When People Say Goodbye

woke up rather early ytd. went to darling house, bought rice for him. then watched "little man" not very funny as i had expected it to be. alex came at 12.30pm. then pris and guowen at 1.15pm. played all the way till 9pm then i asked baby to send me home cause i was feeling rather lazy and lonely. dropped somewhere near er jie's house as we saw that the buses i wanted to change all missed. so we just continue taking a few more stops. then ran home though we had no strength. it's so fun with my darling =)

i'm typing in this particular colour as it reminds me of somebody. it's obvious for those who know me but it's alright. i actually wanted to blog ytd but before i publish, the connection cut off. so i may not be able to express the same thing.
while i'm typing this, i hope that the person concerned is happily living in his world.
i read his blog ytd and i felt happy?? or sad?? i don't know but it's kind of normal for me to feel disheartened when i see my ex get another girl. but i'll honour my words because i chose it to be this way.
no matter what, memories are just illusions. walk past them and forget them. singapore is very small, it's highly possible that the place of our memories will become u and hers in future. so just forget them to make your life easier.
i'm always your friend who's here to lend a helping hand, but can never mend your heart. whoever u may love, i'll give u my blessings.
though i may be sad, i may cry but i hope that u will not see it. from now on i'll be keeping every bit of our memories deep, not in your heart but mine. no matter how sharp the pain gonna be, i will take it because everything turns out like that because of me. it stabs, and bleed but the blood never flows as the wound is already dried up.
i wish u and her good luck. i admit i feel like crying, i still have feelings for you, but this will be the last time. i'm never gonna flip the chapters of that book anymore. the pages that burn away in my heart.
those memories that were so sweet will never be. goodbye love, goodbye memories.

today, i turn over a new leaf. i think so. paid attention in class. tried to complete assignments given. didn't eat much though i'm trembling already. i feel like leaving myself like that. i don't love myself anymore. for all the wrongs i've done. for all the innocent hearts i've broken, sorry. didn't meet baby today. guo jing acc me take bus. so now i'm gonna do some stuff. secret. so bye guys.

*who will mend my broken soul, bleeding with a scar that was carved by an inflicted wound.

' SHATTERED <3>
10/02/2006 05:48:00 PM