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Jolynn Chew Wen Yu
Ngee Ann Poly (ECH)
She loves to gossip, but when she doesn't talk, don't force her
She's trying to be nice, don't make her turn nasty
She's not someone you will deem as CHIO, but don't try to put her down
She has very low self-esteem.

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life's going on well ... erm ... not really la .... no not well ...

can i make up my mind ??!!!

IT SUCKS !!! feeling sick and stuff ... having loads of problems that i dunno why i have to go thru ... see all the unfairness, accept all the ugly sides of my life ...

ok la, dont say until i so ke lian ... i'm also a very bad person that i know. i have zero tolerance for everything that doesn't go my way. in other words, stubborn. then i can't stand injustice done to myself and my friends or whoever i'm helping, but to others, i can't really be bothered. BIAS !! selfish or whatever u call it.

alot more i'm lazy to type out here, get to know me and you'll know. i'm not trying to be pessimistic here, but hiyah, it's the truth la. i dont wanna deceive myself. that's the reason why i got such a bad life, and i only have myself to blame. if i treat everyone good, everything will be better, i wont be so miserable. but i just dont know why i cant. why do i have to be so temperemental and whatever i dunno.

ok some days back i saw that very blissful couple (names not mentioned here, they will know themselves if they read it), then i saw her again at the other side of school. ok coincidence la, then rmb-ed those stupid conflicts and thought that i was kinda rash, temperemental hormones raging. i was 90% at fault for not speaking nicely, hiya but i also dunno la. i just have the urge to hate myself, i have to. i don't know why i thought of them of such bad ppl at that time when they aren't really are. unfair to them ba, all i can say is sorry ba.

so many things have flew past my eyes and i never learnt to treasure, so i got none. it's time i do something, but i don't have motivation nor strength to do so. it's kinda religious so it's hard to find a partner, cause only deep believers will wanna do that. i shall find that spirit back, on my own.

being single for so long, i shan't deny that i feel lonely and want someone to acc me. but i don't want to take just anyone, cause it hurt others as well as myself. even if someone appears and things are mutual, i also don't dare. afraid that i wont treasure, afraid of getting hurt. maybe i should just be a nun, cause buddha wouldn't abandon me ?? well ... it's almost impossible haha.

after saying so much, i don't know what i'm trying to drive at. this is the main reason why i always fail english wahahaha. ok, enough said, i'm tired of my life. let's go to slp =p

' SHATTERED <3>
7/01/2007 12:54:00 AM