When People Say Goodbye

ok am having a bad mood, a real bad mood. i always binge on food whenever i'm either very happy or very down(can be sad or angry). so i can conclude that i'm in mood swings, or rather bad day.

my diet for today

1) maggie mee with veg, mushrooms and egg. (alot huh?)
2) mc flurry oreo
3) curry puff and yam pie from OCK
4) hokkien mee at 925
5) "mui fun" oop my house

i've only woken up for less than 12 hours and yet i'm eating so much. "mui fun" was half an hour ago, now i'm ransacking my fridge for a pathetic drop of food. i think i need 32673467646754years to digest this 276327645788954897678945 kcal. WHATEVER !!!!

i skipped school today so i tried not to let my dad find out i'm still at home. so i had to hide in my room till he's gone out. actually intended to flee to my uncle's house as my mum has suggested but we both overslept. too bad. and what's worse, that arsehole normally goes out at 10plus, don't know if it's intentionally or what, he went out at 1plus today. DAMN IT !!! so i kept waking up and lullabying myself to sleep for umpteen times. i need the toilet but had to bear with it. #@@##$^%

finally when i got to go out, i rushed to the toilet, cooked noodles, whatever then flew out. went to kovan to see the doctor for MC. he's my usual doctor that i only go to, but when i reached there, the staff told me:" he's on leave during mondays." FINE, i guess i've never been sick on mondays that's why i didn't know. so how am i going to get an MC ??? nvm. when i wanted to change bus to take 854 to yishun, i took the wrong bus. congratulate me !!!! if i'm using adult fare, i think i can deplete my mum's savings in a week by taking the wrong bus every other day.

reached yishun, waited for about half an hour for baby and benny to come. i didn't break records today, darned. waste my $$$$. then just slacked around for the whole day.

sQ got raped by benny, mk and darling. so i just watched and laugh HAHAHAHA "so funny". today the whole day at timezone i got this very distant feeling, so i kind of isolated myself from the fun. don't know leh, half felt like crying, half wanted to throw temper. but some times i managed to laugh. but when i'm unhappy i just tried to keep quiet or sleep. don't want show people attitude la, not too nice. then got really tired and slept a few times. went to 925 to eat, actually had no appetite but just ate a little. shared with hubby. then went back to timezone again =.= but this time was worth it cause darling broke singapore's record =) YAY !!! gong xi ni.

leong chun came after that so i started to wonder, since when leong chun and sQ so close??? stay overnight at his house somemore. so i asked leong chun why. he replied:" yin wei wo wan shang mei you ren pei ma." when i heard that, my reaction was: o.0 . so sQ preferred guys afterall lols. just kidding. then after northpointing, baby sent to me interchange so bus waiting period was quite long. chat chat abit but that time i almost wanted to cry le but didn't i guess. then he went back to TZ after that to find them. they go sQ's house, have fun.

i don't know what's happening, but to request for a life w/o the pressence of him is abit too much and chek argh. but whenever i see him, i just feel that jolt of pain and my mood doesn't get better. perhaps i should avoid seeing him except on days when my mood is really super. i think i really must get that painful past off my mind, dear don't deserve this =p so i must do it just for him, so that we'll be together happily ever after =) 4056830968

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jolynn sobs in silence
17o9o6 *9.57pm

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9/18/2006 10:56:00 PM