When People Say Goodbye

wo xi huan ni, zhen de hao ai ni.
ke shi ni yi fang qi le wo, ba wo wang de yi gan er jing.
wo bu fu qi, yin wei wo fu chu de bi bie ren duo,
dan shi you bu neng rang ni duo ai wo yi miao zhong.
nan dao wo zhen de bu zhi de ma ??
ci ke de wo zhi neng shuo "wo hao lei ..."

yin wei lei, suo yi cai fang qi le ni, wo de zui ai.

it wasn't meant to be,
shi4 dao4 ru2 jin1, wo3 zhi3 neng2 an1 wei4 zi4 ji3.
it wasn't meant to be,
shi4 dao4 ru2 jin1, zhi3 neng2 shuo1 wo3 men2 wu2 neng2 wei2 li4.
ke3 shi4 ni3 wo3 xin1 li3, qin1 chu3 ming2 bai2 zhe4 fen4 ai4, ruo4 jian1 chi2 zou3 xia4 qu4,
wo3 men2 hui4 zai4 yi1 qi3.

after our breakup, i've gone to your house a number of times. well, everything went rather painful this time for me. but 9th of feb, this is the day i left with the heaviest heart, a heart that's totally sunken. no anything very suicidal or what, but the totally lost and hopeless feeling. after this meeting, it assured me nothing less than 100% that someone or something have already stole your heart away. and you eyes already told me that we are impossible.

it's been a painful road to walk on, the times when i hanged on. the times my heart yelled out loud, the times when voices go unheard. i yearned for someone like i never did, i braved through the storms i never had. you used to tell me never to leave you, but now you're pushing me out that door. slamming it shut tightly, never letting me in though i'm suffering outside.

just what have we become ?? i can't accept the fact that your heart's already with something else. i may always sound like i'm making a big fuss about everything, but that is just how much you matter to me. but let me ask you, throughout these 8months of my agony while waiting, did i ever matter one bit to you ??

i never thought this day will come. i always thought that i could persevere and wait till you come back. i never knew it was gonna be so hard, i never knew that i wouldn't matter to you anymore. i always trusted your words that you say you'll care for me. but it doesn't seem like it's gonna work. i'm sad, really sad, but i can't cry anymore.

3oo4o6 11.11pm --> a wrongful decision made, if not for that, everything wouldn't be so painful now.

*writing a thousand words to express an infinity mixture of feelings.

' SHATTERED <3>
2/11/2007 11:35:00 PM