When People Say Goodbye

i need to vent abit, will be scolding soon, don't wish to read, better exit now ...

why are people getting less and less thoughtful of the feelings of peers around them ??? just say whatever they think is funny, passing inconsiderate comments as and when they feel like it.

things may be what you think it is, but the truth might be another. i may look like i'm playing a fool but as a matter of fact, i'm deadly serious and by mocking at the doubts i may have caused is just showing plain disrespect. what does the right to comment on my life comes from for you ? who are you all to say about it ? are u the one living in it ? how much can u understand from what u see ?

even if the truth may some how or rather appear similar to your comments, it's doesn't prove your assumptions to be correct. if u think by treating my life as your toy and playing around it is funny enough for every of you to laugh, then i must really voice that i feel that it is NOT FUNNY AT ALL .

i don't have the right to say that u all are immature as i'm not very far better but to show some consideration is something a teen should be able to do easily ? not any one of you took that 1 second to think of how i may feel. it's not me you all are talking about, it's my life and the people around me, which boils down to include every single one of you.

and by spreading it around and get more players into this stupid game is something most ruthless u can do, doing it within yourself is enough, trying to accomodate more people in your so called "fun" is ridiculous. being made fun of about something which ain't true all the time isn't funny at all. i may entertain some, smile at times, maybe some abrupt replies, but does that mean i'm ok with it ? think of it on yourself, if it happens that you are the one being misunderstood and everyone makes silly jokes out of it and irritate u all the time about it, how u feel ?

what i wanna do will not be because of what u all say. whether i decide to leave a person or stay, it shouldn't get affected by anyone. even if u tell me that you are going to die if i make that step, i will still do it. because it's you who risk guessing my actions and i don't see the reason why i have to compromise with my life just for you to escape the consequences. why should my life be directed by all the silly games ? give me my own life, don't make me live for you. the consequences were what u chose to accept when u started in this game, not me.

by gambling with a person's character and life is not something that very nice to do. once or twice is ok, but as the one or two tells the others, others join in the game and create more hell out of it, don't you all think is overboard? it's getting rather distasteful. i think the joke is carrying to far. initially i didn't really like it but now i really don't like it. it getting too critical and extreme in the sense that i feel very bothered about it.

i will still choose to keep quiet about it, but if it really gets out of hand, even if u may say i'm unreasonable, i won't give face at all. because u people are the ones who were unreasonable with my private life 1st. try getting people to do that to yours, u like it? i'm laughing and playing a fool most of the time, means i'm not serious or i don't have feelings ? or did u take for granted that i'll brush it off my mind even though people are annoying me with similar issues everyday? this serves as a light warning to whoever u think u are. just think through what i've said, if any of u think u don't agree, and i don't have to right to be unhappy even when my personal life is being played joked with, then continue doing it, and see what happens.

everything has a limit, know yours

' SHATTERED <3>
9/20/2006 03:06:00 PM