When People Say Goodbye

time: nearing noon
weather is MELTING ME !!!! ROAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*ahems* today ... WELL .... lao niang has 2 pieces of news to bring to everyone who's reading. small news ?? big news ?? you decide haha ...

1st on hand, MR USUI NOOB !!! that wu gui wang ba dan ... in my previous post, i reckoned that he must be the ver2 of him, but BINGO !!!! he's the one. hmmm, my intuition cannot be doubted haha. flamed him with my inferno at the forum, shoot shoot shoot shoot shoot shoot !!!! him until his face green green. that muthafucker %%#$$%&^%*&&(&( let the ID community eradicate people like "mrusuinoob, SUPERREYHERKS and maybe k***i" WAHAHAHHAHA !!!!

ok, 2nd piece of news. being the "genius" i've always been, i fixed my own damned computer. it was all mute at first, and i forced some noises outta it *smugs, I BROKE THE SILENCE !!!! it was like that for almost a year already. now i can play o2jam and audition =p that explains my presence here at this time when i normally sleep at 9am. people close enough to me whom i spend most of my time onlining with should know about my problematic computer haha. but the part about stupid spywares and pop-ups, i've yet to lift my finger to resolve them haha.

that's the end of NEWS12, reporter, LAO NIANG on channel "kukukaka"

BYE BYE=p *i was going bonkers

' SHATTERED <3>
1/27/2007 11:44:00 AM

one word to describe today: KANASAI !!!

woke up late because stupid justin called again. then followed by namira and jarrel. bathed and met nana at YCK mrt station around 1pm. headed to meet jarrel at NYP, nicholas put us up. BOO !!!

NYP's really sooooo boring la, nothing much. jarrel is a very bad guide lols, he dont know where to bring us. IT people all playing CS, skip lessons huh, bad students. got some stupid brochures, then namira chose to leave only my contact with the dont-know-who. SABO la !!! later they call so early how haha, she never leave hers, what kind of friend is this !!! LOL.

all of us were really bored, so we sent namira to her bus stop and then we trained to yishun. straight to 925 for dinner, cause we haven't ate anything before that. played initialD at funland then got some lamer there. i reckon that he a mr usui noob number 2, confirm plus guarantee chop.

AE86(ME) vs GDB(HIM)

maps played are:
- happo wang lu
- tuban wang lu
- akagi downhill
- iro downhill

after that he lose too many rounds then he change car, SE3P, even worse. lamed me to tuban, happo and forgot what others. so i changed to SE3P as well, then he dont dare challenge already. PLEASE la, SE3P also lose, sia suey la, stupid lamer. after slapping and laming still dare shake hands with me, kanasai. wang ba dan yi ge. you got balls plau akina downhill la !!! he see AE86 he dont dare is it, but too bad, i dont know how to play akina, stupid fatass !!!

accompany ri ming go eat later, had rojak there. finally tak boleh tahan already, don't know why soooo moody today, then went home. mum bought durian at home but i bought chicken wings, flavour clash la haha. today play all games also sooooo lousy =(

worse thing that happened today, at least to jarrel. we bought TOTO, guess what, we got 3 numbers right already, but need 3 and 1/2 numbers to win =.=

i bought: 08,16,21,25,36,39

winning numbers: 14,16,25,26,36,44 additional number:45

wa lao how suay la. i was thinking 08 or 14 ?? then i typed, 16 25 36. contemplating whether to add in 26, but all the 6s like very wierd, 25 and 26 are consecutive, so i gave it amiss. DAMNED !!!! if not win a few hundred leh, DAMNED DAMNED DAMNED. i still ok la, is jarrel heartache dunno why. i saw the results i was laughing to myself =.=

the uncle next to me was asking ...

UNCLE: you win ar ???
ME: bo la, where got so heng ...
UNCLE: *looks at my phone and ticket .. wa !!! 3 numbers ar !!!
ME: ya lor, xin tong leh ..
UNCLE: nvm, feng shui lun liu zhuan haha. wish you good luck.
ME: thanks =)
UNCLE: you just started buying only right ??
ME: how you know ??
UNCLE: newbbie luck ma, next time not so heng already ...
ME: ##@#$$$^^^&%%^#$#@$

nabei !!! curse me, next time tio 4D and TOTO at the same time let you see ar !!! TOTO she me mao lai de haha.

the bad day dont end like that, i didn't reach home early enough to watch "ying huo chong de meng", watched american idol until overtime, forget to watch "zui gao dian" for the first half hour. durians mama bought tasted like shit, watery and no taste de. dont even feel the heatiness of the fruit, majiam like eating longan like that, rotten one not those nice nice one ok !!! KANASAI !!! i have been wanting to eat durians since the last month, spoil my impression liao la !!!

feeling really sleepy and moody today, shan't say anymore, long enough entry. buh bye !!! *ZOOM

' SHATTERED <3>
1/25/2007 10:05:00 PM

i'm still in love with him =p

pretty much of mahjong this 2 days, 2 kar mahjong OK !! haha, anyone wanna learn this type of stupid mahjong, let us know LOL. people play mahjong to win money, diff case for us, jarrel always let me win haha. i fang pao, he purposely dont win, must zi mo. zi mo also dont win, wait for 2nd one =.= no point playing haha.

well ... who ask my luck so down in the year of dogs. big pots cannot win, small pots haven't win give people win big big already, so irritating haha. hopefully the year of pigs come quickly, because pigs dont kill one another =p

to summarise, all that happened was MAHJONG, fullstop. nonono, maybe comma, i cooked for jarrel and his family, i think they camped in toilet haha. ok, FULLSTOP.

' SHATTERED <3>
1/24/2007 02:24:00 AM

this story is adapted from XIAXUE's blog, happened to come across it while reading. enjoy :)

Once upon a time there was this woman who looked like Cher. She may have once been beautiful, who knows? But now, she just looks scary beyond all reason. So anyway, 17 years ago this woman had sex with an albino, and after that, she got a baby daughter who looks really pretty, and her face was white as snow, her hair a jet black, and her lips red as blood.

The proud mother called her Snow White.The albino daddy of Snow White decided to turn gay, so the mother brought her baby daughter to the local pub where she could drown all her sorrows. Alas, she got drunk again, but this time, the one night stand turned out to be a Prince!

The desperate Prince was forced by his dying mum to marry a fat and ugly princess from the next country before he could be King, so he decided to marry Snow White's mum instead, faking his mum that Snow White was his daughter but he was just afraid to acknowledge her a year ago.The Prince's mother died and the Prince was made King, making Snow White a princess.

Now there's a problem. As the Queen got older and more wrinkled, the King seems to eye beautiful Snow White more and more. One day, the Queen saw the King touch Snow White's hands lustily! "AHEM!"The King and Snow White jumped apart.

"My King, it has been long since you gave me a gift.... I want a servant who can tell me how beautiful I am everyday, because apparently my daugther is getting more attractive than me, isn't she?!! HUH?!"

The King gave a loud grunt and heck cared the Queen, so the angry Queen smacked the King on the head with a piece of Char Siew.

"Oww~! That fucking hurts! What was that for? And where did that piece of thing come from?!"
"Its for ignoring me, you bastard! And its apparently called a Char Siew, this thing. Someone mailed it to me. I find no use for it except to whack you."
"Whatever. You are a wrinkled as Lee Kwan Yew."
"Who is that?!"
"Some Chinese man which our prophet says will be the most wrinkled man on Earth in future."
"Our prophet always talks bullshit! Ask him to predict the next war and he will say something like, 'Do-do birds will be extinct.' Wtf? Do-do birds will never be extinct, they are everywhere! What an idiotic prophet we have!"

The King took advantage of the situation, grabbed the Char Siew, and smacked the Queen on the head.

"Go get urself that magic mirror in my room and stop yakking and yakking! Leave me alone with Snow White!""I thought you loved that mirror?", the Queen asked.
"It used to tell me my dick is the longest in the world but now it refuses to look at it since I tried to shove it into its mouth."
"YOU WHAT? DISGUSTING BASTARD!"
"I am King. I do whatever I want."

So anyway, the Queen got hold of the mirror.

"Mirror mirror on the wall, tell me, whos the fairest of them all?"

The guy in the mirror woke up, and said, "Michael Jackson after his bleaching? No. Actually, Snow White. Duh. Did you even for a moment think it was you? You are scary beyond all reason! Anyway, wait till you hear what that husband of yours did to me!"

The Queen gave the mirror no chance to do that. She whacked it with the piece of Char siew and it smashed into a million pieces.

"Lai ren ah!", she screamed.
"Kill Snow White for me! "

Luckily for Snow White, she was hiding behind the door when all these happened. She ran to the well, and started to sing about how some day her prince will come.

Walking idly, she arrived at this little hut. Being the rude and ill-mannered princess she is, she walked into the hut without knocking, and saw 7 little dwarves watching soccer in underwear. One of them was reading a porn magazine.You think Liang Po Po is the ugliest thing since evolution, but you have no idea. A dwarf in underwear is infinitely worse. Snow White screamed in horror.

But too bad for Snow White. A scream is the last thing she should have done, because it immediately idenifies her as a lady and what would seven ugly men living alone want? A maid of course.The dwarves shoved Snow White into the room, and started to get her to clean up the house, while they continued drinking ale while watching soccer.

With this, Snow White lived for a few months. She particularly hated Sneezy the dwarf coz he always throws his used tissues around. Snow White was held prisoner because she was too dumb to unlock the door.In case you are wondering why the dwarves are not sexually interested in Snow White, it is because Snow White is too big for them. In physical size.

So anyway, one day the dwarf called Grumpy decided to let Snow White have an apple and take a rest, coz Snow White cleaned his room particularly well that day. What he doesn't know is that Snow White hates him and have put chilli powder into his underwear, but I guess what he doesn't know wouldn't hurt him.Snow White took a bite and decided to act like she died. She somehow had this feeling that this would get her out of the house. She also read in several story books that a kiss from a prince will revive the dead, and it seems that princes only like to kiss dead girls? So she will pretend to be dead and come to life when a prince kisses her!

She tried not to think how disgusting it is if it were the dwarves to kissed her instead.And what if it was Lee Kwan Yew who kissed her? Oh no! But she will have to take chances.

The dwarves found Snow White dead and shoved her into the forest to rot, and got on with their lives.Snow White laid on the ground, sobbing in her heart, as the forest is a dreadful place and she feels really sorry for herself that she has to live her life this way. Where should she go? She can't even go home, her mum will (literally) kill her! And she didn't dare open her eyes, she was scared the dwarves would still be there; scared of what she will see...

Suddenly, she heard steps of a horse and a man... Not light steps like those of the dwarves... Steps of a real man... And the air was filled with the sensual smell of Davidoff purfume... Ah... What arousal...Snow White knew there was hope. It must be her Prince!! She prayed and prayed that her cleavage can be seen... and that her hair covered that stupid pimple she just got.

The Prince bent down, and gave Snow White a deep, tongue wrestling, lip-locking kiss, which took away Snow White's breath and melted her heart. She could feel his sharp nose and chiselled face against hers, and his luscious lips; they are oh, so soft....Snow White fluttered her long dark eyelashes open, to see a hunky, dark-haired man with dark brown curls looking at her lovingly...

"Oh, you must be my prince!", Snow White exclaimed.
"Yes.... You are beautiful, my Princess...."
"Are u gonna marry me?"
"Yes, my dear..."
"Do you gamble, drink excessively, and watch soccer all the time?"
"No, no, and no..."
"Will you promise to only love me and never have sex with other women, men, or animals?"
"Children?"
"Children as well. And dead people."
"Oh, alright. I suppose you are pretty enough for me to promise that."
"Are you rich?"
"Yes. I am a millionaire."
"Do you have a eight inch number and can last more than 15 minutes?"
"Its 9 and a half to be exact. And I can last for 2 hours."
"Oh my God you are perfect!"
"And I love you, my princess... There... You must be tired.. Let me ride you on horseback to my castle..."
"Yes, yes my Prince..."

With that, Snow White travelled for 3 days on the Prince's horse.She arrived at a construction site.

"Oh, the castle is still building?", she queried.
"Uhmmmm...", the Prince mumbled.
"Actually I've got something to tell you. My name is Joe Millionaire."

Snow White vomitted blood and died on the spot, this time for real.

*****

' SHATTERED <3>
1/21/2007 08:23:00 PM

rather disappointed by something, or rather, someone ...
well .. let's see what he/she has to say for the next few days ..
predictable though ..
BUT ...
none of my business anymore ...

' SHATTERED <3>
1/21/2007 12:12:00 AM

what do you get, when you fall in love ??
a guy with a pin, to burst your bubble ..
that's what you get, for all the troubles,
i, never fall in love again ...

what do you get when you kiss a guy ??
you get enough germs, to catch peumonia ..
and after you do, he'll never phone ya,
i, never fall in love again ..
i, never fall in love again ...

what do you get, when you miss a guy ??
you get enough tears, to fill an ocean ..
that's what you get, for all your troubes,
i, never fall in love again ...

what do you get, when you love a guy ??
you get your heart broken up, and battered ..
that's what you get, a heart that's shattered,
i, never fall in love again ..
i, never fall in love again ..

tell me why it's all about,
cause i've been waiting,
i wanna clear my doubts ..
all of this days,
day when i have you,
you always know,
i'm here to remind you..

what do you get, when you need a guy ??
you get yourself broken up and tattered,
that's what you get, yourself all ragged,

i .. never fall in love again ...

' SHATTERED <3>
1/18/2007 10:09:00 PM

he loves his career, i prefer humanity. he wants to explore the market, i wanna lead a happy and simple life. perhaps as what everybody has said, we aren't meant to be. i used to be loved, but that's the past. it's already very far away and i shouldn't carry it with me. some people never found true love, since i have at least found mine, shouldn't i be contented ?? love is not to keep them in possession but to set them free.

today i was walking home with a friend. he told me " hey there was a guy looking over at us all the time as we walked passed him. " so i thought "did i wear my shirt inside out ?? " he asked "is that your friend ??" i turned around but due to mild night blindness and lack of sleep, i couldn't see anyone. so i just walked off. 15minutes after i reached home, my friend msged me saying that he think it was him that we saw. that was when i realised everything.

last time when my friend said that someone kept looking over, i would at the first instant turn to see if it's him. if he were to send me this msg last time, i would have cried my eyes swollen again, but i didn't. this pain may not hurt the most as compared to others, but it's the most complicated feeling i ever faced.

now i don't feel the pain, i still cry but perhaps it's all numbed. even if god is to really be kind to me, and give him to me again, i may not dare to want him anymore. because after almost 8months of struggling, everything already seem impossible to me. hopes were dashed again and again. if he were to come back, it'll all be like a dream, not reality. maybe it will already be too much for me to accept. but who cares, i know he has long ago forgotten about me.

he didn't even say "hi" when he saw me. he said that he'll collect his dictionary back from me when he passes by my area, but he did not. he ignored my msges. so i guess that's very much 3 blows in a day. even if it really wasn't him, i'm really sure that he doesn't love me anymore.

for the past 8months, i thought of him at least 20times a day, his name hung at my mouth at least 40times. for some of you, it may seem very lil, but we are ex steads who see each other less than 2times a month. i could have shed an ocean of tears for him but will they bring him back ?? boy, it's you who made me strong.

i may have lost another part of me, but i definitely learnt a heavy lesson, and that is not to love anymore until you are sure he loves you. you left my heart hanging at its verge, yet pushing it up not to let it die. that is what your love did to me. i have said many times that i'll give up, this time i dont know if there'll still be a relapse. but this time is the least painful one, because i'm already numb, by seeing the one i love change so much.

i feel like letting everything go, it's too dark and heavy to carry. i need some light, someone to love and care for me like you used to do. i wanna love another person who puts enough effort to love me back. that's why, i haven't loved another since you left. but now that i'm almost dead, i should give the last drop of hopes a chance, to let me meet someone better than you. i'm gonna survive w/o you, i will try. please forgive me for every single lil thing i've done.

from now on like what you said, we'll go back to the days when we were still strangers, i make my changes, you make yours. whether we'll meet again, we'll leave it up to fate. it's a painful ending but yet a memorable one. goodbye from the deepest heart, maybe i loved you, maybe not ..

the thing with love is that, it actually makes you believe a lie.

good luck to my new found life
*buried miseries

' SHATTERED <3>
1/18/2007 09:24:00 PM

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were
but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you
but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everythingI just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Someday I feel broke inside
but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide
'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye
when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I want to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day,
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so I'm afraid to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myselfBy

Hurting you !

perhaps that's the words i wanna say ...

' SHATTERED <3>
1/18/2007 01:07:00 AM

my mummy so happy la !!! cause i stayed at home for the whole 4 days, like that also happy haha. i was sleeping so couldn't feel the boredom.

finally went out at 7pm today, with elmo to eat suki sushi. talk talk talk talk talk, eat eat eat eat eat until we sick of the food there liao haha. went to hougang mall to play ID, my skills seriously suck la. see how i lose this sat.

walked home, elmo tried to catch a roach to scare me, DAMN HIM LA haha. he never give me his address so tomorrow's mahjong session in danger cause he may have to hand in assignment. maybe play at nono house le, hopefully elmo can make it. no mahjong i still ok, is ken who need to come down all the way from jurong, i pity him haha.

now i'm having hiccups, damn pain la !!! BURP quickly BURP !!! and everything will be fine. why did my mother born me without the ability to burp as and when i want to ??

jolynn !!! BURP !!!

' SHATTERED <3>
1/15/2007 10:35:00 PM

IN THE PAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU...

1) Cried: maybe yes ..
2) Worn jeans: nahs ..
3) Met someone: nopes ..
4) Done laundry: don't need to ..
5) Went hungry: always ..
6) Talked on the phone: to elmo ..
7) Said I love you: in my previous post ..

DO U BELIEVE IN..

8) Yourself: not really ..
9) Your friends: a few ..
10) Tooth fairy: when i was 6yrs old ..
11) Destiny/Fate: very ..
12) Ghosts: yup ..
13) UFO: till i see one ..
14) Do you ever wished you had another name?: maybe, i hate my name ..
15) Do you like anyone?: i love someone ..
16) Which one of your friends acts most like you?: who would wanna act like me =.=
17) When you cried the most who was there?: used to be HIM*, now no one ..
18) What's the best feeling in the world? : when he was the first thing i see when i wake up. when i know he's just a cm away, when he was right by my side *sighs.
19) Whats the worst feeling in the world? : to fail to treasure him ..
20) What time is it now? 09.24pm

WHICH IS BETTER?

21) Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
22) Coke or pepsi: pepsi
23) Love or Lust: Love
24) Sprite or 7-Up: 7-up
25) Girls or guys: depends
26) Scruff or Clean shaved: ..........
27) Movies day or night: night

The last time you...

28) Took a shower: 2 yrs ago, like real. 5mins ago.
29) Cried: just .. when i miss him so much ..

WHO

30) Make you smile: used to be only him, now no one ..
31) Who can make you smile no matter what: HIM*
32) Has a crush on you: no one ..
33) Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call: if he tells me that hes gonna call me ..
34) Save AIM conversations: HIM*
35) Wish you were someone else: maybe, be someone that i know he will love forever. or rather, can stay by his side forever. be his mum ??
36) Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: nahs, they have more responsibilities and expectations to meet up with. i'm not that type.
37) Go online for longer than eight hours: almost everyday.
38) Stucked in a lift: not yet, coming soon =.=
39) People you don't know and you went out with them: yeap, then got to know each other better after a few more outings.
40) Hate a person to the core that you wish that he/she will die immediately: my father ..
41) Swear your parents or siblings: hell, yes !!!
42) Watch comics until you cry: i dont WATCH comics, nor do i read them.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...

43) That you saw: mummy
44) You talked to: mummy and elmo ..
45) You hugged: mummy ..
46) Instant messaged you: jarrel

DO YOU..

47) Color your hair: ya ..
48) Have tattoos: never thought of having one ..
49) Have piercings: used to ..
50) Have on lipsticks: lip gloss ..
51) Own more than 10 pairs of flip flops: i own 23, but i never wear almost 15 of them ..
52) Like someone: Love
53) Hate someone: YES !!!
54) Have any money on you: duh ..

Layer one - On the outside

Name: jolynn
Birthdate: 30/10/1990
Current status: dead
Eye color: white =p
Zodiac sign: Horse

Layer two - On the inside

Your heritage: Chinese
Your fears: many many ..
Weaknesses: everything ..

Layer three - Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your first thought when you wake up: is it still morning ?? why the sun so hot ?? any msges ??
Your most missed memory: *sighs, every moment spent with him ..

Layer four - Your Pick

Mac or KFC: KFC la !!!
Single or group dates: anything ..
Adidas or Nike: adidas (sorry mr yeo, chged preference haha)
Lipton Tea or Nestea: green tea, lemon tea, chrysanthemum tea =p
Cappucino or coffee: both

Layer Five - Do you

Smoke: quit already.
Curse: always do that.
Take a shower: duh .. who doesn't ..
Have a crush: i seldom crush on ppl ..
Think you've been in love: yeah, but was it true ??
Like school: secondary school perhaps ..
Want to get married: yup ...
Believe in yourself: don't know la ..
Think you`re a health freak: never

Layer six - In the past month

Drank alcohol: finished my supply at home ..
Gone to the mall: yeah ..
On stage: take photo at UGC stage =.= no take prize la ..
Sushi: of course ..
Gone skating: nopes ever since kallang ice skating closed down ..
Dyed your hair: ya ..

Layer seven -

Have you everPlayed a stripping game: yeah, small one ..
Changed who you were to fit in: kind of, fit in myself ba ..

Layer Eight - Getting old

Age you are hoping to get married: 22 plus ???
I LOVE: him* then who else ??
I FEEL: depressed, so long since the last time i saw him.
I HATE: my father
I HIDE: everything
I MISS: HIM*

' SHATTERED <3>
1/14/2007 09:09:00 PM

as beautiful as it may seem, fade away it must ...

just wondering ... it is so like you and me .. are you saying goodbye ??

i miss HIM*

rainy and sunny days, the days that we've been through. i love you *sighs

' SHATTERED <3>
1/14/2007 08:08:00 PM

still angry with what i saw yesterday, i'm not one who forgives. but today mummy appeased my anger by quite abit. how ?? retail therapy =) so i shan't be bothered about those mathematicalacthems =p i was tempted to reply him but i did not, cause i dont want to STICK to him. for like what fuck.

woke up at 6pm cause i didn't sleep the previous night. mommy called, went down to the bus stop to fetch her cause it was raining dogs and cats the whole day. went to hougang plaza for suki sushi =p feeling guilty now,cause i wanted to go on diet, IMPOSSIBLE LA HAHA.

kian siong was on duty shift, haven't seen him for very long so kinda missed the times we had together as very good friends. he was so pissed off by his supervisor la, haha i rmb how he used to complain about her. then he wanted to borrow my fd spirit r for ver2 haha, so i told him i'll call him in the night =)

shopped outside hougang mall for shoes AGAIN haha. most of the time i wear slippers but i have bought them yet even after i have spoiled so many. bought heels, and those dolly shoes. then went up to hougang mall to get my manicure nails. quite ex leh, bugis street sells cheaper ones as they are having sales. maybe will go there tomorrow to get some =p going broke soon.

BUT mummy told me sth. she said she'll get taking off next week to bring me to shopping !!!! YEAH !!! she know that the 2000bucks not enough for me de LOL, so she understands how i spend. why ?? because i only spend her money =x she say if i work also not enough for me to spend la, so she didn't force me to get a job. she tell me say i got fu qi, can stay at home no need work also got people yang one LOL. even if i dont want stay at home, somehow i not fated to work LOL. apply for alot but they all no need people, lucky me LOL.

the best thing she said was that when we go town, we go take a look at the adidas jacket !!! yeah !!! haha was thinking of buying it for some time. HOHOHO !! tell me, is this good luck or what ?? i so love rainy days, no link lols.

watch VCDs =) buh bye, dont you envy me for today only ??? =x

' SHATTERED <3>
1/12/2007 10:39:00 PM

well, i saw this from someone's blog which i rarely step into. so all the while i'm the one sticking to him, so maybe you find it wrong and irritating. perhaps, ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends can never be close friends anymore. since you guys can't accept me, i'll make myself scarce, DAMNED.

alright, here comes the nasty part. all i can say about those people is that they are very narrow-hearted. judging people by their looks and by little actions which have no intentions. instead of their character, they judge people by their actions not their heart. so i would like to say a schmeing person putting up a front is better than a robber who has turned over a new leaf. one word for them: shallow.

they might never pass by this blog, if they happen to, i hope they flame me, show your shallowness !!! dont do it behind my back, cowards !!! tell me right in my face. slap me if you want, but i just tell you, i will definitely slap you back even harder. dont piss me off again and again, not the same person, but the same group of people with freakingly annoying personalities. i dont appreciate the feeling of two-faced snakes crawling around me, i rather you be double-headed then double-faced.

since i am so unpleasant to have around, then i leave on my own accord, dont need to talk behind my back. let you have your pure world of shallowness.

but there's one thing i'll like to clarify: i never forced him to stay with me, nor did i stick and pester him. it is both side's willingness. unless he tells you behind my back that he has no choice but to follow. if he did, then DAMN all of you. dont assume things when you dont know, DONT ACT SMART AND PRETEND TO BE A GOOD SAMARITAN, PRAYING FOR PEOPLE LIKE A KIND SOUL, PUI AR !!! KNN !!! dont push your luck too far...

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1/12/2007 05:09:00 AM

lo and behold !!!! this is what i did to jarrel's nails today on the bus, i put on fake manicures for him =p he's not to take it out before sunday, there are presents for birthdays, but there will be forfeits too =)

woke up really late today, despite the ringings of my phone. just couldn't pull myself outta the bed. i didn't sleep yesterday you see haha. went down to funland, search around the mall for fake manicures but no nice ones. one of mine broke off when i was sleeping, can't find it anymore. no more manicures of that size so i took off others as it was wierd to have one missing. so on the bus i was plucking, have that "thik thiak" sound. the guys beside me asked "you all girls pull it out like that not pain ar ??" i smiled and replied "no feeling, i do for you want ??" the guy shook hands and head vigorously haha. what's so scary about it ?? hahaa, guys ....

ate at 925, wei jie kept playing with his food haha. when we went back to play again, wei jie broke many many records la, crazy de haha. do stupid TSTs on turning which very hard to do, then got some crazy timing. almost broke some world records but i think other countries playing ver4 lo haha, so maybe CKF retire liao wahahaha. then again, mahjong no luck haha, no more hu already, at most 1 tai only. BOO~~~

play AE86 for upcoming match end up they wanna chg car, waste alot money la =( hopefully can play AE86, if not lalaland sure lose haha. went back to hougang at 9plus, chg bus to hg mall to search for manicures but shops closed. sorry jarrel, waste bus fare >.<

camped in mac to wait for the rain to get smaller but it only got heavier. only subside at 11pm. so played in the rain while walking home. wanted to jump onto puddles of water to splash them on jarrel but ended up, the water landed on my butt instead =( but i managed to push jarrel into wet patches of the grass. haha, all drenched. i kept running cause jarrel can't run with his frictionless slipper, lousy haha. but he didn't fall =p let's see how he shivers on the bus.

he keep saying he's gonna fall sick, WEAK la LOL. da nan ren, fall sick because of walking in the rain. i kept saying that i won't fall sick but i think i'm having fever now haha even after a bath. now i'm falling sick because of rain, for the first time. i don't usually get sick this way. but i realise everytime i bath after going in the rain, i always get headache. perhaps should not bath right away, my body system is so wierd la haha.

haiyah, nothing to blog la, let's go blog hop =p

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1/11/2007 11:57:00 PM

9th Jan 2007

wow !!! tiring day la !!! didn't sleep last night cause i'm afraid i'll be late as i'm meeting namira and guys rather early. who knows ?? namira overslept, didn't wake me up, others wanted to meet at 2pm which i thought was too late so it's postponed to thurs. not sure if i can make it =(

so last min, rang jarrel up, met at town. went to this lelong lelong shop, surprised to see this type of shop in orchard, the prime area haha. bought heels, eye shadow and bracelets. walked to paragon to apply for a job at toys'r'us, all the staff look so scary la. i mean their appearance and dressing. i put the date available as 19th feb, afraid that justin will call. so long la, if nv call i reapply haha, go back to childhood better.

then ate pontian noodles at heeren, bought rob-b-hood de vcd as i happen to browse HMV. headed to bugis street to shop. bought a dont know what bag but i like =) saw a non-authentic puma bag selling at $15, cheap huh ?? but i'm getting another bag tomorrow haha.

got myself a red colour top for CNY, my grandparents are more traditional type of ppl, i dont want to get screwed for wearing dark colours haha. jarrel bought a ring for me and himself, not couple one la haha. i can't think of what else i bought but nvm, there's still tomorrow =) bugis street so messy, turn here and there same one. wanted to find the previous shop we went to, walked many big rounds until we found it but didn't buy anything. my feet were hurting like hell la !!!

trained down to yishun funland. play mahjong game again, ok shall not repeat myself cause today's game was like @@##$$$$% so many qing yi se, damn it la haha. have to play so long to finish up that pathetic credit. then ate late dinner at LJS around 9pm. i took jarrel's fries while he took one of my chicken pieces.

tried to advise benny about his studies, seems like he quite anxious about it recently. so all of us gave him some advise, hope he will take it. then i went home at 10pm. quarrelled with dad on the phone. reached home, ignored him. blog now, sleep next min :)

haven't slept for the past few days, my brain's screaming for the help. *those helpless protests

10th Jan 2007

woke up at 10plus. met benny at city hall mrt station, told me not to be late haha, luckily he reached on the dot. headed to paya lebar for walk-in-interview at giordano. asked namira and mishal to be my char reference, hope they dont sabo LOL.

it's a diff interviewer, this time round the interviewer is more straight forward la. asked more relevant questions. so me and benny went in to the room with another girl we dont know, she looks like our age. but when the interviewer asked her abt her reason for quitting her job, she answered "pregnancy". i was stunned, but manage to contain my response within myself haha. but the details this time round is so diff. full time basic now is $1250 instead of 1000 *wow the commission is about 400-600 instead of 200-300 *wow wow !!! maybe diff manager diff salary. if i had knew abt this, i would have applied for full-time instead.

very fast interview then we went to singapore post centre to eat. jarrel arrived very soon, browsed around THIS FASHION, nothing nice at all seriously.

headed to bugis to meet up with ri ming, shopped at bugis street, bought a few stuff. shopping makes me feel good =p walked around bugis junction, bought a tee and a necklace. went back to yishun around 7pm, ate at 925. eating quite alot huh LOL. funland as usual, but today no luck haha. went home around 10pm.

but bad news is, there's no mahjong on saturday already =( how am i going to survive ??!!! i waited so long la, then judas said they not playing alrdy. BOOHOO. maybe jarrel will bring me out haha, that's better.

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1/11/2007 12:23:00 AM

well well well .. let me tell you guys something rather miraculous. Jolynn has found motivation to work, and has started finding lobangs !!! LAME haha, but it's quite unbelieveable to my parents.

at first that promoter guy, he ignored my msges 2 times, while he replied benny and riming @!!@##@#$ i was rather angry about that. a few hours ago, i was ranting about how sexist that guy is, blah blah blah. a few minutes ago, he called and had a nice chat with me. *GUILTY wahahaha.

he told me that alot of bowen students applied LOL !!! but i'm his trumph card cause i dont mind working far. sweet-talking ?? hmmm nvm. then he asked if i know riming and benny, i said yes but they dont come from bowen. then some of the bowen students he named, i pretend i dont know them LOL. just trying to help la.

another thing i'll like to highlight today is "never to dine at siam kitchen". the food sucks like hell !!! my cooking tastes a thousand times better, ask nono for more details. though it's buffet at an OK price, but dont be deceived by those alluring packages. no wonder i hardly see any customer in there. so conclusion is "DONT WASTE YOUR MONEY THERE" hopefully none of their staffs sees this and sue me haha.

funlanded after that. keep winning the mahjong game so they waited very long haha !!! repeat myself again "if real life like that, i'll be rich lo" lalala ... went to 925 watch them makan. bumped into sheryl and her mum (jarrel's family). they all ps me and jarrel there at another table, then they squeezed themselves into one table =.= lols funny la. saw weixiong and vincent there too, so crowded haha.

went back to play a lil more, but my luck is gone. 854ed home, then justin called :) that promoter wahahhaa. thanks all my friends for their tips and lobangs !!!! =p i finally get the motivation to find jobs =)

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1/09/2007 12:25:00 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SOMEONE !!!!!

someone ??? who ?? the one who kept reminding me about his birthday since 2-3 months ago lor LOL !!!

2months ago

JARREL: eh, my birthday coming soon leh ..
ME: actblur- when ???
JARREL: 2 more months hehe ..
ME: .... still long la ..

1 month ago, the same scenario repeated ...

1 week ago

JARREL: eh, my birthday coming leh ..
ME: really ar !!! i thought still got a few more months ..

times passes really fast, so i hope that in your new year of life, you will treasure every glimpse in your life. every moment gone will never return, so i hope that every second of your future will be a fruitful and meaningful one =) happy birthday boy !!!!

some birthday wishes for you

1) to have good health
2) excel in your studies *stop being so playful !!!
3) to have more money to eat instead of play =p
4) to gain weight so that you wont be seen floating around
5) to win in mahjong sessions, so that i have a share :)

sorry for the ugly drawings, so i compensate you with my terrible singing ok ?? haha ..

happy birthday to you,
you are born in my zoo,
i have lions and elephants,
and a gorilla like YOU ....

lalalala~~~ HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY !!!! may all your wishes come true ...

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1/08/2007 01:12:00 AM

wa liew eh !!! rot at home for two days can die ar !!! singapore changes very fast, within these two days, my house downstairs that lamp post collapse liao LOL !!!

actually i really have nothing to blog about, just blogging to kill time. ok anyway, i went to jarrel's house today. before i left home, judas called. he last minute say he wanted to go out or find people play mahjong. as you guys may know me, i was startled upon hearing the word "MAHJONG" wahahaha. but you know what i did ?? i REJECT it leh !!! haha first time. firstly, because still need find people, sure can find but that's another story. secondly, cause i already promised jarrel la, so last minute change plan not very nice. thirdly, jarrel's birthday is coming in a day or two, so i go to his house to make jelly for him in case i forget or no money to buy present for him =x and lastly, we have no cash !!! wahahha !!! REJECT LEH !! ok i'm crazy.

but i realise one thing, everytime i finish stirring the jelly solution, and is about halfway pouring them into small moulds, the jelly would have been coagulated. so the jelly i made was transparent in colour, we had to finish up the unshaped ones which looked like super glue. in an uglier term, it looks like ***** hehe. but what happened in the end ?? JARREL DESTROYED MY EFFORTS =( HE SMASHED THE MOULD TRAY VERY HARD ON THE PLATE TO GET THE JELLY OUT. ALL IN BITS AND PIECES ALREADY. IT'S JELLY NOT METAL !!! BOOOOOO !!!!

so he cannot blame me, he spoiled it de haha. who would smash jellies soooo hard lols. so i ate the nice nice ones while he ate the lan lan ones. there were still some not taken out so we thought of letting it cool further before giving it to his sis, cause the ones we ate were too unpresentable. guess what ?? jarrel say put in freezer faster, i stopped him cause i knew it will turn into ice. he say awhile wont one, in the end leh ?? he sleep until forget. BOOO again. still say i put too much water, i put very lil liao ok. but the ice jelly tasted quite ok la haha.

played o2jam, and he laughed at me =( BOOO 3times. today jarrel's a big bad boy, shall FORGET to get him present. headed back to hougang around 8plus. ate KFC, played arcade. and once again i'll still like to repeat myself, if real life tiles so nice, i damn rich lo !!! haha.

when at my house downstairs, we chatted for very long. about secondary school, people we dont like and pranks we played on them haha. of course ***** (i think 4e4 people will know who) was mentioned. then come this 3 guys who looked very much like some beng bengs. they kept staring but i didn't bother la, until jarrel told me that they haven't stop staring in our direction. so i looked over, it was my ex's good friends. didn't say "hi" cause i not on very good terms with them. they left with a dont know who girl, then we chatted awhile more then go home le.

took a very very long bath. feeling very clean now LOL !! off to maple. i said i had nothing to blog, but by just journalling can allow me to type such a lengthy post. ain't my life "interesting" ???

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1/07/2007 12:04:00 AM

sighs, i'm still unemployed, or rather, i am lazy to go hunting for jobs. may be going with mishal and di liang to check it out at "botak jones" around amk. never seen that place before, just find lor. hopefully the pay is about 5bucks per hour.

slept till very late on wed, met benny, ming kang and jarrel near my house. i went to have my dinner at hougang mall, played some arcade games. DAMN la, arcade's mahjong game i always get those really nice tiles, real life no have =( lols, dream on la jolynn.

walked to hougang mall to play pool. saw ah seng, stanley and ying xiang there. talked to ah seng but not the other 2 cause i couldn't confirm it was really them until stanley msged me in msn. ran home in the rain, took a bath and maple all the way until today morning.

went out at 7plus to the market to get ingredients for steamboat today. i don't frequent wet markets so i kind of made a fool outta myself.

ME: uncle, wo yao shou rou..
uncle: ni yao duo shao ??
ME thinking for half a min....
uncle: -wondering .. ni yao duo shao ??
ME: liang ge ren chi duo shao ar ??
auntie (another customer): jiao uncle na liang kuai gei ni lor, kan ni yao chi duo shao.
ME: liang kuai shi duo shao ???

the auntie stared at me. tell me please, what's so wrong ?? i don't get it la. i must start learning how to be a good housewife haha. went to NTUC, so there were a few youngsters working there. i saw hongkang too haha.

many of the aunties were looking so one of them asked " nian qing ren ze me zao jiu qi lai mai cai ar ??"

me: wo zuo wan mei you sui jiao hehe.
auntie: ni jie hun liao ar ??
me: ya lor, wo de lao gong hen shuai =x pian ni de la, wo bang mama mai cai
auntie: WA kan bu chu ni ze me guai ...

##@#$%$$%^ what's that supposed to mean, i very guai one can !!! BOO !!!! went home, scolded my dad, watched tv and BOOM slept all the way till evening.

steamboat all the way till now, boring life. FULLSTOP !!!

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1/04/2007 10:29:00 PM

li la la li la la ~~~ i'm here to scold today !!!! LANCE, HIAN LENG AND KOK WEI !!! say me round !!! other than lance, both of you much much much fatter than me can !!!! %^#$#$#$#$%& * refer to tagboard for details.

yesterday i said i wish it would rain, 5mins later it did. today during mahjong my mouth very suay also haha. since UGC, my mouth like never wash like that. when i say good things, it will happen sometimes, however, if i say something bad, it will definitely happen. to some extent of course.

had a gathering today at kovan with deemei, mishal, namira, lynnette, wee nee, keslyn, chia yee and lorraine. ate pizza, very expensive can. feeling kinda broke. i left around 1plus, so i don't know where they go. met jarrel and friends at his house. played some mahjong, lost quite alot. lady luck isn't with me recently. but still ok, cause jarrel won in the 1st round.

left around 8plus. headed to hougang mall, ate KFC =) yum yum. went up to arcade around 10pm already lols. when people leave we go, make those staff cannot close down WAHAHAHA !!! then other people came in to play also, but we were last to leave =x somehow when i play arcade mahjong my luck damn good la, if real mahjong like that i very rich lo, hehe.

went home about 11plus, so here i am, probably going to maple =p

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1/02/2007 11:05:00 PM

HOHOHO !!!! kinda late, but ....

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE !!!! GOOD YEAR AHEAD !!!!

feeling alright, of course, i just had mahjong on saturday =)

28th dec

a day out with jarrel, chun hui, wei seng and tai yun. watched deathnote 2 !!!!! sooooooooo nice can. walked around town for quite long, legs damn pain can haha. we wanted to look for a food court to settle our dinner, found it but i was whining for KFC. so we walked on, saw mac, same thoughts in our minds, NO WAY. finally we decided to stop over at LIDO. it was very very crowded, quite a long wait before we got our seats. the food quality there sucks like shit.

29th dec

i don't really remember doing anything today. hmmmmmm, THINK THINK THINK !!! i asked jarrel, wait for his reply bah. he didn't reply but i recalled =p so clever hehe. slacked at yishun. fun time with benny, wei jie and other friends. what's so fun ??? i don't know, maybe the craps haha !!!!

30th dec

this day is perfect wahahaha. cause got mahjong =x i sound like a gamble addict but NO. i am a MAHJONG addict, cause i don't really like other gambling games lols. no sense. met 1 and a half new friends today. why one and a half ??? melissa is my new friend, i never spoke to her before though i may have bumped into her often last time. that half leh, is ken, argh he has many names. why half ??? i made friends with him before, but just couldn't remember who he was. now that i finally do, he's my half-new friend =)

won alot the first round thanks to my luck haha. 3 tai zi mo, last tile somemore haha. 2nd round, 5tai =) wahhahaa, but squandered the money on KFC delivery, cause we were too lazy to brave the rain and storms to make our way to the coffeeshop. lost in the 2nd round. so kind of no win no lose.

met mama and ta yi at woodlands CWP, had a drink and headed for home.

31st dec

went out with relatives. met them at bugis but we didn't stay there for long. kept quarrelling with my cousin today haha. PMS perhaps. waited in the car when my aunties went to the supermarket to buy food. drove back to my uncle's house in jurong. sumptuous dinner until my stomach almost exploded haha. meeting them again tomorrow, plenty of family time haha.

1st january 2007 !!!!!

happy new years guys !!! haha, i woke up really late. made jelly for my many many little cousins. from the last dinner we had together, now everytime we dine together i had to make lots of jelly for them. it's really common but they like it, so i make lor haha. so that they won't take their time to finish their meal. i keep scaring my youngest cousin that everyone snatched her jelly away cause she ate too slowly, then she gobbled up her food =p good way with kids huh ?? watched TV and went home. very tired today la.

long long post. cya guys then =)

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1/01/2007 11:04:00 PM