When People Say Goodbye

today ... miss bee(or whatever he calls me) is feeling kinda emo ...

the day started with a heavy rain just as i was about to go out ... mommy was bringing me to Thai Express and of all that could happen, it rained ... #@@##$ so we waited for the rain to stop then we headed to kovan ... by that time, it was already 2pm when we reached and i was definitely famished ... ordered curry soft shell crab with rice and tom yam fish soup ... mum ate the bangkok chicken rice ... we had coconut ice cream with red bean paste ... after i read si jie's blog oh-so-long ago, i told myself i must make a trip to thai express to try that ... i finally did ... it was really yummy, best dish in fact ... wahahaha ...

after that feast, i went back home to collect my study materials then met sQ somewhere near my house ...actually intended to return my library books at hougang mall ... but somehow due to habitual carelessness or what ... i headed to the arcade to look for esmond then after chatting me and sQ went to punggol cc to study already ... so didn't return it after all and sQ didn't remember either so i'm not the only one who is blur OK ... i just realised it now la, when i typed "to return my library books at hougang mall" LOL ...

after studying, we went back to hougang mall for a walk, and yet i still forgot to return the book !!!! damn it, have to make a trip down again ... though it's freaking near my house, but i'm lazy to walk la ...

around 7pm, me and sQ went to my void deck's playground to play with the swing ... then thought of many of my memories ... jason proposed to me at the stone chair ... sQ and i spent loads of sweet time at the tiled chair, and car park roof top ... blah blah ... then had a long talk with sQ ... he hugged me cause i said i was cold ... blah blah ...

every night i feel very lonely, helpless, empty whatever ... perhaps because i'm the only child then sleeping in a room all alone ... thinking of memories ... my bed makes me think cause it's the place i always cried on ... so much tears shed for many people ... perhaps it's a summary of my life ... so sQ said that he'll be there to hug me whenever i want, but too bad, i have curfew ... so he hugged me tight so that i won't feel lonely tonight ... thanks =) and i actually cried alot when he told me some things ... thanks boy ... i love you too ... it's just that i haven't came to a decision yet ...

goodnight everyone

xiaolynn misses her everything

' SHATTERED <3>
8/13/2006 11:07:00 PM