When People Say Goodbye

Been an emotional night for me. Both with Jason and nono. To Jason, thanks for all that you’ve taught me, I’ve realized it now, how willful was i. i know we will not be together already because it is very clear that your feelings have fade totally and all that you did to me was just a joke. since i have voiced out my part of the feelings, and you have agreed to stop the extreme, i guess it's more or less the end for us ?? though i don't wish to, but i'll do anything to make you happy.

GOD, please help me forget everything. make me okay once again. please ...

As for jarrel, don’t torture yourself, I’ll still be here.

Benny leh, I know u may sound harsh but I know it’s for my own good. Thanks for reminding me, I’ll try my best.

Many others may be thinking of killing me. They may hate me, scold me whatever. But who really knows what’s going on before they even shoot the bullets at me ?? so is it the one who initiates the breakup is the alleged ? when you think of his feelings and scold me, have u ever thought how I felt ?? why I broke up, what am I thinking. So everyone thinks that I broke up with him for no reason, I’m just toying.

NONO and SQ both are my ex. I know it’s a very short time I broke up with sq before I went with NONO, but there’s seriously no need to link the situations up. Many thought that I stead with nono because I broke up with sq and needed someone to depend on. HEAR THIS, I shall say it for the first and last time. both the rltsps are not interlinked, I did not get 2gther with either of them because of another.

So if all of you think that I’m feeling very good aft toying with them, please go bang the wall and die. I say that I’m currently missing someone but that doesn’t mean I’m getting into a new rltsp. And this guy I mentioned was my past. Though we are still friends, but we both made it clear that there’s nothing more than friends between us. And I believe I don’t deserve to have him nor anyone. And at the same time, he have no feelings for me. I will try to forget if I can, so stop those silly ideas of yours.

Spread rumours all u want. U may cause everyone to hate me, but I believe only my true friends will know really what type of person am i. But just beware, what goes around comes around.

As for my attitude, I’m trying to change. If u can’t wait, I never stopped u from leaving. It’s rather distasteful to have to voice this out on my birthday, sorry guys making this blog an unpleasant one to read.

ok now for the happenings. it's a rather boring day though. had chinese paper DAMN, of all days, it has to be on my birthday. after exams me and er jie went to the bookshop outside school to photocopy the book of notes as school bookshop's photocopy machine can't make it. while waiting, we had our lunch at coffeeshop. i was msging all the way while she was looking out for her darling. i gave her a chance to eat faster than me but she failed to =x

went to hougang point and saw wee nee, dee mei and wan rong. they gave me a very very makeshift birthday present, shal upload some pictures taken if i remember =x my blog is very wordy i know lols. under the influence of dee mei and wan rong, i went to buy kindersurprise to play. i bought 2 ok, lols. wanted to play with jason later on but justein was there too. he last minute tell me =( paiseh to play this type of things in front of ppl i not so close with so i gave the game a miss.

went to jason's house to meet up with them first. that stupid idiot bullied me la. was trying to be nice on my birthday, so he took advantage of it $#$#&*^%#@$ he strangled me, tickled me, pinched me and almost broke my neck. ABUSE !!!! HELP !!!! lols. after much dragging, jason finally went to bath. at that time, i already felt like sleeping, i love his bed, so comfy. then they successfully dragged me outta bed about 7pm. headed to kovan for thai express. ordered sooooo much food in the end they too full so they went out to smoke so that the food can digest. that stupid fat lady thought they wanna escape payment lols. she very unskilled la. sent the wrong food to our table twice can !!!! where got ppl blur until like that de, nv apologise somemore.

got my complimentary gift, a bottle of red wine. kind of budget one but still ok la. sat at void deck to chit chat. jason's 2nd hand smoke can choke me to death wahahaha. we sent justien to take cab around 9plus. jason dont wanna go home that early so he sent me home. fun with him but always kanna bully haha. no la, with my super rough character, i also bullied him quite a bit =p on the way walking home was kind of funny but i won't say what. i made an oath, if i do, i'll die in the hands of a ***** LOL !!!! just kidding.

simple yet happy day =) GONE

jolynn thinks.

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10/30/2006 10:22:00 PM