When People Say Goodbye

WEE WEE~~~~

morning shift = SIAN !!!!

reached novena rather early so i went to OCK to have my breakfast instead of QQrice. don't know why so many people love it, the food there don't suck but not that nice also ma. well anyway ... halfway through my meal, dennis walked past.

1st thing that came on my mind is "why he today wear so neat ar ?? qi guai."

after that he walked back towards the shop with his shirt tucked in, i went "o.0". he noticed me this time and asked if i could work at night. he wants me to go back sleep first then come, of course i didn't agree la. ask me sleep back already very hard, bath liao, plus i drank coffee la. CRAZY !!!!

when it was time, i reported to work la, and learned that he is the operations manager now =.= he always do operations manager de stuff what, just that we call him the supervisor. like that also must so happy, then treat us like so nice like that. not exactly nice la, ask us do this do that in nicer tone, give a lil more encouragement instead of criticism. literally try to act like a good superior la, but i told him right in his face, tomorrow he will be different again HAHA !!!!

work like what like that, then halfway dennis showed me my unfinished pac of nutritea YUCKS !!! auntie kept it from me, then dennis scold cause i didn't tell him. busy ma, just take and drink, only eat then must ask what =.= then too busy see wrong flavour, took herbal tea one !!! the taste suck like hell, still ask me finish it, YUCK !!! and worse still, i didn't finish, YET i left it there again today, forget throw away sia !!! die la tomorrow.

i whole day never eat then 3plus sit down eat fried rice also kanna scolded =.= pls lor, we not human ar, he himself eating when we working lor, stupid inhumane male chauvinist pig !!!!

luckily i scramed out of that bloody place at 4pm, changed and headed for NP. god knows what happened later, i sat beside and hunk, just kidding la. i was supposed to go to raffles place to change mrt line but i took the other way, so by the time i reach NP, cannot make it in time already so i asked elmo to help, plus heni also. since i will be passing by AMK, elmo and i decided to meet leong chun haha.

wait for them to reach AMK can sleep so i went shopping =))) bought a jacket and a pairs of heels hehe. finally touched the steering wheel of an initial D machine, so rusty liao la !!!! but those noobs were still amazed =.=

elmo arrived so we went to MOS burger to wait for that si leong chun to come, always so late. was craving for MOS burger's milk tea anyway. when LC came, we cabbed down to toa payoh to catch a movie. don't know why cannot watch at AMK sia !!! haha. "MR BEAN!!!!" kinda lame la, but yet funny though. 3/5 popcorns only. maybe 7bucks still considerable, but not any higher la.

ate at kou fu which is located at HDB hub. the chicken rice sucks, cause the vendor refused to get the steamed chicken for me, but other stalls were already closed as it was already 10pm. and i fucking hate roasted chicken !!! not hate la, but kinda dislike it. chat chat chat, crap crap crap. finally it's time to go home, they sent me to my bus stop, still crap crap crap while waiting for the bus.

tomorrow work night shift, damn sian. i don't know how to recall which day i work how many hours for the past two and a half weeks lor !!! if i don't timothy say he pay me lesser =.= HE DARE !!! before that he was saying that there will be bonus lor =.= i knew it will never be true, he already so niao. heni work whole day take one rice roll also cannot =.= no welfare de, he set the rules he cannot follow also. heni also can't recall the working hours for herself, don't care la, just plot our own ones =p

might be going check up with sheryl on friday or monday depending on my schedule, if not then have to see myself =((( i think most prob if friday cannot then i go by myself le ba. hopefully we get into the same class if not sian tio haha.

i just recalled judas and wee nee telling me that their friends are in the same course as me. well ... judas and wee nee don't know each other, yet the friend they are referring to shares the same name, what a small world. high chance it's the same person but can't be sure of it yet LOL !!! 8 classes leh !!! probability of me and sheryl being in same class is 1/8. see ?? mr yeo, i never forget ok =pppp

so bored ..................................... go try out o2maniac ..

the QUEEN was here, ALL HAIL !!! =)))

' SHATTERED <3>
3/29/2007 12:09:00 AM

goodluck friend, continue gambling and clubbing your life away. you've been my friend for many years, but all my words turn on deaf ears. seems like nothing can stop you from your spendthrift ways, even if you have financial problems, you just borrow. fine, continue mixing with those people, land yourself in hot soup then. i won't mention who you are, that "he/she" should know. good luck to you, take good care of yourself then.

well ... another incident that have quite an impact on me is about a lady i got to know not long ago.

this lady is about 50 yrs of age approximately. she watched a company grow, from no customers, to a never ending queue. she worked wholeheartedly with hardly any complains. when the company required help, she did OT for extra 8 hours, not even one bit of ranting nor unhappiness. she forked out so much for the company, more than any of the employees would.

however, there is this day when she had to work for 13hours. she wasn't exactly in very good health but she still kept up to the required standard of her job tasks. she was feeling hungry as she had not have breakfast and lunch due to busy peak hours in the shop. she took a 15min break back at the kitchen to rest and fill her stomach. that blardie supervisor walked in and scolded her for not telling him. she was SOOO upset that she broke down and cried, yet the supervisor did not feel a drop of remorse, and instead blame her for not respecting him. didn't he realise that he himself ain't showing respect too ??

the rule of the company was already outrageous enough, as the workers are not allowed to take break unless they work more than 6 hours. however, they plan the schedule to be only 6 hours, so every worker can't eat except full-time staffs ?? and that particular supervisor himself, ain't helping out much. he's either on the phone, out of the shop doing "god-knows-what" or just helping abit. he never understands the pains of his workers, and yet is very demanding towards them. if one day, they were to have no more helpers working with them, will the company still stand ??

please la, improve your welfare man. without auntie, there won't be QQ rice also. it's only one outlet, don't act like it's an MNC. with us doing so much extra work and OT, there isn't even a pay rise for those who work more. even when in the contract they promised a pay rise of least to 5 per hr, he still refuse to raise. i don't help much or do OT, but what about the others ?? they nice to bully then u bully la. next day auntie come back u pretend to be nice to her, but not even a word of "sorry", don't act act la uh. even you appear to be guilty, but you still talk behind her back. this type of ppl should burn in hell !!! she's such a nice and helpful worker unlike you, please fuck off man. people will one by one quit because of you. you just be careful la, don't spoil your friend's business fucker.

on a lighter note i shall blog about some happenings as usual haha. was dead beat after work but still had to settle somethings. went down to that VCD shop, that guy asked me out for a drink. i still had 1/2 hr to spare, so i agreed la. he hopes to see me soon haha, but i told him that he'll see me these few days, after that, BYE !!! LOL !!!!

why ?? cause i found another job at hougang plaza =) so near, shorter working hours, lighter job load, better welfare, same pay. so i only have to wake up 1/2 hr before work which is 6pm LOL !!!! though the pay is lesser, i have more time for myself, which is good =p makes work less stressful, and the environment is cleaner, the job scope is smaller. YEAH !! =)

couldn't do my check up for ECH today cause i still don't have the form. if sheryl can't d/l it for me either, then have to go all the way down to NP to print it =((( this will be the 3rd time i go down this month. groans -

waited damn long for mummy, sat at mac and bumped into wee nee and glen =) long time since i saw them. glen and i were talking about digging wee nee out of the kitchen cause she's not working today.

ME: wa weenee so long, it's not her shift leh ... wait she drop into the oil tank haha ..
glen: so bad ..
ME: you go the counter order "one fried weenee meal, got the soft toy??"
glen: -laugh laugh laugh laugh
ME: it will cost me 1000bucks lor, all service charge cause they have to carry her out. then she will jump out from the counter hehe.
glen: more than 1000 leh .....
ME: orh hor, you say weenee very fat la, later i tell her haha.

so lame la. after awhile, weenee "stole" a mc flurry for me =p thanks thanks. they left after a short while then finally, mummy arrived.

went to the salon to do our hair. cut it so much thinner, my hair feels lighter now =) dye it another colour again with red highlights. not bad but i prefer my old colour. couldn't keep it cause the black ones come out already, and it's no point dying the same colour la. plus, my last time that colour actually got highlight 4 colours one, do until day break ar haha.

only had dinner at 10pm, was famished la. was at KFC eating when i saw jason, ghim hian and gang walking past. he waved. surprisingly i didn't feel anything. was just happy to see him, because it's been a long time since i saw his playful face haha. since i can feel nothing. i believe there's a higher hope now for me to forget him =) normal friends we will be !!! =p

so tired, going to hit the hay in 5 mins, morning shift tml. goodnight guys !!!

the QUEEN was here, ALL HAIL !!!! =p

' SHATTERED <3>
3/27/2007 10:56:00 PM

today's working was like SHIT !!! timothy kept scolding and scolding and scolding and scolding. #$%^&* he himself also never do anything, and he's just as slow as us lor =.= but dennis today very wierd, he was very nice to me. even when i hit tio his bone, very pain, he never scold. hmmmmm so wierd.

timothy's wife is nice la. we chat chat abit. she was also from ECH haha.

actually work until 10pm only, stupid timothy ask me do closing. TMD !!! OT pay !!! haha. his mum damn irritating. she always ask us to do things her way, and her ways are totally diff from our normal routine. she messed the place up, things were obstructing our movement, end up who kanna ?? i kanna la, must be my fault =.= damn smart-alec la she. =(((

working morning shift tml somemore, bu shi ren zuo de gong ar. work until 2 pm then must zhao ar !!! go buy laptop =) i told timothy friday will be my last day, ask him prepare my pay check LOL !!! WHO WANT EAT QQ RICE !!! GO KFC LA !!! LOL !!!

QUIT QUIT QUIT =))))

' SHATTERED <3>
3/26/2007 01:18:00 AM

JOKE OF THE DAY:

i had 5 of these tiles like this at first "chicken, caterpillar, 1st flower, 2nd flower and 4th flower". so i took 5 tiles again, inside got another flower, somehow mentality made me take 5 tiles again =.=

and TADA !!! it's becomes like this. da xiang gong !!! 17tiles somemore !!! if not damn sui la !!!

i wanted to take this pic as it was, but the tiles were too long cannot capture. damn super nice right !!! if never stupid stupid da xiang gong, they all sure die haha. original flowers already bao da, with my bai ban, sure got people bao one LOL !!! melissa and hui qi laugh till stomachache la !!! i record holder can !!! WAHAHAHA !!! but that round nobody win, so with those "ka" de money, i still win LOL !!!

elmo's joining us for 4ka mahjong tml =) hopefully hui qi will play also. tml is 20-40cents hehe. everyday mahjong day =p today won 10bucks, then went to coffeeshop makan. ate alot today la. 2 times mixed veg rice, plus orh tau kueh and alot of soft drinks. sorry mel, i dropped the chicken wing you bought for me =xx hehe.

these 2 days are full of nothing but mahjong. had a very bad nightmare this morning, but forget it la, maybe i think too much. goodnight guys !! wish me luck =)

' SHATTERED <3>
3/24/2007 12:29:00 AM

watched the 13th episode of "zhen ming tian nu" so touching la. made me realise actually there are alot of people in this world whom i dote on very much. my mum, jason didi, maybe the other jason too, elmo erm ... my er jie, all those very dear to me. my closer friends la, those who've been through thick and thin, or have helped me stand up in one way or the other. =)

lucky this week i won't be on any same shift as dennis anymore. a break for the week =) though working with timothy is tiring and not so interesting but at least he don't make people's blood boil.

after work i went to the NTUC upstairs my workplace. cause in the morning timothy asked me go buy stuff, so i saw that the groceries there fresher than hougang mall's NTUC. bought some poultry and vegetables back to cook, but ended up falling asleep at 6pm LOL !!!

my mum didn't bear to wake me up so she had maggie mee for dinner =x sorry !!! woke up at 12am, chit-chat abit with mummy and she gave me a big hug =) so heart-warming. cause i wake up blur blur then she laugh at me, saying that next time i like that my children die of hunger HAHA !!!

finally finished a bowl of campbell soup with other ingredients. this week i still have no appetite la, only drink soup, ingredients will throw away one. seems like my appetite's coming back, meaning that will grow fatter again =((((

i have yet to sumbit my enrolment form E, most of the things in the enrolment package looks like nuts to me. very confusing la, have not even got my passport size photo taken. am supposed to mail it by 22nd, but 22nd i post it, by the time it reaches there, hohoho !!! don't know when lo. hopefully they don't lapse my enrolment ba, cause namira told me that alot are vying for the place in my course. -shrugs, didn't know about that.

anyway, i'm on morning shift tomorrow, hopefully Kodak opens early cause photo-taking after work sucks, when my hair is all over the place, sweaty and sticky, YUCKS !!! will be meeting elmo at clementi MRT after work =) hopefully i'll be able to find a cheap and nice lappy there, then my mum will buy it for me when we go down the next time =)

that's all for today, i used to same colour for the font, but this won't last for long =p

' SHATTERED <3>
3/22/2007 01:40:00 AM

today i just felt like bashing dennis up $#$#%^& heni was frightened by my sudden attack of the rice cover LOL !!! but i was seriously pissed off la. then he forced me to wrap 3 rice rolls for him, he'll pay for it but i doubt he need to. i put lots and lots of chili on it, hope he eats it and SCREAM !! haha.

ate KFC after work, went down to that VCD shop but they were having lunch, so the shop wasn't open. played at the time zone there, almost got the major prize can !!! there was a boy beside us spend alot of money on it, i just need a dollar to do that LOL !!! so bad la.

was intending to go NTUC before going home but was simply too lazy. went home, watched the "zhen ming tian nu" then slack slack. met mummy for dinner. went to harvey norman to check out the laptops. will be heading to ngee ann to see if they offer similar models at much lower prices. elmo promised to acc me =) cause he knows more about laptops, will be meeting him at the mrt, cause he scared i get lost. LOL !!!!

maybe first day of school i need to dig my way thru haha. went to NTUC to shop for some groceries then slacked at mac donald with mummy. ice cream with fries =) gave Gelare a miss cause i still think it isn't worth the money haha. rain stopped and walked home =p

halfway thru, my vision suddenly blurred. didn't black out but was like falling asleep anytime soon, everything i see is blur, like in an oblivion where you can't see everything and everybody else around you. but not to the extent where i don't know where i'm going.

still haven't found the last ka for mahjong, don't wanna jio doink play anot leh ... no mahjong, no life =((( mahjong on fri at marsling, any takers ???

' SHATTERED <3>
3/20/2007 10:40:00 PM

hooohooohoooo ............ mel just hit the spot in my tag haha. whether i feel right or not, i lvoe who or not, why they bother so much ar ?? hmmm hack care la, a bunch of idiots w/o names(at least to me they do not have names).

already decided to put down these 2 people whom have been in my heart. at least i'll try my best to do so. what jarrel what jason, think so much also no use. make me feel worse only, though i'm also at fault but why live in the past ?? though i may not sucessfully forget jason but i wish that i can at least not think of him too much. zai zhe me shuo, we also break up for a good 9months plus le, it's time i start to pull him outta my heart already.

i watched the ou xiang ju "zhen ming tian nu" by S.H.E, a rather old show already. it's quite touching la, somehow those memories flooded back. not like someone died to save me la, but just some small details. then halfway thru, i suddenly ki siao. i was thinking .........

one day jason also have to get married or get a new gf.... if i no forget him then see him with other girl very tong ku right .... then what should i do leh ?? get another guy i love and marry before jason does =) at least got an wei haha.

bullshit la haha. by then i don't think i'll be that si xin ta di over him liao. as for jarrel there ar, wish him good luck lo. already made it very very clear to him already. lalala~~~

so now .... i can just do whatever i want =) don't need to bother so much about guys liao. there's one type of people i admire. they have their guys but they can still do whatever they want with such freedom. like .....

her guy wishing so hard for her to go out to catch a movie or something. normally girls will just be soft-hearted and agree. but then this type of person will like postpone it. not cancel but postpone haha. make the guy sooooo what la !!! but i just wonder ...... they won't feel anything meh ?? LOL !!!

aiya, find a new guy, handsome handsome, rich rich LOL !!! xiang de mei !!! if he turns out to be a joe millionaire i die wahahaha !!! but i'll just find someone that i can love, and he love me too =p wait till the time comes ........ :)

anyway, heni joined me for work today =) at least i have company now. when dennis piss me off i can complain to her LOL !!!! she wrap the rice roll until 300plus grams i down there laugh !!! haha. after work we went to the VCD shop downstairs. nothing to do ma, ended up buying 2 VCDs AGAIN !!! recently i spend alot on VCDs. it's a nice thing to do, slacking at home after work, watching VCDs haha. was thinking of getting the "scary movie" and "just my luck". i watched "just my luck" before but thought it wasn't worth that money. didn't get "scary movie" cause heni say it was really lame. so i ended up with "school of rock" and "the break-up". old movies, "the break-up" is because i haven't watch, got discount so buy lor =p

then the guy asked about our work, had a lil chat. end up i leave my contacts with him, so that if they employing they call me =p imagine, i quit QQrice go downstairs work haha. he ask if i got any requirement, i say higher pay than QQrice =x LOL !!! but more slack la, there no people one, then can sit down. QQrice tired like siao la !!! VCD shop can buy alot VCD also =) and can watch whatever movie during work that you want hehe. if they call then i tiao cao =x

reached home watch abit of VCD jiu peng san already. cause i didn't sleep for 2 days liao. my eyelids were half closed during work, yawn hundreds of time. but the funny thing is, when no customer i only tired. i see customer, look at them, WA buay tahan !!! LOL !!! see liao also sian la !!!

working morning shift again, for the whole week. but heni must report one hour earlier wahahahaha .... i get to sleep longer. talking about sleep .... look at the time now ... though i slept just now, but i still wanna sleep !!! so you guys, don't sleep too late ok ?? goodnight !!!!!!!!!!!!!

' SHATTERED <3>
3/20/2007 01:56:00 AM

i also don't know what to say about those people. cause they always say i only look at other people's faults but now they are also looking ONLY at my faults what right. haha, so same thing applies to them.

i'm very glad to know that me and my FRIENDS are alright already. i mean those who really try to understand me instead of blaming me straight away. they took time to bring me out of that shadow and counsel me. that's when i see who's my true friends =) thanks guys. i know i shouldn't "ji jiao" with what other people say about me cause people who are sincere in making friends with me will not always harp not my mistakes. even if i made a mistake, they try to correct me instead of quarrelling. i really need to thank them for always giving me a chance to explain and lending me a listening ear.

of course i'm not saying that those who never say anything is not my friends la, but after this "storm" at least i know who's true to me and who's just putting up a nice show for everyone to see. i don't have to say it out, i know it in my heart. if you are one of them, i believe you will know it too =)

enough of stupid saddening things. today my supervisor pissed me off 2 times. we had a debate regarding sales ethics, haha let him win la. argue so much also no use, he's my boss i have to listen to him. auntie seow cooked veg for me today knowing that i had not much appetite. but i really have to say sorry to her cause i left it untouched. this whole week i don't have appetite to eat. even when i'm hungry at home, i can only finish campbell soup. see solid food feel like vomitting. during work not so bad la, cause i know i'm not eating that haha.

after work had some disputes over the phone. perhaps because my friend misinterpret the conversation then he told me somethings very hurting. so abit of here and there, then ok liao. but i cried all the way from novena to marsling, very paiseh. train alot people lo. but was just feeling kinda hurt, as long as my other friend believe then it's ok if other people misunderstand, because most impt is that he don't misunderstand.

reached melissa's place and mahjong with her crazy friend LOL !!! today play 3 ka only. at first keep fang pao, later on change place even worse. can ting pai nv fang pao happy liao. lose 30plus. but the 3rd pok i sit back my feng shui wei then get back about 10plus bucks, so end up lose 15bucks. not too bad la, considering that i didn't sleep for the past 2 days haha. they say i "hop sai" LOL !!!

trained to YCK with hui qi. she going for another mahjong session !!! crazy la !! haha, she 3ka siao, ask her play 4 ka she don't like. then chat chat chat about crazy stuff. then i told her, next fri and sat, we make mel "tu" back her 25bucks today LOL !!! but she don't "he zuo yu kuai" hehe. so bad of us. but mel also always ask me "tu" back one what wahahaha.

today got the "ren ci" charity don't know what show. that fa shi really have very strong determination. salute him man !!! if i can climb 1/8 of what he climb, miracle lo LOL !! maybe i can't even get the 1st step on. pei fu pei fu !!! bryan wong and quan yi feng gave quite a touching speech too. but i just don't understand why desmond koh keep asking the reverend to talk when he's resting haha. so what la !!! people very tired you know !!! LOL !!!

type type type, until i so tired le. 52hours never slp le. later go slp 6hours must wake up again. SIAN !!! tomorrow heni's joining me for work =))) YAY !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
3/18/2007 11:55:00 PM

hohoho so much of crap. suddenly my blog is infested with gutless people. why do you have to hide your identity just to bad-mouth and pin-point people ?? obviously you are ashamed of yourself. well IF you do remember, i only said that i welcome logical criticism, not SENSELESS ones.

ok let me first say that, whether you think i'm a girl or a woman, it seriously doesn't make much of a difference to me right ?? so it's like another load of rubbish. so you agree with that nameless don't-know-guy-or-girl-de-aqua.

AND AND AND !!! so are you telling me that you can see my brain ?? HOHOHO what a brainless statement. so it contains ALL my righteousness and everybody's wrongs. OHHH is it ?? at least i have righteousness to own up for whatever i say, unlike some scaredy cat hiding behind the screen. yes it contains people whom i thought have done injustice to me. NOW you tell me. don't you remember them too ?? so you aren't human ?? if you are really so great as to credit people for doing things right, then why are you here barking so loudly ?? when this don't concern you.

perhaps i should tell you, you are not in any way related to us (i hope so). out of 100days, i don't see you for even once. if you don't know what's happening, please stop wasting my time to have to read your tags which totally makes no sense. if you don't have a good understanding of the situation, you aren't fit to comment. with this, i think it's obvious who's brain is peasized.

and i totally know the reason why "godlike" thinks that i'm always argueing to be in the right. he says that i never apologise as if i'm always faultless. but he should really try to point out at which point of time did i say i was perfect ?? did you say this because YOU are NOT the one i apologise to ?? i do say "sorry" to my friends, but not to you. if you still think i'm always in the right, then too bad for you, you can't understand simple english.

and i just don't understand why you two just cannot open your big dog eyes to read. i don't care whether i piss people off anot, cause if they wanna be pissed, i don't even need to do a thing, and they can be pissed already. it's all about their own feelings towards me, and i never forced them to love me ?? if this you still can't understand, then you better stop tagging, waste space.

after so much of explanation, you all still cannot understand, that just goes to show how you two even know me well enough. if you two still don't get it, i see no point continuing to rant cause stupid means stupid, say so much also no use. cause you say one sentence, before they even catch half, they already start to go out of point already.

SO LAME !!! i guess they will never dare put their names one la, this type of people reveal their identity, the sky drop ar !!! worse still, they impersonate to sow discord. i depiese them. SEE PROPERLY, this is me, jolynn chew say one. I DEPIESE PEOPLE WHO HIDE THEIR IDENTITY WHEN BAD-MOUTHING PEOPLE. fair enough ??

as what tong lam has told me, i already cleared some misunderstandings between tong lam, elmo, kai qi, jeffrey and many many more people la. i can't be bothered who's right who's wrong, just say "Sorry" then forget everything la. so now things at that side is ok already.

as for jarrel i can't say nothing except "you just don't know." i'm sure many of you will have heard about this before. "a true heart needs no explanation because explaining means hiding. any insincere gesture can never be clarified no matter what amount of words are used."

so far so true. your mum loves you, you can see it one. she don't have to tell you everyday or show it out, it's the everyday feeling you know. it's the way the love comes out of the heart, not the mouth. so no point telling me, you did you did but infact i don't see anything. even your sister can vouch for that. she also agrees that girlfriend is not your priority now, so why find one ??

why make other people commit to you when you can't do the same ?? i've been repeating myself, and i don't think you know because you still haven't found the one you really love. when you find her, you will know the difference and agree that actually it was just an infatuation from you to me.

stead also stead liao, break also break liao, who wrong who right also not important. just take it as we wasted half a year building nothing ba. and regarding your family side, i don't think you have much to say. i can try my best to do 100things for you, but they just need to do one small lil thing to make you forget all i've done. so till now, i have to admit the fact that i mean very very little compared to everybody else around you except your enemies, but do you know how much you once meant to me ??

did you even realise ............. the times when i had to hide the truth and tell people you care about me the most. did you realise what difficulty i took to tell people that my boyfriend loves me ?? because i didn't feel that love from you.....

you still mean alot to me, but whenever i see you, i see the pain, i feel like running away. i treat you with such contempt now so that i won't be so vunerable in front of you. i don't wanna show you, the way you made me cry, on the journeys alone back home, during the times when you weren't there.............

' SHATTERED <3>
3/18/2007 11:18:00 PM

this is all extracted from cailing's blog. i had a good time nodding and laughing at the same time. so i thought i'll share it with you guys :) credits to http://www.sweetsedation.blogspot.com

sounds like advertising ?? hhaha, but i didn't really ask before i ripped it =x so i feel kinda guilty haha. why not when xiaxue's content ?? cause she so famous, news spread around like fire, so i can't be bothered LOL !!! =xxxxxx

Okay, MALE EGO. What is up with that? I don't get it, I don't understand. Does it hurt to be the first one to say sorry, or the one who gives in? Man pride, I tell you, can get on my nerves at times. I'm sure I'm not the only girl to think like that! Of course I don't have anything against The Ones With Dicks. It's just their ego I don't comprehend. Especially Jerks and their fucking egos.

Let's see:

Scene 1 - The Classic Example They never ever ever ever ever EVER admit that they're wrong, even when the facts are staring right at them in their faces! Even when they do admit, they'd be, " Sorry lahhhh.." which obviously has a hidden meaning that goes like this - I'm just admitting I'm wrong for the sake of doing so, but actually I know I'm right. Come on, when I say I'm looking for Mr. Right, I don't expect his middle name to be Always.

Scene 2 - I'd rather die than have my manhood cut off.I was talking to a fellow girlfriend when she told me this. Their manhood practically has a mind of its own. No further explanations needed, I presume? However, I do understand that without it, you can't pro-create. So fine, but let's just give the comparing of sizes/lengths/diameter/width/whatever a rest shall we? After all, we're not that interested so you can also leave your friends' information out from the conversation.

Scene 3 - I Tarzan, You Jane.I guess there is something that goes way back into the primitive times about males being the one doing everything like putting the food on the table and also, there are a few certain things that they just can't accept females to do. Or maybe there is something about the Damsel In Distress that appeals to the males, or that helpless frail womanly female that drives them wild. Nowadays, females are being more independent, more self-reliant and in some families, the guys are not the ones who bring in the dough but the females. And in certain companies, the superiors are mostly females. Basically, all MCPs(Male Chauvinistic Pig) should learn to accept that. Some jerks/guys hate to hear our opinions and think that our opinions are insignificant. And if something bad happens, they'll say, Why didn't you tell me earlier?! Then when you remind them that you in fact DID tell them, they'd take it as nagging and shut you out from their ears. It's frustrating!Women are not innately inferior to you!

Scene 4 - I love Virgins!I think I will laugh my ass off typing this one out. Guys want their spouses to be virgins, then if they expect so much, don't you think that it would be also nice for them to be the same? " Oh, guys can screw around because their future wives will never know if they're virgins or not.No hymen to tear."For one thing, the hymen can be torn during sports, dickhead. I'll be laughing when you get STDs or AIDS." I don't know if I will still marry my girlfriend when I find out she's not a virgin."Unless she's a whore, then it's different. But then again, why are you dating a whore? Kinda tells us alot huh.Anyway, the idea of virginity is so overrated, but I am not encouraging pre-marital sex. Read again :I am not encouraging pre-marital sex.

Scene 5 - Uhhhh..Guys cannot, cannot cannot and will never never express their innermost feelings. I think even an ' I love you' will cause them to get tongue-tied. Maybe they think it's gay, I don't know. But being a little sensitive won't hurt. OMG and this has to lead to insensitivity, a huge part of guys. Somehow they don't get why we're angry or sad. Especially when it's your fault!

Eg 1 Finally! You two can spend a Saturday together. Oh glorious glorious! Finally he is free on Saturday night or SO you think.

The Guy: Hey, I am going out with my friends on Saturday night, or do you want to go out? I can always cancel it.
You: Uhh, nah it's okay. Go out and enjoy yourself! I don't mind.
The Guy : Alright, babe. You're the best girlfriend in the whole wide world.

You just smile a big fuckingfake smile, and think about how it's like to strangle a person and if it's worth going to jail for.COME ON, wake up. I think they're only asking out of being polite. I hate last minute changes or whatsoever, though this isn't about last minute changes but I digress.Of course you say you don't mind, you wouldn't want to seem as a controlling girlfriend right. A whole week and the ONE day you thought you guys can spend together is taken up. Friends are important, but really, do you think we will not mind at all?

Another example of this insensitivity is when he flirts with someone else in front of you! and claims it's nothing. You know it hurts? And especially they don't get how we need some TLC during our most vulnerable times, our moodswings. It would be nice if they actually cared a little more, listened a little more and talked a little less. They take it as insecurity and get pissed. Sheesh -rolls eyes.Some don't even know how to be sweet or romantic, which makes the relationship boring. Some whisper sweet nothings and you feel loved, but yet, you feel insecure around them.

It's a funny thing, how The Ones With Dicks work.

Conclusion:Guys think with their dicks, well, most of them anyway.

something a lil more ok one haha.

LAME SHIT." Everyone's in love with Fall Out Boy.""Sis, tell him that you're in love with NCC because they're the Fall In Boys."WHAT GEORGE BUSH MIGHT SAY." To me, having sex is like the Iraq Campaign. I WILL NOT PULL OUT."Omfg, I think I laughed, died and went to heaven.

' SHATTERED <3>
3/18/2007 09:15:00 AM

hiyah after talking so much. i've sorted things out with tong lam. everything's kinda alright on that side. other things are still in a horrendous state. but i still must thank tong lam for those advices, i think can apply with other issues too =)

but jarrel, i have to be really frank now. i admit that a part of me hates you. you guys might think i'm joking, but this time i'm not. but i just don't know what to say to you to make you understand. after saying the same thing and being misintepreted for half a year, by more and more people, i decided to heed tong lam's advice.

some things you just LL, let them say what they want. they wanna still condemn you, say what also no use. some things you just have sallow even if you don't want to.

yeah, i'm just gonna do that. i'm not gonna clarify anything, anymore. cause if people already fixed their impression on me, no amount of anything can change it. i change myself, for the sake of myself and future friends, not for those sceptical people who still choose to pin-point at my past. so IF any of you want to combined my char last time with my changed self, then it's up to you. i just shut up, ok ?? happy with that ??

as for those who are willing to wait for me to change and perhaps guide me thru, thanks !!! it's nice to have people who are willing to give you some support when everyone snobs at you. but i really need time and alot of effort cause once i kind of cannot tahan and flare up, the effort all in the soup liao. so now i will learn how to control the limit of my temper. temper is sure have, but i'll try my best to minimise it.

so friends(those who are staying on), thank you guys first !! =p kudos to tong lam, cause he enlightened me. and also because i don't expect him to be the one cause i don't see him more than 50times a yr LOL !!!

no more flaming !!! you spam all you want, make yourself look like a fool. and i shall be honest, i'm referring to that smart-alec godlike =)

tong lam gonna scold me. he say he don't like someone he show it straight, wait he say i copy him haha. CRAZY WOMAN !!! mahjong tomorrow !!! next fri and sat too !!! YEAHHHHHHHHH !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
3/18/2007 03:53:00 AM

first i'll still like to thank my friends for trying to cheer me up. but sorry it's like 4-6 issues all at a time. sometimes i'm venting about this, sometimes about that. so if your eyes hurt, then avoid my blog for sometime haha.

and this long long essay i'll have to type to godlike, you all can skip this part la huh.

eh who you fucking think you are. i've always been like this last time. don't act like you know me very long lor. if you really do, put your big arse name down la !!! always i'm correct, is it ?? then you point out which part is false lor. is not always i correct, because whatever i do you also will say wrong =.= so up to you la huh, i wrong or correct also none of your fucking business.

i na de qi fang bu xia ?? PLEASE LA !!! i just don't wanna leave him in the lurch. if you see your friend left 10 bucks for a week, then he buy mac or play mahjong you will stop him ?? if he eats bread everyday, he can survive the week. i'm just trying to stop him, not i fang bu xia. if i wanna see him like that and don't care, i can one lor =.=

and i already said, you don't know me that well. since when other don't love me ?? others love me anot you know ar ?? unless you once loved me la =.= don't need say i BHB, i was just trying to rebutt your brainless statement.

OHHHH i see ... you don't know what the hell i thinking, of course you dunno la !!!! if you know then you live in my body ??? my thinking pissed alot of people ?? SO WHAT !!! i can think whatever i like, do i have to change it because you buay song ?? NOOO !!! cause i don't fucking give a damn whether you are happy with me anot. there are enough ppl being unhappy with me, plus you makes no diff. and also ........ they don't WALK pass my blog.

it's already quite a cliche, if you don't know it then you are a mountain tortoise for sure.

many of the bloggers would just tell people like you:

"NOT HAPPY, CLICK THE TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER."
"BUAY SONG ?? FUCK OFF !!!"
"DON'T AGREE ?? SHUT UP !!"

if believe you have heard of all these before, i won't shoot them at you. i believe if you have nothing constructive to say, you should know what to do.

why am i being so rude to you ?? because i hate people typing essays in my tag w/o their real identity. and worse of all, you choose a name so unsuitable for yourself. "godlike" PUI ar !!! i always think i'm right. ok fine, now i tell you what i feel that is wrong with you ok ??

you have nothing better to do than to come here and type rubbish which you think i will seek as advice. maybe when i die .... and you are speaking for people. i shall quote what my sister always say "is you not us, speak for yourself" you buay song with me, you tell me, don't add in other people. they buay song, they will tell me, so you STFU. just say you not happy and zip your big ass mouth.

and the worst is, you actually tell me to practise what i preach, not only say to others. HOHOHO !!! so all the while you know what i'm doing ?? then you must be someone like a stalker or what ?? then lemme ask you, how many times do i kick your ass when i doze off ?? =.= please la, speak for yourself. if i always think that i'm right, you also do the same not what ..... LAME !!!

then to the 3rd person.

you feel that you didn't smug, of course la, i'm the one being smugged at =.=

you got a high-paying job, then ok, nothing to blame about that. but the way you talk and smsed to me totally changed can !!! so yeah, your cousin's boyfriend gave you this chance, everything also shun their yi si lor. fine i nothing to say.

buy drinks for them, you may think i gey gao money with you. but you think again, i need to gey gao about 50cents anot ?? if you were buying the drink for me, you would have just anyhow chosen one and told me that "aiya sui bian la". that was what you always did last time, sui bian la.but somehow when you do anything for your other friends or whoever la, you are very meticulous about the task de lor. why last time you never like that ?? now like that la.

aiya i don't know how to explain it to you, but the way you behave that day may not be seen to others at smug because they are the ones being affected. but i am, because i was the one who introduced you to that job. lowly-paid or whatever you may say cause u earning alot now. why did i say u smug ??

because knowing that you don't turn up for work, i kanna. you don't even have the initiative to call up and inform ?? oh why ?? because their pay lower, no need call is it ?? if you really such a responsible person, you should have at least made it clear either on the call when they asked you to work, OR before sat comes. if a humble and responsible person is in you, then you would have call up to save the trouble. like what you said, you will take responsiblity =.=

on the other side, there were some unconfirmed bad news about a friend. cannot say much here, in case i SPREAD =.= so two people asked me help check up on the details to find out the truth. so i asked those who knew abt it, or those who know this friend more than me for details. so it becomes my fault i spread. FINE, sorry. if i knew i had to carry this black pot, then i ask people to check themselves lo.

i can't say much about anything now incase i say the wrong things. there one thing tong lam told me: yishun people also condemn you liao lor, your attitude like that

ok, like i don't know. who condemn me you tell me for what ?? can i do anything about it ?? if they want condemn me, then i can force them not to ?? so i simply told them, not only yishun people. everyone condemn me, you also. i find this sentence so correct.

everyone condemns me, then please flood my tagboard with some sense other than flaming unnecessarily. if you scold me with some logic, i will shut up. but if i can find something to condemn about you, i will. condemn me lor, i'm a strong-headed person who never listens.

if that is what you feel then carry one. but i have to remind you, if as you said, i won't listen, then won't you be the fool trying to scold me ?? i won't listen la !!! lame shit. i am the bull shit =)

' SHATTERED <3>
3/18/2007 01:13:00 AM

a few weeks, one or two maybe, i knew somebody from some friends. he gave me a special feeling, or perhaps, he kind of captured my attention. he's a lil unique compared to other people i know. so far only 2 people gave me that type of feeling. one is him, the other, obvious enough.

however, my heart told me not to get serious with guys anymore. it's just the beginning of this feeling, easy to remove. so yeah, i'll just let it go. also because i know our char are far too diff from each other to the extent where there will be many parts of our personalities that both of us can't accomodate. plus, i'm definitely not his type. i'm not mature, not understanding, not gentle, just none of the qualities that a guy seek in his girl. this type of guy won't like me de. i haven't started to develop any "feeling" for him, so just forget it =)

after this turmoil i have been since 9th june 2006 till now, i think it's time i went back to myself 2 years ago. in this almost one year period, 3 people came in and outta my life, only one could stay in my heart, the 2nd one in my mind.

the 3rd one, i don't know what to do, no amount of anything i say can wake him up, so i rather just not bother. not that i still like him, but i will never ever leave somebody in danger like that. i forced him to do many things that he don't like, threw tantrums at him, make things difficult. but i have my reasons to it. i'm already trying my best to help, however i can't tell you why, because things are not meant to be said when time isn't ripe. since you just refuse to do anything despite my countless hints and naggings, then forget it. prepare for your own future then. now play is the most important to you, as long as you get what you want, you don't care how others feel, or rather, you forget about people regardless whether they are impt or not. continue to seep into your own unrealistic sanctuary, i wash my hands off you. better than i get disappointed time and again. is it really so hard to do something for a person you claim to be the most important to you. or was it just talk and nothing done ?? i see no effort put in, a total waste of my time on you. i'm disappointed and upset over you, totally.

go ahead, smug at me when you have a better paying than me. go ahead and say "haha, who wants that shit you introduced." you'll see in no many years what i mean. your high-paying job is not forever. don't weigh anything with money, if not, don't regret when you can't get something that money can't buy in future. i'm talking about your future. i hate you for not taking a sense of responsibility for whatever you say or do in a moment of folly.

you are the most shallow person i've ever seen. only considering the benefits displayed in front of you, and not bothering about any consequences you or others have to face after your foolishness. selfish to other, and yourself too. as long as the person gives you what you want, then everything is ok. after that, you just kick them away, no responsibility taken.

there was once, 2years back, one of my ex-boyfriends told me to be serious in relationships, as in, really dead serious. he told me not to toy around anymore, to treat the feelings of others with more caution. i tried, ever since then, i was serious in every relationship after that. but i regret doing so.

ever since i changed, none of them seem to take me seriously. i often have emotional upsets and nobody cares cause they think i'm just like that, it'll be over soon. but no, i will always remember. nobody takes me seriously too, so why should i ?? i hate him for changing me, to put me into all this shit. i could have lived w/o this agony if not for him. afterall, all the people i loved had never loved me back. so ?? what's the big deal ?? i don't need love, i can just flirt with anyone i want.

i rejected a guy today. i almost agreed to be his girl. but i don't like ah bengs, and my boyfriend to go clubbing or stay out late every single day with god-knows-who. maybe twice a week, but not every alternate day. when he proposed, i was happy for a second because someone "love" me. not that love i want but at least something half of it. but i just don't wish to get hrut or be involved in any sticky situations, so i kind of isolate myself today.

the one i love most don't really care about me already. i was depressed yesterday but i didn't wanna find him with that crying face, so i told him i'll go when day breaks. but he rejected cause he wanted to sleep. well well well, i can't expected too much right. but it's damn different now, not even when we were just friends, not even like before 30th of april. not like when he was my god daddy. i always wished for him to say, "i lend you my shoulder." or " you still have me to care(as a good friend). but even that can't be done now. that's what serious relationships do to you. when you are serious, people don't want to, thus avoiding you after a breakup and nothing becomes normal at all. maybe i confide in him too much that he's sick of me. i wanna disappear from him for a long period of time then find him so that he feels better seeing me. but once or twice in a few months, i just feel like having a long chat with him.

i know that he's not willing to listen to my nonsense, but he's just patronising me because right after we broke up, he told me that he'll still care for me. this is not what i want, or rather what i don't wish to have at all. i just hope for a lil care from a friend which is true from the heart, not some shallow words that come out from the mouth.is it so diff to care for someone you don't like or is sick of, or your ex ?? but the main reason should be: you shifted attention to other people already. or maybe, you didn't shift, you choose to care for everyone, except me. anyway, thanks.

SHIT !!! i just said that i won't be serious =.= i sound liek everyone's letting me down huh ?? of course i too, let down many people before. perhaps this is retribution to heed that fella's words and be serious. so from now on, i'll just be what's me in year 2004, toy around. when i like it, i be good, when i don't like then i don't meet you. bad luck for any guy not reading this and meeting me in future. i can jinx you if you come close to me now, so just stay far far. i try not to play around la. but if someone "song shang men lai" then too bad for him. now it's only friends that i treasure, not guys anymore.

jolynn can be the worst poison you ever find. she can make you hate her like what so just stay away from her. try hurting her now, and see what you get. maybe she'll just kill herself and haunt you like a malicious ghost.

I WANNA FLIRT.

' SHATTERED <3>
3/17/2007 02:36:00 AM

whenever i confided in you, i always quietly wished that you will take me back by your side. like what you did on the 30th of april 2006. you, to agree to be the 1st one to really love me and give me warmth. though i said that no one loved me before, but i know you did. i wish for the day you will come running back and hug me tight. i even dream about it everyday in my sleep, but i still have to wake up. it's so sweet yet exaggerating, but all too true.

when i say nvm, it always minds the most.

i seriously can't get over you, but what to do ??

.................. who ?? up to you to guess.

people always slash their wrists, but don't they think that it feels better on fat thighs ?? wrist-cutting is outdated la.

i had a long conversation with jason, i did 95% of the talking. it was supposed to be because someone else deeply hurt me but it becomes "him". not he hurt me, but i just can't forget one bit. i always say "yes i forgot you" but in my heart ?? well the answer is abvious. i still keep all our photos, the memories. i thought of erasing all of them, but i can't bring myself to do it. i just love you toooooo much. i don't know why.

somehow my gut feeling tells me that you have taken interest or maybe fall in love with someone new. i know i very kan bu kai, but i just can't accept that fact. i want you to love me, i really do, but i never dared to tell you, because i don't want to ask stupid questions. i already know the answer, so why ask ?? maybe you really think i forgot you already, cause you don't even view my profile not to say read this blog.

well, i shall stop searching for your heart, lest our situation becomes worse. it really hurts enough now, to know that the one you love had never loved you back. i know i've said this many many times, but nothing can really express it.

BUT I REALLY LOVE YOU !!! say you love me too .... please .... miracles don't happen. FUCK

' SHATTERED <3>
3/16/2007 02:59:00 AM

sighs .... i'm using the colour i hate most cause lao niang feeling very down the whole day. and sometimes feeling kam pua du lan. content not suitable to show here. try hacking my ranting area ba, i think only my er jie can do that ba. she knows all the shortcuts in a computer =.=

ok la, very obvious, 5% is because i lost alot in mahjong. i can't blame anyone for that la suay means suay. sit in the same seat throughout(i believe in feng shui), then played 2 poks, win 2 times only. win is 1 tai nia =.= even jarrel sit that sit also win 2 times only. well well well, previous one i won 40bucks minus 18, now lose 31bucks minus 2.5. no win no lose la. but i regret renting the VCD today, not worth it, wasted 8 bucks on it =(

i just got overwhelmed by certain small little expressions i saw la. so overwhelming that i stared in a daze for so long though there's something nice on tv. so much that i need to hide in the toilet to cry. crazy lao niang, PMS ar !!!

2nd reason, cause i fucking search the whole day but can't find the song i want.

3rd reason, i can't fucking enrol before given date and i can't log in to check my timetable.

everything pisses me off la !!! KNN !!!! tak boleh tahan already, i go rant !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PUI ar !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
3/16/2007 12:04:00 AM

Very meaningful, PLEASE READ!!!

A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted !!!!

So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand. The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person...."

"What is marriage then?" the student asked.

The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick. "

The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."

Cheers !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
3/15/2007 12:29:00 AM

back from work =)

yesterday was my first day at work with dennis(supervisor), michelle and aunty linda. nice people =) quite a tiring job for me on the 1st day because i wore the wrong shoes which have no proper support on its soles. but overall, the tasks are considered quite manageable. the rice rolls i wrapped are kinda big LOL !!! the customers gain.

finished work at 2pm, received soooo many msges. sueann asked me for mahjong, and i pangsehed my mum for it =x wahahaha. won around 40plus, but i didn't collect jarrel's share cause he don't have enough money. he say will return me when he gets a job, but i don't intend to collect his share, cause i think he needs it more than me la. could have won more but i purposely lose cause we were running outta time LOL !!! cabbed home and sleep !!!

2nd day at QQ rice !!! with hong(supervisor), trixie and aunty seow. hong is a very very nice guy, cause he more slack LOL !!! trixie was kinda having some contempts towards me at first but ok later. though she can be rather sacarstic all the time but still a nice person, taught me alot of things =p

aunty seow made french toast for us =))) yummy yummy. hong taught me alot about closing and rice-wrapping, THANKS !!! he taught alot alot alot, until my brain cannot squeeze haha, exaggerated la. i kept wanting to do closing early early, cause i scared miss last train. i started closing at 10pm instead of 10.30pm haha. scarly they lose alot of business haha. but close until about 11pm also, imagine if i started at 10.30pm *bish*

today i brought heni and joanna for interview at QQ rice =) heni's most probably working, but joanna that cow can't confirm HAHA, fussy lil pout. jarrel told me that QQ rice hiring him too lols.

then dennis purposely put us on diff shifts. i was supposed to do closing on both sat and sun but i changed sunday to morning shift, jarrel kanna sabo-ed. =x but now i thoroughly think through it, actually i made the wrong choice. WHY ??

sat --> closing, reach home 12am, 2am hair dry sleep.
sun --> 11am, wake up at 8am =.=

but if start work late very sian one, before that don't know what to do. like today, i wait for time to reach. went to hougang mall and had lunch for 1 and 1/2 hours =.= i normally take 20mins. then i went to hougang station, wait for three 6 min intervals before i board the train. took to dhoby ghaut then to marina bay to bounce back. instead of alighting at novena, i further it to braddel, and return back to novena. and i was still earlier than them !!!! brought them for interview, and i was half an hour early for my shift =.= my supervisor happy i sad lols. then just laze around and start 15mins early lor, my loss haha.

so damn tired la. but can't sleep cause my hair's still wet. how to wake up to do opening tomorrow !!!!

' SHATTERED <3>
3/15/2007 12:13:00 AM

i see people around trusting bad company so much, be it their friends or family. well, i don't have the right to step in and pull them out, so i'll just leave them to be. if not i'll just be making people unhappy again. =.= WHATEVER. i say once, i say twice, don't listen then forget it lo. NOMB anyway, i live my life you live yours. wahahaha.

alright, let's not talk about unhappy things. mahjong-ed on fri and lost alot, to the same person, mr jarrel choo. but it's ok =) then had mahjong on sat too. jarrel stayed over at someone's house then acc me to see doc at kovan. got quite pissed with people, even more pissed with another "people" but sua forget it. not my business also, i got no right to say anything, i'm always the bad guy.

then cabbed down to marsling for mahjong thanks to someone. the cab fare was a wholly 13bucks. well, it's pretty inconvenient to go there from kovan anyway, so i just take it as i wanted the cab ride myself. bumped into melissa while queueing at POSB machine. i didn't see her so i thought she wasn't queueing.

she shouted "eh !!! don't cut queue leh !!"
me thinking .. "cannot talk properly ar =.="

was about to shout back when i saw her, that siao char bor !!! haha, see her make me wanna laugh already. so she was the one shout so loud to kajiao la !!! haha. jarrel went to top up his ez-link card while we went to NTUC to buy drinks and 4D. melissa don't want to acc us wait for jon as we arrived kinda early, so she went back home first.

jon came and we mahjong-ed. our mahjong money was rising and dropping like stock market la LOL !!! at first lose alot, then win alot, then lose even more, then win back. but in the end lose 6bucks only, still ok la LOL !!! but the funny thing is ....

take melissa's phone to check 4D ...

ME: wa sian, never tio. wa!!! this number come out again. jarrel help me play la, no mood liao.

walked over to take the 4D ticket and tear it away ...

happy happy walk to MRT. halfway through ...

ME: OH SHIT !!!!!!!!!!! i forget leh !!!

jarrel: forget it ??

ME: i buy 4D for both days leh !!! but i tear liao.

jarrel: throw away ar ??

ME: ya !!! in the rubbish chute. tomorrow open 1st prize i jump down !!! haha.

jarrel alighted at khatib while i trained to YCK to change bus.

woke up at 2plus. what a pig. laze around until 4plus. went out with mummy for suki sushi =) who ask warboy don't want go with me hehe. ate like what like that, until i feel my tummy threatening to burst any minute. bought slippers =) acutally want to buy another of "i-don't-know-what-it's-called-shoe" but they don't have a new pair. i didn't want to take the one on display, so i gave it a miss. went home, did my nails and slept till now =)

had chicken rice for lunch =x later cough come back haha. and starting work tml, freaking early can !!! 8am leh, who would eat rice balls at 8am ?? haha. but nvm, got money can liao =p hope my cough recovers in time, if not customer will eat infected rice balls x))) just kidding la !!!

go back for more sleep, feeling so lazy haha. CYA !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
3/12/2007 03:07:00 PM

i'm employed !!! wahahaha. by QQrice at novena. any of my friends wanna join me ?? go apply, i pretend don't know you can liao LOL !!!

i'm actually quite surprised la. cause that time sheryl worked there, quarrelled with the supervisor then quit the job. jarrel went for interview but didn't get it. i went the next day with jarrel, the don't know who recognises jarrel as sheryl's brother !!! LOL !! cannot blame, they look too alike. i thought will leave bad impression, but never WAHAHAHAH !! money money~~

played mahjong and lose alot today. mostly jarrel win de =.= nvm la haha. then we play until too late ma, so they rushed through the game in case i got scolding from that stupid bastard. when we dilly-dallied, i kept losing. when we were rushing i won some LOL !!! then their mac delivery arrived, waste so much time collecting money. then rush even faster win even more =) but never win back my capital la.

made a new friend but i don't know his name =x good-tempered but quiet i would say. he look around 18-23 years old. but he's much older than that la !!! i was kinda shocked. i can't reveal his age here, not very nice la huh. don't want to offend anyone.

finished playing then ran downstairs, grab a cab and ZOOM off. left seng kang at 11.50pm, reached my house at 11.56pm, FAST right !!! the uncle power LOL !!!

guess what ?? i told that bastard i'm starting work on tues, he say "ask your manager don't put you on closing shift, reach home before 12am" WTHHHHHH !!! fucking stupid bastard la. company he open one ar =.= he never even contribute to the family still dare control me, he never even put in any effort to make sure his daughter was happy during the growing period. instead he make me more unhappy only. what fucking right does he have to make my life miserbale ?? he made me watch my friends have fun in chalets and stuff after "o" levels, playing midnight mahjong, going to countdowns. i'm gonna get back at him double when i find the chance too. this suffering will end all too soon. he better watch out, who ask him step on my toes first. KNN PCB !!!

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3/10/2007 12:25:00 AM

just something for you readers =) enjoy !!!

A little girl was talking to her teacher about whales.
The teacher said it was physically impossible for a whale to swallow a human because even though it was a very large mammal its throat was very small.
The little girl stated that Jonah was swallowed by a whale.
Irritated, the teacher reiterated that a whale could not swallow a human; it was physically impossible.

The little girl said, "When I get to heaven I will ask Jonah".
The teacher asked, "What if Jonah went to hell?"
The little girl replied, "Then you ask him ".

A Kindergarten teacher was observing her classroom of children while they were drawing.
She would occasionally walk around to see each child's work.
As she got to one little girl who was working diligently, she asked what the drawing was.
The girl replied, "I'm drawing God."
The teacher paused and said, "But no one knows what God looks like."
Without missing a beat, or looking up from her drawing, the girl replied, "They will in a minute."

One day a little girl was sitting and watching her mother do the dishes at the kitchen sink.
She suddenly noticed that her mother had several strands of white hair sticking out in contrast on her brunette head.
She looked at her mother and inquisitively asked, "Why are some of your hairs white, Mom?"
Her mother replied, "Well, every time that you do something wrong and make me cry or unhappy, one of my hairs turns white."
The little girl thought about this revelation for a while and then said, "Momma, how come ALL of grandma's hairs are white?"

The children had all been photographed, and the teacher was trying to persuade them each to buy a copy of the group picture.
"Just think how nice it will be to look at it when you are all grown up and say, 'There's Jennifer, she's a lawyer,' or 'That's Michael, He's a doctor.'
A small voice at the back of the room rang out, "And there's the teacher, she's dead."

A teacher was giving a lesson on the circulation of the blood.
Trying to make the matter clearer, she said, "Now, class, if I stood on my head, the blood, as you know, would run into it, and I would turn red in the face."
"Yes," the class said.
"Then why is it that while I am standing upright in the ordinary position the blood doesn't run into my feet?"
A little fellow shouted,"Cause your feet ain't empty."

The children were lined up in the cafeteria of a Catholic elementary school for lunch.
At the head of the table was a large pile of apples.
The nun made a note, and posted on the apple tray: "Take only ONE. God is watching."
Moving further along the lunch line, at the other end of the table was a large pile of chocolate chip cookies.
A child had written a note, "Take all you want. God is watching the apples.

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3/08/2007 11:36:00 PM

PEEK-A-BOO !!!! hehe. today was kind of like a fufilling day compared to those during my looonnngggg holiday.

i hate march, because my neighbour is having their stupid renovation, everyday i won't get to sleep past 9am one. #$$#%^&* went to hougang mall buy 4D, then in front got one girl kanna check IC, i faster zhao haha !!!

meet jarrel at novena for job hunt. went to quite a number of places today. like BATA, OUTDOOR SPORTS, POH KIM, QQ RICE.... blah blah la. thinking of trying giordano again but got disappointed so many times, and so hard to get in, SUA la LOL !!! the place damn ulu, always must take cab, i then don't want.

leong chun that bastard damn lazy haha. say want find job, then say novena too far, too lazy. he stay AMK can !!! then after went to bugis and ate KFC for lunch. haha, and my throat condition got worse. lalala~~~

walked round and round in bugis to get sheryl's present. wanted to buy a set consisting of an off-shoulder top, necklace, belt and shirts for her de. but the sales person keep wanting to overcharge. and she said that the necklace were not for sale, those for sale one very ugly can !!!! so ended up with a spag top plus a necklace. couldn't find shorts of her size, got her size one all very plain, not nice de.

went to junction to buy a box to contain all the stuff. very expensive box but nice la, with a lil decoration to tip off the plainess. since i shopped for others, of course got shop for myself la !!! haha. got a sling pouch for 18bucks as compared to cine's 23bucks. wanted only the pouch but the strap cannot remove one. also got a necklace, wanted the same one as hian leng but they charge me 22bucks instead of 10plus as he told me. so i choose another one for 16 bucks. kinda common but i like =p

took a train back to his house. played o2jam and mahjong. within 20mins, he lost 6bucks alrdy, LOL !!! then ming kang called. he came up, then we play awhile more jiu head to central liao. my ID skills suck like hell now but nvm la.

on our way back when we were waiting for bus, we saw something really vile and disgusting.

we saw an ugly guy, with an even uglier girl french-kissing in public. you all might say "french kiss only what, what so big deal, very common nia."

they were doing it very very blatantly can !!! even if we kiss our bf or gf, we will make it quick and cover abit right ?? they were right in the middle of the bus interchange where everyone was watching. and they made no attempt to cover up, or rather, purposely wanna show off =.=

the guy hugged the girl by her breasts can !!! then ming kang say because he breasts and tummy feels the same LOL !!! so bad can. when the bus came, the girl ran off with her fats threatening to burst out of that kiddy and tight spag top. and i can tell you, it was such an appalling sight. she was still smiling like she's on heaven. kanna people eat tofu still so happy, it was so obvious that the guy was toying with her feelings can !!! if he loved her, he won't do such thing to shame themselves in public lor. KAO !!!

the guy boarded the same bus as us, and they chatted on the phone, from yishun to hougang, haven't stop. when we alighted, we noticed that the guy wasn't speaking at all, majiam patronising the girl by just listening. this type of ta por can go die la, no girl want you also no need hurt an innocent one like that ma. give her false hopes, make her dress until like that thinking that you'll like it, make her feel so happy even though being shame and make both of you so ugly in the eyes of everyone. i believe if not for the guy, the girl wouldn't have turned out to be like that lor.

we walked through those private estates to get to my house. then i pretended to walk towards one of the units to convince ming kang that it was my house. me and jarrel's idea la. then we turn one round, walk out of the garden LOL !!! played with the lifts =x baddie i know, but there isn't a soul at that time, so we nv caused much inconvenience.

sherly and her mum only managed to find her present which i hid in her room after like 15mins i think, making jarrel laugh like mad haha. glad that she like it =) she's wearing it tomorrow, so sweet haha.

am actually making a trip to ngee ann tomorrow to acc namira go appeal, but she say don't want already. so should be going to jarrel's house make jelly for sheryl's classmates who will be coming in the evening. hopefully got mahjong LOL !!!

last but not least.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYL !!!! =)

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3/07/2007 11:20:00 PM

wahahaha. ok some journal of my life again. ya, yet AGAIN !!! but i'm just too lazy to upload photos la.

on saturday it was pool and movie with lance and hianleng. waited damn long for a table la. hian leng left around 6pm. so me and lance went to new cathay to catch a movie as we still have lots of time. bumped into jeffrey and his friend there. bought tickets for "pursuit of happyness".

the movie was around 8.20pm so we went to PS to have dinner. initial D-ed at atrium, a bunch of noobs. not really la, but i call them that because they act like very pro but blame the steering wheel when they lose. normally only noobs do this haha. went for the movie then.

nice movie, but not very nice also. i don't know why. it was suppose to be an inspirational and touching movie, however, it couldn't touch my heart. maybe because i watched it with the wrong person =x LOL !!! just kidding.

hmmm about sunday leh, can say that i almost forgot what i did. haha. lemme think ... think ... think ... DUNNO LA !!! haha.

then yesterday i slacked at home. was suppose to meet jarrel but i decided to be lazy and stay at home till he finishes his interviews before meeting him. went out to buy food as i was feeling rather hungry. just nice at this time jarrel made a trip to my house to bring me my liang teh and strepsils =) thanks. was sick the past few days, kept coughing. heaty food is not the only cause la, as diagnosed from the check up.

i was out at that time and did nto bring my phone. so jarrel couldn't contact me, sorry =p opened that bag and saw my TOTO ticket LOL !!! ate alot, plus KFC too ^^ then tio nag by jarrel cause i eat KFC when i'm unwell. well, who ask me not to be able to resist the temptation.

met him around 5plus. walk walk at hougang mall but the walk cost me alot of money. bought white board marker and duster cause er jie was kind enough to give one of hers to doodle on =) as i bought all those, i suddenly had the mood to do cross stitch as it was a long time since i last touched that. well, cross stitch kits aren't cheap.

went downstairs to buy a bag for my mum's present. whole day spend almost 100bucks, in hougang mall can !!! intending to get something for sheryl's birthday there too. but go bugis walk walk see got anything nicer anot first.

it's mum's birthday today. woke up really early cause my new neighbour was renovating his flat. DAMN loud can !!! called jarrel and he couldn't really hear what i was saying. using com at the same time. then i felt myself swaying unnaturally, EARTHQUAKE !!! minor one la. must be because heaven wanna punish my neighbour for waking me up so early x)))

met mum at cineleisure at 2plus. watched "LADY IRON CHEF" and "JUST FOLLOW LAW". both are funny but "LADY IRON CHEF" was kinda exaggerated. not worth the $$$. "just follow law" ok la, the tickets were 6.50bucks each so still ok. not worth it if it's above 8bucks.

had pathetic lunch at the food court which serves terrible mixed veg rice. dinner at a hong kong cafe. quite nice but still not worth the money. kinda quarrelled with my mum over small things la. whenever i try to protect her she push me away and side with the bully =.= nvm, small thing. next time i hack care her lo, if she don't like it.

eyed a pouch at cineleisure just outside the cafe. but it was actually a sling pouch which strap cannot be removed, so i gave it a miss. saw another hand bag quite chio also, but the bags there not worth that money la. tomorrow go bugis then see everything. means tomorrow will spend alot of money also. but will look for job tomorrow, hopefully i get one =)

phew, finish blabbering. that's it guys. goodnight =p

' SHATTERED <3>
3/06/2007 11:34:00 PM

erm .. don't need to "haha and dunno why i need to post another long page of comments" it's exactly the same reason as you did.
"i feel i have the right to clarify my thoughts, if not people will start pointing fingers at us when they read her blog. "

both of our bloggings are rather one-sided i would say, so isn't it natural to feel the need to clarify to avoid further accusations or finger-pointing ?? this i think you won't have much to doubt about cause everyone's the same.

i didn't say you couldn't be harsh on me. i was the one who started being mean. BUT what i said was that you need not repeatedly emphasize on that 5-letter word just to make me feel bad. i know i used it first out of impulse, which i have already apologised. at that point of time, i know you will think that i intentionally use that word to insult you, but you could have just warn me in your post instead of using it in almost every single sentence.

i said that you do not care for jarrel's feelings, i DID NOT once try to judge you. on what basis you asked. to the fact that you didn't think before you said everything. if i care for my friend, i wouldn't have said those things to him. and what's more, is that by saying those, it's not even for his own good, it's just to show your anger. so that is why i claim that you don't care for your friend. about your other friends, i never even commented cause i didn't see how you treat them. whether jarrel thinks you or me are good friends to him or not, that we can't really talk about it, isn't it ?? it's up to him to decide.

you told your boy about it, i didn't say you couldn't. yes, you did whisper to eunice before we started the 2nd pok. maybe you didn't remember. one is your good friend, the other is your boy, BUT i didn't say you couldn't tell them.

try remembering the time when you discussed it with eunice's boyfriend too. 4 of you guys were discussing about it, i saw it and heard it with my own ears and eyes. you started whispering because me and jarrel did it ?? i am affected by your whispers because after they heard we you said, they gave me a unexplicable look, as if i was, erm ... i don't know. and obviously, it didn't feel good. so i whispered to jarrel to tell him about it. point understood ??

ok about your words of anger, i don't doubt you. but you angry also too long already right ?? already last pok liao lor, the matter pass very long liao. so that's why i was wondering if you pusposely said it to hurt or it just came out like that. i misunderstood you, sorry.

i need to tell you that you can't link the case of jarrel winning and giving it to me to this case. that was at his relative's house. the stakes were rather big. plus, we weren't playing on the same table, in other words, we KUP. of course we split winnings or loses. but when we are playing on the same table, we don't split anything at all. when i win i keep, unless he really lose alot, i may just give him a lil from mine to help him abit incase he don't have enough to use.

however, when you claimed that he was being unfair and letting me win on purpose, you can never link that to the previous case. cause at that point of time, i was still winning, so there's no reason why he should let me win, or in other words "fang shui". and i already won quite alot the previous day, so why should he ?? erm .. is this ok and clear already ??

about what you whispered to your boy i won't probe, cause since you whispered, it must be something personal between the two of you.

with this, i think there's no need to keep on ranting again. i believe it's already very clear now. whether to keep the ill-feelings or not, i leave it up to you. but as jarrel know me, i'm angry for at most 2 days, and then it's "sunday" again. =)

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3/05/2007 11:23:00 PM