When People Say Goodbye

erm .. don't need to "haha and dunno why i need to post another long page of comments" it's exactly the same reason as you did.
"i feel i have the right to clarify my thoughts, if not people will start pointing fingers at us when they read her blog. "

both of our bloggings are rather one-sided i would say, so isn't it natural to feel the need to clarify to avoid further accusations or finger-pointing ?? this i think you won't have much to doubt about cause everyone's the same.

i didn't say you couldn't be harsh on me. i was the one who started being mean. BUT what i said was that you need not repeatedly emphasize on that 5-letter word just to make me feel bad. i know i used it first out of impulse, which i have already apologised. at that point of time, i know you will think that i intentionally use that word to insult you, but you could have just warn me in your post instead of using it in almost every single sentence.

i said that you do not care for jarrel's feelings, i DID NOT once try to judge you. on what basis you asked. to the fact that you didn't think before you said everything. if i care for my friend, i wouldn't have said those things to him. and what's more, is that by saying those, it's not even for his own good, it's just to show your anger. so that is why i claim that you don't care for your friend. about your other friends, i never even commented cause i didn't see how you treat them. whether jarrel thinks you or me are good friends to him or not, that we can't really talk about it, isn't it ?? it's up to him to decide.

you told your boy about it, i didn't say you couldn't. yes, you did whisper to eunice before we started the 2nd pok. maybe you didn't remember. one is your good friend, the other is your boy, BUT i didn't say you couldn't tell them.

try remembering the time when you discussed it with eunice's boyfriend too. 4 of you guys were discussing about it, i saw it and heard it with my own ears and eyes. you started whispering because me and jarrel did it ?? i am affected by your whispers because after they heard we you said, they gave me a unexplicable look, as if i was, erm ... i don't know. and obviously, it didn't feel good. so i whispered to jarrel to tell him about it. point understood ??

ok about your words of anger, i don't doubt you. but you angry also too long already right ?? already last pok liao lor, the matter pass very long liao. so that's why i was wondering if you pusposely said it to hurt or it just came out like that. i misunderstood you, sorry.

i need to tell you that you can't link the case of jarrel winning and giving it to me to this case. that was at his relative's house. the stakes were rather big. plus, we weren't playing on the same table, in other words, we KUP. of course we split winnings or loses. but when we are playing on the same table, we don't split anything at all. when i win i keep, unless he really lose alot, i may just give him a lil from mine to help him abit incase he don't have enough to use.

however, when you claimed that he was being unfair and letting me win on purpose, you can never link that to the previous case. cause at that point of time, i was still winning, so there's no reason why he should let me win, or in other words "fang shui". and i already won quite alot the previous day, so why should he ?? erm .. is this ok and clear already ??

about what you whispered to your boy i won't probe, cause since you whispered, it must be something personal between the two of you.

with this, i think there's no need to keep on ranting again. i believe it's already very clear now. whether to keep the ill-feelings or not, i leave it up to you. but as jarrel know me, i'm angry for at most 2 days, and then it's "sunday" again. =)

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3/05/2007 11:23:00 PM