When People Say Goodbye

hmmmm what should i say here. having moody days again, every single lil thing affects me. when i can't find anyone to go out with, i know that people don't like me. YEAH that's very true la. when people who used to always be by my side shuns me, i know that i did something wrong, and that is to neglect them for boyfriends.

boyfriends are such a wrong thing to have LOL !!! another issue i thought about was why people go "gaga" over those models in very skimpy clothings on magazines like FHM, MAXIM and so on.

i have this really jovial friend who was reading this MAXIM magazine and told me that he would like to meet some of the models or maybe miss maxim one day. so i wondered why. yes, i cannot deny that they look totally gorgeous (maybe not for some) on the front page or photos, but not to that extent where you need to meet them in real life to live on.

who knows what type of person they are, they can be really nice people or just some eff-ing bitches, maybe some cheapskate whores. ok, too serious haha. they look really good on magazines but maybe not in real life. i personally know quite a few models, and i agree that some of them are really just as pretty w/o makeup or even when they just had a hungover. however, they are also some models whom you cannot recognize w/o their thick and heavy makeup. if they are in slacks and some ragged t-shirt, they will just look like any obasan.

ok of course you can give your eyes some entertainment by flipping through these magazines, but don't get too obsessed over them la. pretty girls are almost everywhere, many different types of pretty, some of the girls in pasar malam also can look prettier than some models without makeup. so what do you think ??

maybe if you really wanna meet them, do it on roadshows or photoshoots, not when they are slopplishly dressed, you might be surprised with what you see. well well well .... models are photogenic, not miss perfect, so no point drooling over them all day. LOL !!! of course it's better than looking at me la. =pppp

the only thing i'm happy about is that i got many many off days this week but on a second thought, i'm not happy at all. cause i can't find any company, so i gotta rot at home. had sushi with kian siong today, very happy =))) long time since i had dinner with him. played pool with him and wei lun, was terribly disappointed with myself la.

when i learnt that someone got stead, somehow i felt kinda jealous. for no reason la haha, emotional upset. it's like you see you good friend who used to spend quite sometime with you, now have no time for you, even when he's with you, he's on the phone with her. yeah that feeling, but it subsided in 2minutes LOL !!!

why am i getting upset so easily nowdays ?? hmmmm. pretty left alone also, cause i've been working and sleeping, nothing else. other times are with my family, kinda neglected my friends =((( but am really too tired. even if one day got 48 hours also no use, don't even have time for myself. my complexion is getting worse, i'm growing more horizontally, things are in a messed, and damned school is starting !!!!!

i'm too used to holidays perhaps. gotta work tomorrow, but i miss you =((( SIGHS- that day is coming ................................ without you by my side.

' SHATTERED <3>
4/10/2007 01:55:00 AM