty one =)))

it was really like a big big family la, i think the other customers were thinking why this bunch of people so crazy. cause that regional manager went in to take cream puffs ma, then shun bian take out orders and served the customers. of course they dunno he is our manager la, then they give that stupid face haha. stupid customers, where got customers serve customers. we already say so loud like they cannot hear we are all suki staff like that LOL !!! stupid !!! now i not working can scold them like f*** haha.

bought ciggies then took bus home, too full to walk haha.

was supposed to go back bowen with weenee today but that stupid tailor shop called to say that they won't be open tml nor the weekends, so i have to collect my gown today. TMD !!! have to pangseh weenee, so sorry !!!! after that meet nono, elmo, eugene and jeff plus a few other people i don't really know. play initial D ver4, quite expensive lo. but i think i'm improving haha. they waited ages for me to finish my food until all pek cek >.<

when playing pool at meridien (yes, the place where i performed with bowen chorale before), they suan me but i couldn't hear cause i was listening to songs haha. good not to know what u not supposed to know haha.

then nono's boss msged to say that he gave him the wrong info, sat he can take leave !!! WOOHOO !!! means can play mahjong !!! =pppp at first his boss say cannot then was kinda disappointed, now i very happy haha.

watching the movie "hairspray" tml. i so wanna watch "secret" but everybody seems to have watched it =((( boohoo !!!

"secret" anyone ???

' SHATTERED <3>
8/24/2007 01:44:00 AM

have made my decision. at last my mind's at ease. if don't have the heart it's better not to start. so jolynn is now back to square one, singlelicious =p

i woke up at 4-ish in the evening today o.0 then went to plaza there de zhi char makan with my mum. crabs, sweet sour pork and brocoli with prawns and tofu.

at first brocoli with prawns only. then the person ask, wanna add tofu ??? same price. i asked if like that the prawns will be lesser ?? she said no, so i went ahead with that order. end up the vege very lil =.= ta ma de haha.

went up to my uncle's house later on. on the way in the cab, there was traffic jam, then mummy got stomachache LMAO !!! then turned to bishan there to alight instead. and the uncle took his time to drive IDIOT !!! hougang to bishan need 10bucks meh. actually he nv let us alight so near de lor, is see there got people flag cab then stop there, if not god knows where he wanna turn. ji bai >.<

then after that took 52 to jurong. i love taking buses =p now then i know 52 to go quite near my uncle house lo LMAO !!! save my mum's bus fare sia.

my uncle taught me lots of things, love him loads but scared my aunty jealous LMAO !!! good chat with him too. we can really click man haha.

of course it's home sweet home afterwards. already 12am le lor haha. i hate today's taxi drivers. either they are not honest with their meters or they can't drive properly. this taxi i took home jerk the car continuously, i should have thrown up in his car, make him wipe his whole damned taxi lor. PHARKER !!! haha.

i think i have offended people when i was making things clear but should be ok already. though he's saying wierd things to me LMAO !!!

i'm blogging often right, so good girl =))) will blog soon. see ya !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
8/19/2007 12:29:00 AM

yeah guys i'm fine. why should one be so unhappy about not having a BF ???

i think the difference is made very clear and obvious today. if he really wanted to do something for this relationship or make any effort to save it, it would have been done so.

i don't wish to give in anymore, i know this is not what i want. i waited for some response, since there is none. i shall take my first step to walk away now. it's all too late i guess ....

if you love someone, don't hesitate to prove it, through actions, not words.

jolynn is single yet again =(((

' SHATTERED <3>
8/18/2007 12:44:00 AM

i wanna be ......... single. like i used to be. yes there is a difference with having a BF. it just means u have someone to hug when u go out.

actually it doesn't really make u feel fortunate when apparently u know that he doesn't really care for you. in fact, it hurts more than being single. why can't i be happy like every other girl who has a BF ??? maybe because their BF has their heart but ...... nvm ...

i'm just a normal girl who wants her boy to show care on her. give her lil surprises like coming to fetch her even though u didn't inform her, lil sweet notes or a takeaway meal. whatever thing la, is the effort that matters. something sweet that BFs will do for a girl.

but seems like it's one-sided now. even if i have the thick skin to ask people to fetch me, it will still be something like "lazy la" or "tired la". am i that not worth the effort ??? i dunno. whatever it is, i don't feel loved, or cared for.

even in chats, when he wants to go to slp, he say goodnight, and he can't wait for my reply before he signs out. but he can spend an hour reading a forum of i dunno what. i not worth his attentiveness, i'm really not. does he treat his ex or other girls like that ??? i doubt so.

maybe because i just accept everything so people take it as i don't need the love. but i fucking need it la, i'm human ok. if u don't have the heart to handle my heart carefully, don't take it in the first place.

you are putting feelings ??? you are ??? i think it's more like having fun with a girl beside you that you can look at as and when you want. i dunno what i'm blabbering about, but is this just love ???

everything's so not right. if it's like that where he cannot put in effort to make me feel blessed to have him, then i rather not have a BF. cause now, i feel more like a guy than girl.

it all boils down to one point, he doesn't have the heart for me.

i'm sad, i'm disappointed cause every time, i don't feel treasured at all. in my life, only one guy made me feel treasured but good things come to an end isn't it ???

bo xim then don't make any promises lo. commitment requires so much more than that. if u still have not settled down, or still wanna play and have no mood to take care another person, then perhaps i'm not the one you are looking for. u need a playmate, not a GF that u don't have to take responsibility of.

you broke my heart you disappointed me even before we even started. how am i gonna trust that your actions will mean something in future ???

i trust no one anymore. i'm a failure in love, AND IT SUCK !!!!!!!!

' SHATTERED <3>
8/17/2007 06:39:00 AM

i dunno if i'm single or attached now, but unavailable haha. i just wanna be happy that's all. i hope i can fufil this simple wish =)))

good luck to all for exams =)))

' SHATTERED <3>
8/17/2007 05:38:00 AM

am feeling so blue ........ i never felt this before. my intuition tells me that everything is temporary and will be gone anytime soon. it tells me that what i see is just a moment of infatuation, nothing close to reality. but sometimes what i feel is different but i received no assurance. i dare not take any step, for the fear that i may fall again. i need to know how you feel boy, if not i'll just let my feelings fade. how can i let myself sink deeper knowing that there are not only one possibility. should i hold on or should i let go, and continue with what i was a year plus ago ??

i feel sooooo ... well ... this part is abit not very nice. i know that he's finding his way around my blog, and he will one day. so i rather not say anything. i don't wanna suffocate myself with all this, but i don't wish to make him feel pressured. maybe we are just ................. erm .... nvm ....

jolynn is rather speechless today.

' SHATTERED <3>
8/16/2007 02:08:00 AM

weee~~~ someone's bringing me to kbox tomorrow =p i'm happy keke. movies after kbox too WAHAHAHA !!! =)))))))))

kbox launch its opening so many years already and i only went once before, damn sua ku right HAHA !!! the glass of kbox is going to break tomorrow muahahha. am smiling from ear to ear now =)))))

hope you feel better already. take very good care ok ??

i won 10+ plus at mj today =)))) could have won alot more, but got win can le haha. one shouldn't be that greedy huh. not a sentence suitable for me to say haha. i'm a greedy woman.

after next week, exams are over !!! YAYness !!! i'll take on any mj sessions if i have no CCA on, call me !!! =ppp

' SHATTERED <3>
8/12/2007 08:53:00 PM

i don't wanna admit it ..... but i feel really hurt ... toy-ed ....

i don't wanna admit this too .... i badly need love ='(

depressed*

' SHATTERED <3>
8/12/2007 12:54:00 AM

am blogging in this color obviously because of my mood. i'm not exactly in a very bad mood, but just feeling rather down.

i bluffed justien that i was gonna blog about him but actually not that much about him la. ok yes, in the end we didn't catch the movie and spent the whole day looking at them sleep, but that's not the point la.

i don't know am i thinking too much or what. am i leading him on ?? i can sense that no matter what happened just now, it's just for the sake of having fun, yeah we sure had some fun. why are there so many "flings" that make me feel so insecure. i need someone stable, not just anyone to relieve ourselves from pain occasionally. i know it's all just a day of fun, so why my stupid farktard brain take it so hard ??? i really hate this feeling, like i've nowhere to go and will disappear anytime.

maybe i'm being too emotional. but i really don't know what we are feeling. it seemed so serious yet so fake. i don't know, i shouldn't have delved too much into this platonic relationship bringing myself more misery. i really should not have .....

somehow i know what he seek in me is not commitment but fun. at least it's a yes for his side. besides, we are also at the scrutiny of my past, our peers. take it as i thick-skinned la, even if anyone initiates a commitment, am i up to it ??? when i can't even let go of simple things called "memories".

it feels like i'm turning in circles and loops. i always thought that that's the end of me and him, but my next encounter, will always bring the gap of the pain back together. why is it so easy to torture me ??? i just wanna be happy and loved like any other girl. just a simple guy who really cares and loves me. i don't want the world, i just want my heart back.

i guess .... it's just my life, my fate that leaves me with no one who really loves me. maybe no matter how much i try, it'll just make things worse, because it's just so not mine.

i'm not envious, jealous or whatever. but i just hate the contempt i feel that you have towards me. i did nothing wrong by appearing, seriously nothing fucking wrong. there might be a prejudice against me but is there basic respect not to whisper blatantly in front of people. i feel eff-ing discriminated at first, but i decided that i didn't have much say about it, so the best is to keep quiet.

i feel unwanted, unwelcomed and untreasured. is there a "someone" that will bring me outta this ?? with all his heart .... i need that "someone", i feel like i'm breaking down anytime soon.

lastly, about this topic ..... LIFE SUCKS !!!

BENCHERS !!!

can we change the gathering to the week after next ? i forgot that next week is my exam week. sorry guys. i love you all !!! see you guys really soon ok ??

' SHATTERED <3>
8/12/2007 12:11:00 AM

kua kua kua !!! finally people take my test. cause i put it at a more noticeable place, if not put one week also no one take >.<

very funny lo, the people i expect to get high high marks all just passed nia. then don't know why that eugene can get 70marks LOL !!! cause i give him hint for hte first question ma.

as for the allen c, i don't exactly know who he is. not bad ma, don't know me still can get 40 marks haha. those sacred dates and stuff also can get correct, means must be an avid reader LMAO !!! so buay bar hor me.

i took joey kor kor's test also. failed pathetically =((( shows that i must put in more effort to understand him keke. irritating kids !!! i so agree =p

JARREL CHOO AND LYNNETTE CHUA !!! you two can get 50 marks HOR !!! HMPF !!! keke. lucky you two never get my birthday wrongly, if not i sure humptum the both of you >.<.

as for me myself, i lost count of the jackets i have muahahaha !!!! shall create a more logical test la. this test really retarded cause i didn't know what to ask. stay tuned =)))

talked on the phone with justien last night. so i didn't sleep again la obviously haha. now i know .... he is a .... *ahems* no comments keke. laughed until i almost drop off my bed. but i think later i got him too bored =x sorry.

but hiyah, talk to him sure think of jason de. suan le la, forget him !!! if i can la ...

then early in the morning need to go school. didn't even feel like going lor, but i promise my friend to help them in their project jiu must go lor. then reached home around 4pm and KO. until that damned justien have to call and disturb me LMAO !!

now i realise this common trait in most of my friends that they always like to call and wake me up when i need sleep the most.

EXAMPLES:

excluding justien's one la ...

1) when i was very sick and on medication, amanda called and ask me go school. for project la, don't blame her. so i thought can sleep half an hr more before i go out. then one by one, my mum, mei chi and many people called. =.=''

2) esmond had the habit of calling me when he knew that i slept at 3-4am last night. and he calls at 5 =.='' even on the days i don't need to go to school ok !!!!

still got many more la, but lazy to type here.

am meeting up with justien to catch a movie tomorrow. like finally, i step into the cinemas. have been wanting to watch movie but is either i no time or friends no time.

actually intended go boon lay find him early in the morning, but i scared he can't wake up, later wake me up sleep back again. his idea la, i got no choice LMAO !!! then this fella, last time put me big big aeroplane, i think i got blog about this before la. this time he tell me "eh don't put me aeroplane ar." WTF !!! haha. scared i cannot wake up ar ?? not a prob man =p i laughed at the phone so hard that my mum took out thermometer to measure my temperature. just exaggerating though.

then i found out that he also like taiwan idol dramas leh. quite uncommon for a guy huh. cause normally guys will think that it's bo liao or sissy to watch all this. maybe they are jealous of the male leads in the story. but he different, hmmm ... i gua mu xiang kan leh haha. but also means one more person to "rent" VCD from me LOL !!!

maybe next time really can open one shop and rent all my VCDs. sheryl and mei chan sure very happy one LOL !!!

aiya i really dunno what i talking about. nothing to blog still can nag so much. hao la, i spare your eyes. =p off to o2jam !!! bye =ppp

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8/11/2007 01:36:00 AM

PHEW !!!!!!!!! uploading the photos itself took me an hour, what do you think ?? =p only 80% uploaded somemore. i still don't understand why this text is underlined, can't be removed. =(((

ok, let's start off .... on the friday 27th of July, was the inter-class captain ball for HMS. my class, 1A01, won the second prize, with all our might we fight. although it isn't the champion, but in our hearts, we are. (people should know why) our class bond was closer by alot definitely, we had sooooo much fun together as a team. i love our cheer.

lemonade, crunchy ice,
beat them once, beat them twice,
beat them bottom, beat them top,
beat them middle, watch them drop.
first to ten, yell it go,

fight and win, HMS WHOOSH !!!

1A01, this is for us !!! =p

then the day after, i went back to school in the morning for S&W CCA attachment. i stepped onto this bus and the very first thought that came to my mind "where am i?" here i am on a very classy bus with white and red decor, leather couches and plastics seats. very comfy environment, when i'm supposed to board the bus i take every normal day. 2nd thought "need money anot ?? bus concession included ??" YES it's included !!! ok swa ku i know haha.

my friend later told me that this type of bus is newly advertised. singapore only got 4 of them, and i'm so lucky to have board one =)))

nice view huh ....

the card scanners to prove that this is SBS TRANSIT bus LOL !!!

the place i sat, COMFY right !!!

the lucky people LMAO !!!

that's all for that bus haha. i went to malaysia on the 4th of august ... in case any of you start thinking that i'm some rich ass and start asking for presents, let me tell u, i was there only for half a day at a company's offer price of 55 bucks haha.

we went to "desaru" farm. i think i didn't spell it wrongly, even if i did, also nvm la hor LOL !!!

we arrived around 12pm for our durian buffet. actually not totally durian la. haha, no wonder i get fat i know =(

when we first arrived .....

everyone was thinking, so little durians only ??

no la .... here still got 2 baskets LMAO !!! but for 8 tables u know. others nv take out la haha.

so we ate something like that ....

don't look that yummy but it is =p

wa, ugly side kena caught ...

i didn't manage to finish all that =((( greedy mummy..

at the green house, some interesting articles about bees. makes me think of someone =.=

my and my love =)))

<3 life ="">

the phat phat little girl

happy people

our very funny guide =)

wild honey, i bought a bottle of that for my uncle, freaking 50 sg bucks leh !!!

looks like giving out urine LMAO !!

no la, it's wild honey. this is my share =)))

i wasn't pretending to sleep, i just closed my eyes a little longer =p

smiling until teeth can drop out.

later we proceeded to the farm .... very knowledgeable, but how much of them can i retain ?? let me show off to you =p

the tree that cannot produce anymore fruits if u only cut off the fruit but not the whole stem. it has a life span of 100 years !!! WOW !!

the fruit hanging there, asking me to eat it =p

he's telling us, the one with the redder skin inside the flesh is white, the one more pale and pink, the flesh very red.

looks like a .... *ahems*

i can't really see what's that.

this seeds are ripe when they turn red or dark pink. inside it are 2 coffee beans that are brown in colour. this is a coffee plant, don't look like right.

two beautiful cucumbers romancing on their tree. lalala~~~ then baby cucumber comes out =p

this is called the marrow gourd or something, can't remember the name. but just look at the length !!!

a lonely cucumber hanging by itself cause her friends went dating on another tree =)

typical potted plants la ...

a cottage by the farm ...

the emergents

like some olden china days de photo.

one side of the pond with very few fishes ...

looks kinda majestic right ?

the crowded part of the pond.

like SAMSUI woman HAHAHAHA !!!!

apparently i had bad hair day ....

told u right, very bad hair day =(((

teapots in the olden days.

little bicycles ...

antique weighing scale and my phat reflection ..

wine jars .....

real porcelain cutleries

my mum dunno tell me what is this for, but it just looks like a bicycle of a night soiler to me. who wanna ride on it and collect shit ??? =p

ostrich's eggs. i suspect they are fake though >.<

old antiques.

moulding beancurd ??

i still have this in my home u know LOL !!!

pounders, F&N still got use =p

ewwww ... spices .... yuck ...

the old old charcoal stoves.

mushroom <3s>

garbage holding area ?

delicious and juicy jambus =) *slurps

show u my backside

that's my friend's backside, mine sexier =p

ok la, i show u my head now, pretty ?

you can't see me ~~~

poor monkey, forced to have his photographs taken.

i think they deprive him of food, so that he has no choice but to perform =(

he drink halfway not enough, jiu take away from him. of course bo bian must pose but not happy.

see ... he running for food lor.

poor thing right. he's the type pluck coconut not climb trees one. will die if living under pressure. very poor thing =((((

the rabbits are smelly, REALLY stinky !!!

stupid-looking goat =p

u look at me how i eat !!! STRESS LEH !!!

hi mr horns !!!

don't barge out, i hate you !!! =x

i like your baby better =p

spotted this rooster dancing about again LMAO !!!

u look at me !!! i hide again !!!

who is the gang leader ?? LOL !!!

lazing around huh .... whack u all then u know !!!

my personal favourite

stairway to heaven =)))

why u all keep appearing !!! shoo !!!

no idea what's this photo about.

nice place for old people to sit around.

this plant is special. it's flowers bloom before it's fruits. a snail-looking type of fruit which can be used to cure high fever and stomach bloating.

lovely scenery.

malaysia's most depended on crops. oil palms.

we have ya kun toast they have old town toast selling the same things =.= they charge 60cents for ice water.

at night, we had our seafood dinner at the eastern part of johor bahru at a keylong along the shores.

was pretty dark when i started taking pictures. before that was too hungry to bother LMAO !!

poor living conditions.

the sign board of that restaurant.

spent 3 hours on this entry. hope all of you have enjoyed =p not much photos of me ma haha. take care guys !!!

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8/09/2007 01:13:00 AM